A's is over! totally love my life now. im just gonna write what i have been doing so i can look back and check in the future :)

Weekend was spent well in church and i finally can hang out after services! Lazer tag was super cool. our church is really world class church. the planning team was just awesome! Im sure many new friends were impacted :) yeah man. church is not for the saved ones but for the unsaved ones. Im sure theres gonna be a great harvest coming especially as Big days draw nearer! grow grow grow. in quantity and quality :)

supper for the past two days and i think my digestive system kind of screwed up. havent been eating proper breakfasts and my meals are so rubbish. I need to live a healthy lifestyle again! and val cheong came my hse stay last night and we slept till noon. its my first time sleeping past noon after so long! but it doesnt feel good. haha. slping early and waking early still works better. but anyway, we ordered pizza and we had too much faith. we ordered two pizzas and two side dishes and couldnt finish. in fact, we left a box of pizza untouched. haha. kind of.

went for steamboat at cheryl's house after that and huishi and me took the wrong bus. we were 1 hr late! the guys and the two girls started eating. it was a good hang out :) the game was fun too. haha. i guess i ll really miss school. it just feels different without school! we were discussing about prom and still discussing now. im looking forward to it:) as quoted by huishi "im going to shock people" haha. its quite funny. but its gonna be fun with the fun bunch of people!

many times, our lives are made up of decisions. pastor how said last weekend that our lives are governed by our thinking. its so true. either be filled with good thoughts or bad thoughts. i rather have faith and think good thoughts because only by doing that, will it make me a happier person :) the past yr was a mess yet i learnt so many things. next yr is gonna be even better!:)

A levels is finally here and 3 papers down.. 5 more to go. It has not been good... Somehow im on the verge of giving up. haha. whats the point... whats the point of studying so hard for two years when on the actual day itself, you lose control of time management.. ahh. i really dont know what to say. But, i can only encourage the sec 4 ppl not to go to a jc. haha. but if i can, i wouldnt mind restarting this year. Alright, im not gonna give up. I'm still gonna give my best. Im a strong girl and my mind is strong. Yes, i ll fight till the end. Even if everything is not as expected, i know i have given my best.. at least at this moment..i ll do what i can.. and for now, I need to spend time with God. The verse from Jeremiah 29:11 keeps ringing in my head since monday. I believe God has placed that verse in my heart to assure me that no matter what the outcome may be, my future is safe in His hands.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.


Really like the chorus of this song, happy by leona lewis. :)

someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea

holding on tightly
just cant let it go
just tryna play my roll
slowly diasappear, oooh
well all these tears
they feel like theyre the same
just different faces, different names
get me outta here
well i can stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
pass me by

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
oooh

so any turns that i cant see
ill count a stranger on this road
but don’t say victim
dont say anythng

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about all the pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy

2 more days to As! FINALLY. im feeling excited and happy that its gonna end, yet feeling so stress because i know, im not working HARD enough. SIGH. im supposed to be out in a birthday party now, but, i gotta study :(

i was just thinking, many people tell me, God will help me, God will bless me, God will bring me through since i've been faithful. But thoughts came to me and sometimes, people just cant stop thinking of bad stuffs yeah. And i started to have doubts and i thought, if God will help me, then wont He help other christians too since He loves us all the same. He doesnt love me more than any of them. And tell me, how many christians are there taking As! wont they all do well too! But they are my competitors!!! haha. i know its such a childish thought. Yet, i got a revelation:) God spoke to me. That it shall be according to my faith. While there are thousands and thousands of christians taking the same papers, we all have different level of faith and it is the amount of faith that we have that will bring us through. So, how much faith do i have now? haha.

well well well, so many things i want to do after As. i want to spend more time with church people, i want to go for integration outings, i want to go out with my cousins, i want to go for prom, i want to go out with my bro's gf and go shopping with her, i want to meet up with my pri school friends, i want to enlarge my social circle by going out to work. i want i want. But most importantly, i want to build my team. i want to bring more people in. we're gonna grow! :D


And i come across this song and was singing with zhilin. This is such a sad song :( Some people only realise how precious something is after they had taken it for granted and when things or circumstances become different. I dont want to be that in that category because i never want to lose something precious in life and only to realise it when it is gone. It is a decision i made.

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我

走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多

i thought i should just blog about whats happening in my life. So if one day i ever loss my memory, i ll be able to remember! oh man.. i hope that day doesnt come thought sometimes i wish it would be easier to forget certain stuffs that happened in my life. hahaha.

My bro went army this morning and i really miss him alot now. It feels so different without him disturbing me and just being there. Now then i realise how much difference it makes not having him at home. He would order macdelivery for us and drive me to church and stuff. Not forgetting how he woke up early at 6am one morning just to send me to school. oh man! haha. sounds so emo. But its only 2 weeks. haha. everything will be okay because i know he is in more than just one person's prayer. His girlfriend just told me he went with her to church before! oh man. God is moving. :) I should continue praying. haha. He even sings worship songs nowadays.. like. "God will make a way...when there seems to be no way.." Yeah man. God is so real. I have been spending so much time with my family these few days and i dont regret even if i had compromised my studying time. Family still comes before studies.

Went pulau tekong with family and my bro's girlfriend this morning. It doesnt seem as bad as i had thought it is. But, it seems tough. We saw guys cleaning window. HAHA. what a cool sight. And hongrui and daryl told me yes, they do clean windows themselves. hahaha. cool cool... Army turns boys to men. haha. i cant wait to see the changes it will do to my brother. Saw shengye and jiahock there too! Really cool. my bro's girlfriend was like telling me that im like a manager there or something. haha. okay, i cant remember what was the exact word she used.

After tekong, cheryl and i met up at airport to study. After much considerations, we decided to go to the t2 Macs. And at there, we changed tables like 3 times before we settle down in a comfortable area. We studied and got really frustrated. The funniest thing happened when we called weeyang who told us jiamin was jogging. the images of jm jogging in school just came to our mind. haha! And when jm called us, she kept demanding for the reason to why we know she was jogging and we told her that we saw her and asked her to wave to some hdb flat which we lied we were at. I just want to clarify. jiamin i know you read my post. haha. The thing is, we didnt have the purpose to lie to you! haha. But its because you persist on knowing the reason thats why, we played along. haha. But its really quite funny! at least we had a good laugh over the phone. hahaha. And while eating dinner, cheryl and i were just talking about our class and what might happen after As and stuffs. Its nice to have such talk. I hope that even as we part after prom, we'll still meet up:) Its quite a productive day i think.. QUITE. haha. we're gonna go back there to study again!:)

My eyes are so tired now. So many things i want to let out. all i want to say.. 2009 hurry go away... its a bad bad year. yet, i still love my life and i still thank God for EVERY thing that has happened and for EVERY person who has appeared in my life. i've received so much encouragements during this period. Even when i feel so sick of studying and discouraged, there are always people there to just speak life to me. I think i have been telling alot people that i'll treat them to something after my As because of what they have been doing for me and one of them is jessica koh! haha. whao. i believe 2010 will be a year of breakthroughs. :)

And hey weiyin, if you read this, just want to tell you that you have been a great support during my As period, always encouraging me. Thanks so much girl! There're so many things i want to do with you! We're gonna go chinatown eat, go sing songs, watch movie, shopping and just hanging out together. And even more, we are gonna work as a team and bring more souls into His kingdom, Amen! :) Love you very much! Keep growing and guarding your heart. you'll go farrrrrr.. :D

JUST THE BEGINNING...

what a glorious day
what a glorious way
that You have saved me!

:)

Prelims results are horrifying. Its time to work hard this last lap. Honestly, im feeling so much fear. What if i cant get into a local uni. It might be the end of the world. But i surrender all to God. His promises never fail. And no matter what it is, He'll have a great plan for me. I need to put in more hard work! Faith and hard work bring success! Speak faith!

Let Your will be done, Lord :)

Pastor Jamaal preached a great sermon this afternoon and the team from CCC was just amazing! Totally love their dance and praising and worshipping with them was just a privilege :) What an exciting weekend :) Heart of God church is just amazing. As pastor went through the report card, i was just so moved and touched by all the great things that God is doing in our church. For greater things have yet to come.. :D 2010 will be a GREAT year :)

Just saw a lyrics of "if i were a boy" by Beyonce. The lyrics is really cool.
and it says,
"It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think i'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong"

"You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed"

It makes me realise how people tend to take their closest friends for granted sometimes. Maybe because they are always there, you never really think of what will happen if one day, they just disappear.. I dont want to have any regrets in my life yet, i dont want to face disappointments from people. Like what pastor jamaal said, the greater the expectations, the greater the disappointments. That sentence just hit me. Trust doesnt come easy but people take trust for granted. Its time to do some reflections.

Still excited for the future.. :)

I have to blog this! I read this at cheryl chern's blog.

"To cut the story short, I dreamt that Hitler was holding us captive at my previous home. And he found out that we were arming ourselves with penknives (mine was a green one that I stuffed into my jeans). I stabbed him. and we ran and he gave chase. All the way to the first floor. OK, in the end, he was supposed to be dead. But when we were watching the news, I realised that he was being interviewed and he told my father to beware!"

This is really funny. haha. i hope i dream of... i dont know. haha. just not Osama or Hezbollah and all those fundamentalist groups. hahaha. okay.. This shows that i have not really started studying for cold war!!! All that is on my mind is only from the theme of religious fundamentalism. OH MAN. i shall start soon :)

Life is good, life is great! Studying can be fun too. I am proud to say, i have not broken down because of studying so far. haha. I think i have become a strong girl! I just hope i will not crash when my results come out :( I need to work harder, need to sacrifice more... while others have more time to study, its not an excuse for me to do badly in school. A change of mindset is needed here!

Well well well. Some people are just trying too hard. They just dont get it. I dont get it too. But some things are not worth to be a fool for. I admit i was once a fool. But today, im only gonna be a fool for Christ :) Everytime i think of what i've gone through in life, i thank God. Because, everything happens for a reason and if i follow the narrow path, i will get there somehow. Maybe if i have not know him, not known her, things might be different. Yet, God still brought me far and i grow matured as a person. Sometimes we just need to be honest and evaluate on whether what we are doing, is really in God's will. Afterall, its all dependent on your relationship with God.. I treasure this relationship more than any other relationships because only God will never disappoint me. People change, but God is the same, yesterday, today and forever! :)

Jeremiah 17:9
"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?"

Three days ago, i made a decision to give my heart to God. Not that i have not given my heart to Him, but i felt that sometimes as humans, we lose control and we just want to follow our heart(which is deceitful and wicked). I told God to guard my heart until the day, my heart is thouroughly cleansed. Today, i feel that my heart is so much cleaner and there is the peace of God guarding it.

So many good news last few days :) Exciting things are happening. Truly, greater things have yet to come. I'm excited for my future!:)How about you?

I see us, lifting up hands and worshipping God in a classroom. God's promises never never fail... :)

OH MAN!:( i hate what i am feeling now. The kind of sianess, knowing that prelims is in... 6 days time. Its so crazy :( RAH. i shall take control over my emotions for now. Whatever im feeling now, i ll give thanks to Him. I thank God for friends around me. haha. Seeing how the people in my life always bring laughter to me and always being there for me is just sweet enough. After going through so much, i made a decision never to take people for granted. When you start to open your eyes and see the bigger picture, you ll realise that actually there are many people, whom you seldom notice, who care and value you more than those you thought who does. I begin to understand what it means to say that our actions speak louder than our words. Sometimes, we're just too stuck in our own world. But its time to step out of it, and enjoy every second of my life. Now, i need to lift the value of some people in my life, and lower the value of the other few in my life who dont deserve it. hahaha. i can't believe im even feeling this way now. Perhaps, God is really testing me. No matter how much i try to avoid these thoughts.. Oh man. Peijun.. God is in still in control:) my thoughts are so disoriented now... so much i want to let out but words can never express it man. :( i need to be introduced to more bombastic words.

My birthday has passed and im officially 18 years and 2 days old now. D: SO OLD. haha. But im really touched by all the smses.. I love reading those long smses and the many cards i received. Its really sweet.. :) knowing how much others value you and giving thank to God for appearing in their lives. haha. It makes me want to do even more for people and lead a significant life.. :) Jessica is just so sweet. I once went out with her and told her i like a metal hairband with heart-shaped design. And she actually bought it! And jasmine said she bought it long ago.. haha. How can you not be touched man.. haha. I also finally know what jessica koh's secret mission is already. Haha. Its so amazing that ive only known her for a month and she actually did much for my birthday and the messages she sent just brightened my day :) Oh, and thanks jiamin, cheryl and huishi for the 18 boxes -.- haha. I am 'surprised'. You girls made me carry the huge bag of boxes everywhere and made me opened all the 18 boxes and to find that only one contains all the many different gifts! The rest of the boxes contain notes -.- You girls are the best man... haha. But still, thanks for the effort and spending 3 hrs wrapping the boxes and the 3G call at 12am. haha. :) And, jieru and the cuddle group leaders called and sang birthday song at midnight too. Haha. I was lol-ing throughout and they couldnt even sing a proper whole song! hahaha! Its really very funny. haha. And everyone started calling me cinderella -.- I just realised its everywhere, in blogs, in twitter, in smses..... :s Since when did i officially name myself cinderella! haha. So nonsense. And finally, i must say that nicholas's gift is the most meaningful one ever man.. hahaha. Even Valerie said she didnt know what to get for me anymore after seeing his gift. Haha. The best expression that describes what i felt when i saw it was.. O.O Hahaha! And, can i say that im really touched that the prayer group people in school actually even wished me even though i only attended twice of the meetings this year.. :s haha. And really have to thank daryl ooi who i dont even see anymore now. For the message in the card.. its nice reading it. haha. My brother even called from Thailand to wish me on my birthday:) Its nice that he even remembers it. And to all my pri school friends who smsed me! haha. Thats the best part. After like so long of not meeting up. Weiwei sent a sweet msg too :) Thanks so much everyone :) I'll make full use of all the gifts. hahaha.

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen..

my favourite people in school :)

eloise is asking me to go her house for stayover now!!! at such a good timing! haha. speaking of that, val, nic and hr almost wanted to come my hse for supper and then stay! but, something happened. haha. well. there'll be another time :) after my A's! HAHA. but met val for supper just now. just had a nice chat and stuff. after like few days of not meeting up. haha. i was on the bus back home and i realised that the people on the bus were all kind of weird... :s


Before the supper, i met up huishi and we went ion together! haha. it was my first time there and that place is HUGE. that we couldnt even find where the toilet is. I didnt really like the crowd though. Singaporeans are really free.. haha. It has been a long time since i last travelled beyond paya lebar mrt station. And, im serious! haha. im either at school or in church. And of cos, home :) haha. My brother would call me a mountain turtle. Anyway, we bought a skirt! haha. We saw many things we like but didnt buy them in the end. After awhile, jiamin joined us:) Talked about the lunch which i missed in the afternoon due to my econs tutor who has superrr tight schedule. -.- He was like nagging at me non-stop after i told him that i was going ion after tuition. haha. It was nice hanging out with the girls, and cheryl, where are you!!! sigh. there'll be a next time that the 4 of us can just hang out together! Definitely after our A's is over. We need a break!

School was stupid. the j1s had celebration while the j2s had normal lessons after 9am. SIGH. I had mc for past two days and it wasnt that bad to go to school again. At least, i can see the people whom i enjoy hanging out with :) But, it was quite a bad day today, according to jiamin. haha. But i guess the day turned great when she realised derek is fine with her postponing her tuition slot. haha. Mr ng is the funniest and slackest teacher i've ever met. Which teacher on earth will take stupid qigong pictures with his student. He's just bored of teaching i guess. haha. But it was really quite funny. Yes, school isnt that bad afterall! Its just the studying part which is BAD.

I cant wait for this weekend to come! In fact, it is already here. haha. Thing are going to be great. I need more faith! i really do.. haha.

I just really love my life, love what i am doing. All that has past has past. It'll all be left with memories but things will not be the same again. Now is the time to look forward and anticipate a greater future. I want to do great things for God and be a history maker! This revival will not stop! I hold the vision He gave in my heart. This revival will not stop even during the A's period. More people will come. The harvest is plentiful. It truly is plentiful.. :) Think bigger!

On that day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace
All my fears swept away
In the light of Your embrace
Where Your love is all I need
And forever I am free

Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven
Rise to You alone

In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails
Where Your Name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day

Where the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven

No weeping no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now
You hold me now

Peijun cannot fall sick! No she cant! Oh man, i really cant afford to fall sick at this moment. Its not good to miss lessons afterall. AHH. NOO! i cant fall sick now! at least not until A levels end :( Speaking of that, it reminded me that i've less than 100 days left :(

Just watched 'fated to love you' on channel u and kind of miss that show! i watched it after Promos last year. haha. Miss those time when i just dont have to worry about exams. arhh.. soon soon... just a little more. Im gonna conquer that huge mountain.

But first, I got to take out huge elephants in my head. So many things recently. And i find myself being distracted constantly. When i tried to study, thoughts start crowding in my head. I hate this kind of feeling. Why is it so hard to get them out. I made a decision to stop thinking but yet, i failed. I need to study! This year is indeed not a smooth year and i know God is moulding me, building me to be a stronger person. It seems like everyone is facing problems in the area of relationships recently. Or should i just say, problem with people. haha. I've come to realise that everyone has a story to tell about their life. You will never be able to understand someone deeply because even we cant understand ourselves fully. I've come to realise that closeness is not based on how much smses or calls you made with another person but is based on the quality time you spend with him. How can you even tell what this person is thinking just by looking at the screen of your handphone or computer. Was that even closeness to begin with. I still cant figure that out. Yet, i believe there was something special about it. Something that God has planned beforehand so we can all grow. I hate pretense. I really hate it.. I pray that God will bring me back the simplicity in me, just like how i was as i read through my old blog posts. People around me will NOT change me. I've learnt it the hard way that people do change. haha. even the closest people change so quickly that you are unable to tell which of them is real. Its disappointing yet frustrating. But, they can change all they want, i will not. Others can, i cannot. At the end of the day, i know, i will not compromise my destiny for anything. Seeing how people are living their lives placed a burden in me sometimes. God, take control of every area in my life because only You know which is the path i should take.

FOP on friday was just fabulous. Pastors and HoGc videos are the BEST. I'm just so proud to be part of this wonderful church. Youths under 22 can do such a great stop-motion video. Only in HoGc can you find such a commited bunch of youths who will go the extra mile just to make things happen and bring glory to God! Truly, at the end of the day, its not about bringing us famous, but giving God all the glory. Jesus increase, i decrease :)


powerful video with a powerful message :D

Looking at the amount of tissues im using, I shall not go school tomorrow :( But, its not a rest day... I will try to study D:

YAY im a happy girl. Weiyin's email and jessica's sms.. Pastor Lia's sermon was awesome! my God is great! Its all about having the child-like faith again, holding on to God, believing in Him to move. I've seen so much recently, got to know so much recently, went through the lowest point of my life when my parents just get sooooo upset with me, my results are one of the lowest in class despite having two tuitons, being late for school twice in two weeks and all the ups and downs. But none of these things move me! I'll STAND. Dont lose focus peijun! Everything that i am doing now, is only for God. To fulfil His calling. I will NEVER compromise my destiny in Him. NEVER. A levels and exams and objection will NOT pull me down. Keep loving people and building people, drawing people nearer to God. Bringing people in to this big family of God. There's so much more i can still do. I'll never be satisfied. Prepare your heart peijun! Because there's still SOOO much more i can do with His power. Miracles and dreams do come true.. They do if i believe and work for it. Keep my focus on God and run this race of faith!

I'm gonna labour with His power:)

Such a powerful song :)

Would you believe me if i said
That we are the ones who can make the change in the world today
Would you believe me if i said
that all of the dreams in your heart can come true.....today...
would you believe me if i said
that life could be all that you want it to be ...today...

and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
'cause Your all that i believe
and the one that created me Jesus....
because of You i'm Free

Would you belive me if i said
that God can make miracles happen today
would you believe me if i said
that you don't need to wait for the answer before you step out in faith
would you believe me if i said that nothing is ever impossible.. for God

Just live your life with God inside
you won't regret one moment of it
and give all that you can for God. for God

For yiying and valerie who kept asking me to blog. I've blogged:)

Byebye:)

HAHA. but seriously, i've got so much to say but now is not the right time. look at the time! :( its time to sleep. tomorrow will be a great day with great follow up. And Jessica and Sabrina are each bringing a friend each! WHAO:D This is powerful alright :) And, weiyin intitiated a worship and prayer session with me. Thats COOL :) Everyone is growing, i am growing too:) Contented but never satisfied! AMEN:D

A A A B B! DREAM BIG! I'm gonna shock my classmates and teachers and parents to the max. Its time for the invisible hard work peijun! You've been so distracted recently, but now its time to let that go. There are many more things to work on and do. I love my life:) My life has a greater purpose:) And, i pray you will find your purpose in life one day too and lead a great awesome life! Heart of God church is the best church ever :) i love my pastors :) Who says we cant do well in church and in school at the same time. I just need discipline man! Discipline!!!

Believe and trust. Whats that man. Not everyone deserves my trust. right? haha. But yes valerie, even if one day i found out that youre not the valerie that i once knew, i will still believe and trust in you girl!:) HAHAHA. Still, its better to trust in the Lord :)

alright! only four more hours in my lala land! tomorrow will be great. i proclaimed it! :D

Be blameless, peijun :)

its been a long time since i last slept past noon :) happy youth's day :)

Exams have ended but yet, im not feeling delighted at all. i screwed up my maths and history paper, and maybe china studies too. i'm so going to fail 2 h2s :( how bad can that be. Its not as if i did not try my best, but the past few weeks have been rather distracting for me. I tried to study. I tried to put in effort but yet, it was not effective at all. Oh man :( this cant be happening for A levels too! Prelims is coming.. near my birthday :( sigh. haha. I am really not prepared to take A's. Will you just postpone the exams? h1n1 has the ability to do so :) haha. but again, i have come so far! how can i be discouraged so easily! Yes, im learning to let go of all the bad thoughts and let God take control. And, i will not be defeated so easily. 4 more months to go. I'm going to expand and think bigger and greater. because my God can do exceedingly above all that we ask or think :) amen.

I love weekends so much :) D5 is really growing! And not just in quantity, but also in quality. The newer people in the cg are also rising up to take ownership of the cg. haha. And, i really have to say that shipei, yiying and eloise are the people that always always make me laugh alot! haha. i really love to hang out with people like them :) I love d5 and i thank God for placing me in this lovely family :) And, i really love to do follow ups with jessica :) After every follow up lesson, there's this sense of fulfilment in me and hearing what jessica shares really put a smile on my face :) More than that, i always receive my own personal revelation while preparing for the lessons :) Even during the exams period, i will give my best for every follow up lesson. This is a decision i made.

Lets give God the best years of our lives:) Its not about living the relaxing and comfortable life we want. But i found greater purpose in living a life for God and others. Pastor Kent's sermons really impacted me. Only Jesus can satisfy us. Why would people want to look for security and hope in another person through relationship? All these are only temporary if they are not in God's purpose and will. Why waste those time and having to go through hurts and disappointment. Pastor kent said that sins is never satisfying. Truly, once we fall into it, we will fall deeper and deeper and keeps going further and further from God's purpose and words. These thorns growing inside of us will soon crowd out the word of God and soon, there will be no space for His words. Whao, what he shared really clicks with what i shared with jessica for follow up lesson on friday :) What pastor kent says really encourage me, God will let us meet the right people on the other side of the battle. The people that will go through life together with us. He will provide the peace and prosperity. I've got to go.

I'm so looking forward for DR AR Bernard services! Im anticipating for greater things to happen :)

Yiying sent me this song on friday and i just fall in love with this song. I let everyone hears this song. haha. And it was only yesterday that i realise it was a very old song-.- Jieru said she loved this song during her JC days. And wendy neo said she used to emo this song after she broke up with her boyfriend. haha. But its a reallly nice song with really sweet lyrics. Thats what love is really about man.. haha. I pray that God will let me meet someone whom i can sing this song for and really mean every single word that i sing. haha. AND, its not a fairytale. it is realistic -.-
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

i need to focus! i cannot take it anymore D: i just cant focus. i have really really short attention span and this is really bad. 4 more months to A's... come on peijun. you said you can do it. why are you procrastinating! why are you letting yourself being distracted :( honestly, i cant wait for this year to end. SIGH.

people really confuse me at times with the things they do. personally, i dont see myself as a complicated person but the world and the people around me complicate my perspective of them. yet, a part of me still wants to trust and believe. maybe, because it matters alot to me. but one truth is that, i cant deny everything that is happening now. its time to grow out of your bubble world, peijun. the fact is, people do change, unknowingly. i pray the mystery will be unlocked soon. and till that day, i will only cry out to God to take away all the nonsense thoughts in my head. i still see hope.

still, i thank God for everything that has happened and for the people He put in my life. i know i will grow to be wiser and stronger.

Though all else falls away, still i'll praise.

yes valerie cheong, i am blogging now :)

But words just cant express how i am feeling now :s Today was a bad exam day. I'm tired of telling it because i think i told everyone about how 'bad' my day was. But i thank God for everyone who made me smiled and laughed:) Its time to start putting in extra extra effort. Time waits for no man! Just a little more.. peijun :) you can do it:) yes, i can! :D

2 Timothy 1:7
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind"


I think i really like love songs :) Jasmine lets me listen to disney songs. Haha. Its really nice.
And this song is nice too:) its not disney song!

Your Guardian Angel - acoustic.mp3 -


When I see your smile,
Tears run down on my face.
I can't replace.
And now that I'm stronger, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Seasons are changing,
And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

'Cause you're my, you're my, my-e-y-e-y,
My true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
'Cause I'm here... for you!
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay... here

the lyrics is nice although it doesnt relate to me :)

the weather is cold tonight. my hands and feet are cold now. my heart is cold too. haha. woah. sounds emo. but, nope, im not emo-ing:) haha. my heart is still warm:)


2 more days of mugging. i am prepared to sacrifice my weekend already. haha. my econs tutor was telling me a few days ago, "you dont look stress. is it cause you have too much faith or you have given up." i was telling jasmine, this tiime round, i ll just trust iin God to bring me through. But after that, i am going to chiong like mad. Because, faith without hard work is DEAD. amen.

Just realised, alot of people are facing relationships problems. Just today, i heard of 3 problems. or rather, 4. people come and people go. in life, there are many people who will hurt us because, humans are not perfect. but there's just certain things that i have still yet to understand but i pray God will reveal it to me soon. I ll take it as a lesson learnt. Not to trust people so easily. It hurts. especially when the person matters most to you. Those people you share everything with. people whom you just thought you can trust. I have been living in my bubble world all along. and i can't believe that humans are actually so scary. People just scare me by the things they do. i dont think i am able to trust people who can even break their promises to God. Its scary. i despise hypocrites. But, my God doesnt. God is still faithful. I shall learn to love the unlovables. I need more love in my life and more acceptance. Be Christ-like. Yes. Let go and let God:) Still, i thank God for people like valerie, who always bothers me in the middle of the night.. TSK. hahaha:)


"Could it be, that You're in control.."


:) i love my life. i thank God for people who care. Really, i am a blessed girl. I need to know my position in Christ! With God, i have authority and victory!:D Ytd's follow up lesson with Jessica was great! I know i gave my best but i'm not satisfied. I'm gonna do even better the next lesson. Great things are happening. I love the things im doing now because i know i'm doing it for a greater purpose. How pastors really sacrifice and love the youths in heart of God church never fails to inspire me. I want to catch the hearts of pastors and keep loving people. Every life is precious in His eyes.



I still thank God for EVERY single person He has placed in my life:) The outing with my family yesterday was sweet. and i think my bro is a good guy. he offers to drive me to church this morning. just sad that he's going off to army soon:(

Reasons i love my life :)

weiyin, you just amazed me again and again. When i heard the amount you pledged last weekend, i was just blown away. haha. it takes alot of faith but i know miracles are going to happen when you made a covenant with God. Breakthroughs will come. Trust that God will provide :) You're just one powerful woman!

Life is not all about studying and studying although we NEED to study:( But there's a greater purpose in life and i want to run for that cause!

Past few weeks have been great. I feel myself growing in faith and closer to Him when i do my qt. There's just this desire of wanting to receive from Him and to just depend on Him. More than that, i really love the people in my life. I realised im someone who really values relationships more than anything else. I love spending tiime with people, especially my closer friends and family. They make me happy more than anything else:) And, zachary, jasmine, timothy, daryl and i met on saturday! It was a super random outing but i still enjoyed it. We can just talk about anything and its good to talk to daryl again and he is now bald!!! i still remember he was the one who would morning call me in the morning so that i could make it for prayer meet! haha. and he was just like a big brother to me and i've learnt alot from him too. i just miss those times we had prayer meet together in school last year. okay, i only went for twice this year i thhink :x haha. but i really miss people who graduated. like daryl and althea and even joash, who sings in the high pitch voice. haha. Time really passes fast...

Went to jiamin's house ytd to study and had econs tuition over at her house. I really think that the econs tutor is quite interesting and he really likes to nag alot. He makes me feels like i'm not studying hard enough. And, jiamin has started nagging at me too. I should go her hse study more. haha. and we surprised cheryl at her house -.- jiamin's idea again. haha. watched past of ghost girlfriend with zhenghui:) i must say that it wasnt as nice as i had expected. Hannah montana is sooo much nicer!:) i wouldnt mind watching it again. haha.

whao. nicholas just smsed me that he saw pastor tan at bedok blk 85 eating ba chor mee! SO COOL right!:D i wish im there but i shouldnt be as havoc as them.

we had a crazy night ytd. val came my hse at midnight,when i was about to step into lala land. and we casually asked nicholas and hongrui to buy supper over to my house. and guess what, they actually did it! And my parents were already asleep. haha. At first, we were having girls talk so we locked them out of my house for like 15miins. haha. but these guys are 'quite' nice at times:) so, we ate supper at liike 3am -.- and the funniest part was when nic actually fell off the chair! hahahaha! and, val and me continued our talk while nic and hongrui stayed in the computer room and we totally left the two on their own. It was crazy. I still cant believe they actually stayed over at my house. at least, my bro wasn't at home. haha. and my parents were shocked at first to see them. but my mom was so nice to the guys that they kept telling me my mom is as nice as me :) HAHA. apparently, hongrui was saying my mom is so nice, unlike me -.- well. they just havent seen the nice part of me:) but it was a good time of talk with val cheong and we actually talked all the way till 6am and prayed. indeed, we really shared out of our hearts. really, everyone has a story to tell of their lives and there's actually more than beyond what we see of a person everyday. and i thank God there's someone you can just share things with and know that he or she will not judge you differently and will be able to relate to you:)

i better start planning my study plans for june before my econs tutor come nagging at me again! i cant wait for zone camp! im really really looking forward for the revival nights! I'm anticipating for a breakthrough in my spiritual life and i know it will happen, especially during this whole period before the A's. Just like how i grow during the O's period, it will be the same this time. I will hold on to my vision and run because i know that one day, i will look back and say that it's all worth it:)

On this altar, i've written my life
Tells of the story i have with You, my Lord
i want the world to know

God of my forever, and forever i'm with You
my life is saved with a price,
Your sacrifice, redeemed my soul
God of my forever, and forever i will sing
my greatest honour will always be to serve my Lord and King

Firstly, i have to thank two crazy women for coming all the way to my house to wake me up on monday morning because i overslept and missed econs lecture! you girls are the best lah:) hahaha. and although i was reluctant to let you all in at first (because i hadn't brushed my teeth and wash up!), but im thankful for the "wake up call" and waiting for me to prepare to go for breakfast together. haha. its quite crazy. like what cheryl said in her blog, my mom must be happy that you all came to wake me up. she was complaining to the girls non-stop -.- and sorry for my rude brother who was shouting at you all :S haha.

Went to watch hannah montana with weiyin and jerene and the show is really good:) its kind of like modern day fairytale. the guy is cute:) and the movie is funny and sweet. Had dinner with my parents at a hk restaurant atfer that:)

Today was a long day... Went for chc prayer meet with jessica. It was awesome awesome awesome:) Really glad she made it. And when i prayed for her, i felt that God was moving and putting strength and faith in her. I felt so led by the Holy Spirit and it was just a great time of prayer together. I had a powerful qt last night. And i know God's promise will not fail if i have faith and believe in Him. There can be miracles when you believe :) Had history lesson after that and went for sl. And the kids there really bring smile to my faces.especially kaifeng. He's SO CUTE. i heard he has autism. but still, i like him and i just smile whenever i see him. he's really really cute. especially his hair. he likes to twirl his hair and he does it every like 20 secs! SERIOUSLY! And those few strands will stand up. hahaha! super cute Went down for cafe clean up straight after sl. Was tired but still, i feel faith in me and a sense of fulfilment.

Going for huddle cuddliing soon. So many things to say but so little time to blog. still, life is good because God is good :)

Just a few minutes ago, i was multi tasking!:) Watching video, smsing people, talking on msn to people and eating my burger!!! dont be mistaken. thats my dinner -.- at 1am:) hahaha. truly, we're living in a fast paced society where we just got to do so many things at a time, always rushing and fighting with time which always passes so fast like nobody's business. this reminds me of the busyness compre. well. im feeling sleepy now actually. but i just have to talk about my exciting life:) haha.

A week of holiday just passed. And i only studied for 2 days :( The rest of the week was just busy with events and stuffs. Wed had wedding the whole day and i went for the tea ceremony too -.- haha. Wedding dinner was funny. My brother made me laughed throughout the dinner. He's just.... so immature for his age. AHAHA. but he can really make me laugh. all his nonsense and jokes. haha. And, my mother laughed with us too. haha. the wedding was cool. i want to be a wedding planner. And i like all their wedding photos. So sweet! especially the photo at the Singapore flyer. But my brother was saying, he wants to go overseas for wedding photoshoot. Haha. i agree:) I'm 4d-ing myself getting marry at age 25. HAHAHA. joking. But God definitely has a better plan for me. I shall stop dreaming and let God take me to where He has planned for me. That'll be a real fairytale. haha.

Thursday was a day spent with qianqian. haha. we studied in the noon. And we met alot of mjc people. Qianqian was saying she didnt know her school people study so much as she's always at home and didnt know what the rest are doing outside. Well. Study. yes. all JC people do is, study! what a good life. haha. And we went shopping after that! i love the shopping outing spent with yiwen, shipei, eloise and qianqian. We had a great time together. Thanks shipei for all the funny and silly actions and jokes. You make our day man. hahaha! but i love shopping with them. Its amazing how we understand each other's 'style' so well. Haha. especially qianqian's!!! Everytime we see a shirt that we think qianqian will wear, we'll just shout "qianqian!" haha. but we had fun:) and we were even thinking of exchanging style one day. Like yiwen wearing qianqian's style and me wearing yiwen's style and so on. hahaha. i look forward to another shopping outing with you girls :)

Friday was another packed day. Tuition, service learning then follow up training session with pastor lia!:) Service learning was better than i expected. And i got to know cch people in the kids connect thing! Its a small world afterall. Seriously. I was super shocked and excited. They were telling me about the cch camp and stuff. And this guy was telling me, that our cch camp is 10 times better than his old church camp. Haha. When i told fungqi that, she was like super happy. Haha. And another kid told me how he finds the kid connect thingy boring after going for cch camp! HAHA. Yeah, of cos. We're heart of God church:) Im not boasting. But where else can you find kids who will be so passionate about church and God, always reaching out to their friends in school. haha. Follow up training with pastor lia was just powerful. I indeed learnt so much from pastor lia and pastor lia really spend alot of time and effort in preparing for the notes and training. I love my pastors :) Follow up is really the foundation for all christians and i want to give my best for the follow ups im going to do next time. I really really love heart of God church. Many thoughts were just going through in my mind. What pastor lia said really struck me, serving God is not about our feelings, but we serve God with our character. That sentence just struck me and hit me so hard. God was just speaking to me throughout the whole follow up training. Lead by His revelation and not by my own knowledge. That'll be the most powerful kind of leadership, when we are being led by His spirit. i desire for more of His presence and power in my life. Its time to expand my mindset and spirit. Today's service just spoke to me too. I felt like all my burdens are being lifted. I was feeling so burdened past few days. But, im going to let go and let God take control. Sow and you will reap :)

Okay. The burger is making me sleepy. Goodnight:)

Let my lifesong sing to You

Having mass conver with people now:)

Today's the last day of school! Gonna miss the 3 of them! And we saw a poster today titled"effects of stress" and there were 4 of them. Each of them really represents each of us! Huishi and cheryl's ones are the funniest! Shall wait for cheryl to post the picture. haha. And im sure they're gonna miss my "HAI-ings" Haha. Went down to TP after school and i felt like an alien there. But i had a great time with a bunch of great people. Though was just a casual lunch, i love this kind of company. Accompanied jasmine to polyclinic and waited for a looong time. haha. talked about qualities of husband again. and yes, my "tip-toe and kiss" thing shall come true:) hahaha. jasmine must be laughing when she reads this. haha. and had dinner with family before a long and tiring tuition. i must say, i love my parents. my mom was asking what im so frustrated about recently. She really cares for me:) And, shes coming for parenting workshop tmr! i told her, i will tell her after the workshop. So she will be able to help me better and not nag at me. HAHA.

Alright alright, study. i know. but i want to proclaim here: i love my life! though i may be sad, disappointed, tired, frustrated, irritated, stress and many more negative feelings you can think about, im still loving my life. i have only one life to live. how i choose to live it lies in my hands. i want to make my life a significant one. And i thank God for friends who care. for zhenghui who calls me when i wasnt feeling good, for jasmine who keeps speaking life to me, for cheryl jiamin huishi for always making me laugh in school, for zhilin who says she'll pray for my future husband(-.-), for weiyin who always shares good news with me and everyone, especially d5, who's always there to make me happy:) And most importantly, i thank God for jieru who always sow into our lives, teaching us to be better leaders and to love others. and i thank God for pastors and heart of God church:) im really sad i cant make it for pastoral meetng:( but im excited for the follow ups with pastor lia! There's so much more i can learn. I want to receive more. And i want to keep loving people and loving life. God has been faithful. I see light in the darkness. When im weak, He is strong. His grace is sufficient for me:) It has been a terrible week. Jiamin says, it takes 3 weeks to break a habit. I will die. this 3 weeks is crucial for me!!! how can i waste 3 weeks. haha. but, with God's power, i shall break it in 3 more days. I ll be a happier person then ! :)

When im weak, You are strong
You're my feet when i cant move on
You are the light in the dark
You're the whisper inside my heart

guess what! i napped for four hours just now! Jieru was saying it wasnt a nap at all. haha.But i didnt mean to. i only lied on my parents' huge comfy bed and before i knew it, i was in lala land and did not come back to reality. haha. how i wish i can stay there longer. haha. but my tutorials and studies were haunting me even in lala land D: and when i woke, the sky was dark and it was 9. how horrible is that. no wonder, im so awake now:)

school is great. laughed alot in school to de-stress:) its good to have friends who are stress too cos we can de-stress together:D
melvin showed me this song ytd and i think the lyrics is really meaningful. the climb by miley cyrus.

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

I was just praying in the afternoon. Im beginning to dislike what i'm feeling and thinking nowadays. The thoughts that always pull me down everytiime i try to focus on my studies. I prayed that He'll cast them all away. And, it came to me. That noone and nothing can make us sad or disappointed without our consent, or rather, God's consent. Many times, its our emotions that led us to feel all the bad and negative feelings and sadly, most people gave consent to these emotions by allowiing them to control us. Its such a horrible thing to let emotions rule over the way we live our life. Its scary. But, God's will is not for us to feel that way. He wants us to live each day, having the joy of the Lord in us and more than that, spreading this joy to the people around us. yeah, i ll rely and depend only on Him. I ll get over it and move every mountain in my life. i live to glorify Him.

On a random note, i was talking to weiyin about dream husband. Haha. And shipei is the funniest. i remember her telling me her criteria for her husband - good looking, buy rose for her blahblah. and best, averagely rich. HAHA. how do you even gauge how rich one guy is? seriously.. haha. and weiyin also wants someone a little rich. haha. so realistic. yeah if i can dream, i ll dream for a rich rich man:) but in reality, averagely rich sounds good:) everyone says i have high expectations. but then again, all i pray for is someone who will love me for who i am, williing to do anything to make me happy and will never never never never never hurt me or make me sad. a fairytale story with a happy ending :) hahaha :x every girl is a guy's missing rib. cool huh. so dont worry of not getting a life partner! hahaha!

its 1 am... sleep or study? hmm.

Had hq after school and it was a long hq. But it was great. Truly, every impression slip is a piece of destiny. haha. The tpjc group is growing and all the leaders have a good feel about this red rain harvest. It might not be a big group of new friends but its going to be more focused:) One life at a time:) I'm really excited! There're so many people i want to meet. I know im going to expand in capacity during this period of time!

School is still horrible but with the crazy but fun bunch of people in school, im beginning to 'like' school more:) haha. Thanks jm for making me laugh with huishi's story after seeing me so sad and stress. hahaha! Im laughing to myself now as im thinking of that story. hahaha! oh man. haha. my birthday is coming and im going to be 18! i just got a revelation today that promises can never last because people have no control of what's going to happen next. Whats the point of making a promise and then break it, causing hurt on people. There's no such thing as forever, only eternity in the kingdom of God. Only God's promises can be trusted cos He is a faithful God. Honestly, im feeling so emotionally led nowadays and just stressing myself over A's. Furthermore, the hot and humid weather is driving me mad. I'm really afraid that i wont be able to make it to uni. Just had a quarrel with my mom over that last night. I'm really afraid and there's so much fear in me you'll never guess how much there is. haha. everyday in school, people are just mentioning abbout A's and how much they've been studying. I really need more encouragements and faith. I made a decision to not be emotionally led but be spirit-led. I will not lose to the devil! WILL NOT!

Life is going to be great and greater:) This is how i choose to live my life.
Let Your harvest in:)

more confirmed new friends!:D weiyin, you're powerful lah!:) im really excited for RR!:D lives are going to be changed for His glory:) Prayer meeting today was great:D And my bro sent me to church today!:D and he even gave zhenghui a lift:) i have a cool brother:D thanks brother!:D

i cant wait for RR. Although i know i will not have tiime to study or even complete my homework, im still looking forward to this weekend and even hq:) its gonna be great! breakthrough 1000!:D

Many things happened recently, in cg and in my life especially in the area of studies. Not really good things. But ive learnt to look on the positive side. Thanks zhenghui for being so truthful to me and being such a good friend:) i know i can trust you:) and i really thank God for the people i hang out with in school:) I found myself laughing more in school nowadays. Must be jiamin's nonsense. But i also found myself sighing more each day. HAHA. My heart is alaways so heavy. Sighing kinds of makes me feel better. HAI. But yeah, just a little more to the end of A's:) no more emo songs kay peijun:)

Zhenghui just told me that im overage for cinderella. haha. true true. but still, i shall be a modern day cinderella:D heehee. But, my mom keeps complaining that im not doing houseworks and cant cook D: maybe, i'll be snow white instead :) haha.

God is really faithful and His promises never fail :) Ive seen Him working in so many lives and i'm glad that i have the privilege to be able to serve Him.

my eye is hurting D: NOOO. it cant hurt that badly :( why! what happened to my big round eyes D: i guess i have to sleep earlier:)

its gonna rain RED tomorrow:) bring your brolly out, okay?:D

Its 21st may! Time passes fast and thats scary. Half a year has gone. Soon, i will find myself sitting in the examination hall taking A's. D:

My bro almost drove me to school today but he was slow! So i took cheryl's van instead. haha. Wasn't feeling good during china studies and jm noticed. haha. i told them i need a lot a lot of ice cream. haha! And we almost went to eat ice cream but we changed our mind after that. But, we went out and even huishi, the one who always goes home after school came for lunch with us. And they said it was for my sake. Haha. But, thanks girls:) We had a great time together:) I felt much better. And, thanks jasmine for accompanying me after that and for the honey lemon though i didnt really tell you anything. It was so unexpected! Haha. i was really touched:) and it really made me smiled:)

Went for cafe in church. and God did not answer zhenghui's and my prayers! Haha! But, im sure He has his reason. haha. Thanks zh anyway:) It was quite funny though. Was so tired that i decided to take cab home and gave ivy a lift. I didnt eat dinner and im feeling hungry right now:( But i brushed my teeth. So i shall only eat spiritual food for now. haha. I love spendiing time with God and i want to have the desire to draw closer to Him everyday, and understand His heart. Im rreally excited for Redrain!:) Sabrina is bringing a friend! She's a really funny person. And jasmine is bringiing her classmate. Im excited! Because that would mean that we ll have 6 tpjcian comiing on sunday including jessica:D And, weiyin is always having so much faith! I love faith:) It makes me a happy person because i know that all things is possible with God. And today i ll decide to be a happy person, not for my sake but because being happy can make others happy too:) people say i have a friendly and happy face. haha. i shall start smiling more:) because i know my God is a happy God.

Some photos taken yesterday during sports day. And really have to thank bryan for driving us to airport and even sending some of us back home:)

You girls are the reason why school is bearable:) haha.

today was a great day:)

School was mundane. I really hate school ever since past few weeks. But what can i do right. haha. I just have to endure a little more.. just a little further:)

After school, met up with jessica and jasmine for lunch. Its been a long time since we last went out together. And they accompanied me to lavendar to collect my passport. There was like 200 people in between my queue. So we went to walk around before jasmine left for her appointment. something happened when jessica and me went to look for sweets. An indian man accused me of calling tiko when i was telling jessica "lets go" LOL. I was -.- And he was really fierce.. Ask me if you want to hear the whole story. He's just totally annoying but i told myself iim not going to let him spoil my mood. Its just too ridiculous. Had a good time spent with jessica though. Hearing her talk about how she can't wait for the day when she can serve God in church. She's really someone who has dreams and visions of doing great things for God. It will come to pass:)

Met jasmine at tampines inter again and in the beginning, we did not plan to walk around tamp one but i wanted to go to chamelon to get accessories. In the end, we spent 3hrs in tamp one! Met my brother there and he successfully gave me a shock. Really saw alot people in tamp one like my neighbour and yishuen. haha. And jasmine kept seeing her sec sch friends. Yeah. We went to the disney shop and aunty jasmine just couldnt stop telling me what she's gonna buy for her kids in the future. How could you plan for what to buy for your kid when you haven thought of who to marry, jasmiine! HAHA. i shall help you keep a lookout:) haha. And she just cant help but keep dropping hints of what she wants from me when she has a new house in the future. Haiyo... But it was fun hanging out with you woman after such a long time! :D Thank you!:) Sushi was nice too:) We're gonna explore tamp 1 shop by shop one day kay:)

The heart of God is for the lost. Yeah. I thank God that im in heart of God church. Ironically, christians are not the nicest people on earth. I've seen many christians who behave worse than non-christians. Christians who judge people, mock at people's weakness, putting people down just so they can look good. I see them everyday in school, outside. It breaks my heart to see people putting down people. Honestly, I despise those people who put down the weak. Why can't we just be secured? Jesus never never puts down the weak. Instead, He lifts up the weak, He makes the weak strong in His strength. Truly, like what pastor preached, its not about being a christian, but being Christ-like. The heart of God is for the unsaved souls, the lost sheeps. We should not just stay within the four walls of church, but to build a church without walls:) We should not stay in our comfort zone, but start to step out, and reach to the people in the world. This inspires me again and again. Somehow, I always think that most of my friends are already christians and that became an excuse for me to lose the passion to evangelise. but, God says, lift up your eyes and look at the harvest. The harvest is truly plentiful. Yes, the harvest is truly plentiful but the laboureres are few. I say, "God, use me and take me so Your harvest can come." I've seen how weiyin has been loving and reaching out to her friends. I see the burden she has for her friends. I understand the heart of God and I pray for a heart of compassion in me, to love the unlovables. I know i will see all these broken souls when i start to open up my eyes to the things unseen, open my spiritual eyes.

Are you going to be the someone who is going to divide, subtract, add or multiply values to others?

Create in me a new heart
One that follows You

Place Your heart inside my soul
A heart that's ever true,
One that's after You.

Mother's day event was just great. Seeing many mothers coming to church and being touched by the numerous videos shown, my heart just melted. And my mom came on sat:) Although she did not say anything, im sure she has been touched by the testimony and videos and of cos, by His presence. I'm still praying for the day to come when we can worship God together in His house. The performance was quite scary though i dont know why. But chekyeow said many parents liked our performance:) yay:)

I bought a flower for my mom ytd before going to aunt's house. We had a gathering over there and had much fun and craziness with my cousins:) I cant wait to hang out together again. There's always so much fun. The little kids, our nephews and nieces are cute too although there was this mischievious kid who keeps bullying his sister and even us! TSK. he hit my head and when my cousin "orhor" him, he started crying-.- Haha. But well, they brought a smile on my face:)

Went to ikea today to study with zhilin and venus. I like the food there:) Didnt study much this weekend and doing last min work right now. I hate what im feeling now. Im having so many thoughts in my head and so much distractions:( Maths test on thursday and i still dont understand a thing about normal and sampling distribution. Im going crazy soon and i dont like this feeling of sian-ness. But, if love is a decision and not feeling, then happiness should be a decision too and not just a feeling. It becomes a revelation to me a few mins ago:) Yes, i shall make a decision to be happy instead of being controlled by my emotions.

I know there's so much more i can do with His strength and power. I just need to lift up my eyes and focus on Him. FOCUS peijun, FOCUS!

i learnt a new word today:) solipsistic its not a good word to use on people. haha.

Holy Spirit come in power, change my heart
I want to live for You my God
Let Your spirit come in power, change my life
That i may live for You my Lord

So i look to You, long to see You move
Lord i lift my hands before my King and pray

24 prayer meeting was just powerful:) I was anticipating for it since the beginning of the week. I knew it was going to be great and it was:) Everyone was just praying fervently. I was really touched to see weiyin and shipei praying so strongly for their friends. By their prayers, i can see the burdens they are carrying to see their friends save. It just moved me and inspires me. We'll never be satisfied but will keep praying and praying:) I can't wait for the next 24 pm and i promise i will stay over in church the next time! haha. My dad is getting paranoid due to the swine flu. I dont seem to get well ever siince the previous time i fell ill. I dont want to be a target of swine flu! :( I think i am getting paranoid too. Well. Lets practice social responsibility and everything will be well!:)

We went to send carlo off in the morning. Just when he was going into the departure gate, we started crying. Nic was the worse.. :( well.. its kind of sad but life goes on:) haha its not like he is going to fight in a war... HAHA. But, it just struck me at that moment that it still feels better to cry with your friends than alone. I wanted to laugh when i see them cry but also wanted to cry aat the same time. Its just me to cry when i see people cry.

My brother just pranked me that he used my thermometer to measure his temperature :S

Bye carlo miguel saavedra. Thanks for all the nonsense and jokes although you're irritating too. haha. See you in 3 years time:)

Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
Eddie Cantor US comedian & singer (1892 - 1964)

I found this when i was looking for a quote for my gp essay question on slowing down in life instead of speeding it up. Somehow, i got a revelation while doing this essay and through this quote. I find it really meaningful. I just thought of how everyone is just moving so fast in life and as a result, neglect their loved ones and the scenery in life. As we are constantly moving fast in life, we tend to take the people around us for granted. When was the last time you greet your parents good morning or good night? When was the last time we spend the whole day to prepare a surprise for our family members? When was the last time you actually spent hours on the phone with your close friends? I guess hardly anyone can afford to do that now. As i was reading the quote, i felt God speaking to me and everything just click. As we are moving so fast in life, are we still able to slow down and give him the best time of each day to just spend time with Him. Like the quote says, if we fail to do it, we'll not only miss His presence by going too fast, soon, we will find ourselves missing the sense of where we are going and why. We will lose the purpose of whatever we are doing now. This applies as we are busy in the kingdom of God. Admist all the busyness, we still need to spend time with Him and constantly hearing from Him and that's when we will be assured of where we are going in God and why we are doing the things we are doing. All for His glory:)

yay, how cool is that:) haha. Okay, now i have to complete the other half of my essay :(

Easter services was awesome and the harvest was indeed plentiful :) All the plannings and administration till late into the night was worth it. It's great working with the leaders and i felt that there was really teamwork. We were just helping out with each other's teams and all the new friends. There's more to come and i'm excited!:D Sabrina joined us this Easter too and i'm just so happy. Now, there're four of us in TPJC and i believe more will come. Truly, God's promise never fails:) The water baptism service was great too. I really want to be water baptised with my family. That will be the happiest thing that can ever happen. I'm still praying. And i know God hears my prayers. This mother's day, something good is going to happen :D

So many things happened these few days! There're so many things i want to blog about but I'm just tooo tired to type them out. But i totally love my life :) Of course, there will be times when i just feel discouraged and unhappy and frustrated, I know that God and my family and friends are always with me and I am contented :) I believe that there is more in life. Things are going to get better :) Whenever something bad happens, i will tell myself to guard my heart. It kind of remind me not to sink deeper in.

Last 3 days, i had been home late at night or even midnight and went out of house in the early noon. I really miss my parents and my brother who just came back from laos two days back. haha. At least, i managed to spend time at home with them now:) Saturday, John went off to army and we went to send him. I thank God im a girl and i dont have to go army :D It's kind of scary:( That reminds me that my brother is going army soon :( Hai. Yesterrday was another exciting day. Had hq in church from 1 - 6 and headed to marina square to meet my cousins for kbox buffet! I really love to spend time with them because i can just put aside all my worries and burdens and just have a crazy and fun time with them! We sang and sang and ate and ate. And we were totally crazy about Love Story. haha. The guys were screaming and screaming into the mic. Its kind of irritating to have guys joining in for kbox. Haha. The funniest part of the whole outing was after we left kbox.

As quoted from weiwei's blog,
"the funniest thing was when we were going home! the whole marina sq was deserted already since we left at 1030. so we were sinigng love story out loud in the center of the mall. and there was this gay couple infront of us! so cool! they were westerners and were holding hands! gosh! and so we were walking towards the same direction as them and it was like:

Us: (out loud) Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone, i'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run, You'll be the prince and i'll be the princess.."
Gay guy: (super high pitched) Its a love story. baby just say yes... *chuckles*"

HAHA. This was super funny. It makes my hair stands. I still can remember the smile of the gay guy. And they were holding hands happily as they swayed till high. damn funny. haha weiwei's blog always makes it sound so funny. http://wxcrossedwx.blogspot.com/

haha. I really love my life. Even in school, i still enjoy the time spent with huishi cheryl jiamin and all others. Huishi and me always laugh at izza for always seems to appear so stress and we'll keep singing all the 90s pop songs by westlife and backstreet boys. I think God really planned for all these, putting me where i am now. i thank God for all His wonderful plans. Im really contented but im never satisfied.

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my heart to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me

Its 2.30am now. Im still feeling happy and relaxed that SA1 has finally ended:) Yet, im not looking forward in getting back results. I know there's a possibility that i might fail everything. And, i missed maths paper too because of my bad stomach. Well, everything happens for a reason:) I guess its a wake-up call for me.

Today was a long day. I had 3 hrs of history paper! And we had to complete 4 essays in 3 hrs! :( How torturing that is. And i started out my day when cheryl called me at 7.20am. We were supposed to meet at 8am to study iin school. But we decided to meet at 9 instead since we decided that we NEED more sleep. In the end i only woke at 9 when she called me again. And i thought she was already in school. I rushed down to school and realise that she's still at pasir ris-.- Finally, she reached at 11. We were late for like 3 hrs! :s I doubt i will do well for history. I did not complete qns 3. And i really hate questions on southeast asia because i can never never rememer the examples. I prefer international history so much more. I still hope i get an A for history during A's. Its possible!:D

After paper, i met up withh weiyin, zhenghui and shanyan to watch confession of a shopaholic. Its a pretty nice show!:) Watching movie is indeed a good form of destress. I felt much better. haha. The movie really makes one wants to shop shop and shop! And i just have the thought that it will be pretty cool if my boyfriend opens a shopping mall:) haha. Then i can shop for all the things for FREE! and even better, he can close the shopping mall for me to shop ALONE. And all the sales people in the mall will only be serving me. haha. I totally can imagine that in my head now. HAHA. And he can propose to me iin the shopping mall too and it will be great if the shopping mall includes indoor theme park like the one in genting. hahhaa. with indoor ferris wheel and rollercoaster. cool!:) Yes, and i am just joking. My fairytale story will never come true unless God allows it. Haha. I remembered Jieru says she wants to sit a hot air balloon on her wedding. Hahaha. I dont mind if he books a whole cruise for me:) HAHA. yes. Its time for me to go to my dreamland now. :) I think i should open a business helpiing on marriage proposals since i have many nice ideas:) But like zhenghui says, she would rather her boyfriend thinks of the proposal himself. I pretty much agree. Haha. If everyone thinks that way, i will go bankrupt. So, such a business is a crazy thought.

I have no idea whats in the mind of guys nowadays. My brother just cut bangs. BANGS! yes. His hair looks like mushroom now. And he seems to love it-.- Well, i have no comments. Haha. And my brother bought a nitendo ds for me! Huishi was just telling me to be careful in case he has otherwise motive. Haha. But i thank God for such wonderful brother. And i hope he doesnt read my blog.

Easter is coming and im totally excited for it! Shipei and me just have the idea of painting easter eggs on the day before Good Friday! Haha. Its gonna be fun! :D

I didnt want to blog. But zhenghui wants me to blog because we had an exciting trip to the airport just now :( We found out that delifrance is closed for renovation! How dumb are we:( We actually made the wrong choice by going down to the airport, thinking that the delifrance is a good place to study. After we checked with the information counter, zhenghui said sth really funny. She says, "Why delifrance didnt inform us before they are closed." Haha. Okay it doesnt sound funny here but it was quite funny at that moment. We were totally sian-ed. I will never go delifrance again! They cheated our feelings:( In the end, we took the skytrain back agan to terminal 2 and settled down at coffee bean. i cant remember what happened after that. Study makes one go mad. Hai. Everytime i try to read something, there're just so much noises flooding my mind:( God, can you please sweep all of them away. haha. But its not impossible to focus if i just place my handphone at a place where i cannot see it. Sometimes, i feel like throwing it away, putting it in the fridge maybe. haha. seriously. I hate distractions. But then again, i have to be contactable 24/7 :) That itself is one thing. But, ive made up my mind, i shall not be a slave to technology! :)

Yes, i typed a chunk of thing but i decided to delete them. haha. i want to upload pictures, but im lazy:(

I read this verse another day and its just so powerful:)

1 John 4:4 (New Living Translation)
But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world.

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart
I offer up my life

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

"Thursday, February 26, 2009

this is what boredom can do
I am in lecture now ............. And i am super bored as you can tell.
Peijun thinks that her phone is so coool!:D
Fine fine I fogot to mention that I am using her phone.
Thanks much!
Huishi is playing and drawing her lion and jiamin is acting like she's paying attention.
bryan is acting cool as usual and songyuan and melvin's mouths are opened wide as usual!
Kim looks like he is having question marks in his head and we can't see visa...
Weeyang looks like a bear!
Cheryl and peijun are the nicest ppl here among the rest:)

Posted by cheryl chern at 10:29 AM "

HAHAHA we're just so lame. thats what happen in school when you get stress.

i have so many things to blog about but im pretty lazy to type them out. In short, this year doesnt seem to be such a smooth year for me:( many things have happened since the beginning of this year. disappointments, discouragements, distractions, stress, tiredness. yes, there are just many bad thoughts going through my mind and im trying to pluck them out one by one slowly. i hate it when i start to think too much bad thoughts. how am i supposed to cope all these by my own strength D: but this verse always encourages me,
Galatians 6:9
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.

Yes, guard your heart peijun! its all about discipline and faith this year. i just need more encouragements and assurance.

Pastor tan is just so powerful. im totally in awe of him! His sermon is mind-blowing and as he shares about CARE initiative, my mouth was wide opened. he is just doing so much not only in the kingdom of God but also in society. Interestingly, his sermon reminds me of GP essays. He gives us the point, elaboration of the point and then examples! WHAO! i really love it when he gives the examples because they're real life testimony which we will be inspired by. Affluence to influence! now, i see a greater purpose in education. i want to excel in my studies!:D jiayou peijun!

"Love God, Love People, Love Life"
Thats what i really want to live for.

just feel like blogging. just in case one day i lose all my memories, at least i know how my life was like in the past. HAHA. i pray that will never happen though :x

2009 has been great so far. perhaps, the greatest discouragement is studies. i did so badly for my topical test. especially econs and china studies. i scored 0/30 for my econs case study. its totally no mark. i could have cried man, but i guess i have to be responsible for it since i didnt put in any effort before the test. i seriously think i need an econs tuition. i dont want to fail econs anymore! D:

despite all these bad reports, life has been good! but tiring. haha. however, im not relying on my own strength anymore. im learning to rely on Him. theres just so much things to do and i could have just crashed without Him guiding me. Last weekend has been really tiring but awesome:D Sat had cafe, co, service, cafe then stayover at jieru's house. Pastor Ming is just powerful! i totally enjoy his service and more than just enjoying, im blown away! i want to know God's calling for my life. also saturday was truly a great day! shipei accepted Christ! peifen was just so touched that she kept crying. funny girl. but im sure there's a party in heaven! oh wait, i bet there's like more than one party cos im sure many people renew their commitments and were saved that day!:D did cafe after service and joined the cg after that. It was super funny. gavin was just strumming random notes and composed a song for dom and garrett joined us too. haha. peifen is one funny and nonsensical person. Around 11, jieru, val and me went back to jieru's house. while crossing the road, we saw zhenghui and we took her dad's lorry! it was super cool cos its my second time! haha! At jieru's house, we had a great meeting and our ceg attendance broke through 40 that weekend! at first, we only had 38 in the ya and jieru was saying we need to pray for 2 more for sunday. then i remembered the two impression slips on the table which jieru had not added into the ya. thus, tada! we had 40 for that weekend! it was awesome! we ended the meeting around 230 but slept only around 4. haha. and jingfen, val and me woke up like less than 2 hrs later to prepare to go for amt. you can imagine how tired we were. amt was just great. dom and ivan totally inspired me. val and me were like super tired, trying to keep each other awake. then jieru msged us and asked us to wake up. haha. but i've indeeed learnt so much during amt and i just felt God guiding me, telling me what i should do and everything. grow grow grow! Prayer meeting was just powerful too and again, God spoke to me:D Charleston preached a powerful word and i just felt that the sermon was so applicable to jessica and jessica felt the same way too. haha. she was just sharing with me that she felt she needs to step out of her comfort zone especially on the part of reaching out to her friends. whao. she has definitely catch the heart of evangelising:) yeah man! we're not convenient christians. haha.whao. throughout the whole day, i was like a zombie. thus, i didnt study when i reach home though i tried to stay awake:( i couldnt even sleep in peace cos all that was in my head was hoomework homework. D:

school is celebrating friendship week and today is hi5 day-.- i think thats one of the few good reasons why its good to be in jc. at least, you still have all these rubbish and they can be quite fun sometimes. haha. valentine day is coming. many people anticipate this day, hoping that their prince charming riding a white horse would pop out from nowhere and gives them roses, balloons and so on. on the other hand, there's also a small group of people who sees valentine day as just another normal day, studying and sleeping on that day. i think jiamin fits in this group. haha!:x it would be a lie if i say i see valentine day as just another day or that i dont want anything on valentine day since i told huishi i want a teddy bear and balloons. haha. but what i really want on valentine day is to see more souls saved in the house of God. its heartfest on sat! and pastor joakim is joining us for ev service! im really excited about it! pastor joakim is just so zai! how can anyone not be inspired by his sermon. im prayiing for God to drop more names iinto my heart and for more opportunities to invite people. if you have no date on valentine day, why not considering joining me! haha. and cheryl birthday falls on valentine day. haha. mr ng was saying that her boyfriend next tiime will be super lucky since he doesnt have to buy extra present cos he can buy one present for both her birthday and valentine-.- haha. rubbish.

STUDY TIME! i dontwant to be distracted anymore. FOCUS, peijun! i know i can do it, not by my own might or strength, but by His power!:D

How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You

i really want to blog but im quite lazy to blog too. haha. but CNY has been great:D i totally miss all my cousins now:( we'll meet up soon!:D

On last saturday, i went shopping with xinyi and two little boys, weiwei and kaikai joined us after that. we continued shopping and had dinner together with ling after that at some sausage place:D as quoted iin weiwei's blog "dinner was super amusing. we were laughing like some idiots until our stomach was hurting so badly. admist peijun's kelong and tanxinyi's sausage bullets" yeah, i shared with them my horrible kelong trip and we had a great time laughing. how i wish there were with us at that time. its okay! we'll go on a holiday together soon:D after dinner at around 9, we wanted to sing song and went partyworld to check the rates but it was damn expensive. we tried kbox after that and it wasnt any cheaper. we really wanted to go in and two of our parents allow us to sing till midde of the night while weiwei and ling had a hard time persuading their mom:( weiwei was really emo after that. haha. joker. there will be a next time alright!:D we went to coffee club to have a drink after that:D

Sunday was a family day:D it was cny eve! it was also the first tiime my bro stayed at home! amazing!:D haha. well.. he gets super irritating when he is around me. rah. at evening, we went to watch the wedding game. its quite a sweet show. after that, we had dinner at pu tian restaurant. its damn ex like 200 bucks. which means 50 bucks per person. but aww.. i totally love the shark fiins and the fish:D i love my family:D

the first two days of cny was just great because we had much fun together:D i had little hongbaos though:( super sad. dont ask me how much i got cos its pathetic:( haha. but i still love cny. we played swing and playground on the first day and watched movie on second day. ate good food and much rubbish too. i love my cousins:D

today is back to reality again:( i dont like. but well, its reality. haha. i shall conquer all my studies man. its now or never! i want three As for my A's :s its possible alright. all things are possible with God:D

i miss church and d5 so much:D see you all soon!:D

"create in me a new heart, one that follows You.
Place in me a deep desire to know You as i'm known"
this has been the cry of my heart..

:D

i was just reading all my old posts and there just many thoughts that came to me and so i shared with zhenghui. haha. i thought it was cool. i miss those PAE days and those J1 days. i cant deny that 2008 was really good. Yes, everything was just good. i thought i was funnier when i blogged in the past too. haha. Well, its just so different now and i cant find the exact word to descibe it. and i dont think i know what im actually saying now. cos its 1am in the morning! i shall start blogging so that i can read what i have posted again this time next year. its really cool!:D

today was a really funny day. cheryl morning called me early in the morning and i was supposed to meet her at 930 for breakfast in school and to study history (because she wanted my notes!) In the end, as usual, i woke up late at 9 and reached school only at 10:) hahaha! sorry cheryl chern! i promised i ll wake up earlier next time. HAHA. Had history test and it was super informal. It was fill in the blanks plus source based. whao.. i totally didnnt know source based will come out and matthew lim only taught on sat's lecture which i have skipped for discipleship class! So, i just crapped out everything i could. i really dont understand how huishi can crap so much stuffs. China studies test was crazy too. i studied the wrong topic again. i thought i take h2 when i actually am taking h1-.- oh man.. ang pei jun.. what were you thinking!!! Throughout the 2 hrs, i was just daydreaming and stoning. Mr Gay is just so comical. Huishi and me were laughing at his actions and everything! the funniest thing was that he actually slept behind in the LT during our test...and.. he snored! what a great teacher we have. he not only snored..but snored loudly. i was at least 7m away and i coould hear. Plus many phones rang and i was really shocked when they actually answered those calls. hello? arent we having a test? :S its super informal. i cant stand it when huishi just kept writing and i decided to disturb and pinched her. i totally have nothing to write. i think i ll score just one digit. its not called no faith. its being realistic. haha. but i guess throughout this whole period, i really learnt a lesson. NEVER PROCRASTINATE. never never. im really going to put in extra effort starting next week. many times i feel so sian to be in a jc. but whenever i think of why i'm placed here, i thank God for it. if its in His will for me to be in this school, i know He will bring me through this year. Of course, i need to work hard too! i will i will! :D

School isnt that bad afterall when you have crazy friends like cheryl, jiamin and huishi:) we can never stop being amused and laugh at stupid things. Huishi is just always there to listen to my nonsense and i dontknow why but we always have things to talk about and laugh at. With friends like them, jc life will never be bored:D

I really thank God for everything that He has put in my life. Family, church, pastors, leaders, friends, school, people and more people! d5 is going to breakthrough! i know that there will be a revival in tpjc! right now, there're four of us and Ly was just telling me that she has put tpjc as her first choice! i know Jessica is going to grow stronger in her convictions. She has just been fighting every weekend to just attend service. i know that one day, she's going to break free from parental objection and start serving in church. She's going to stand on stage and share her testimony, inspiring hundreds of lives!:) its possible if i start to see things from God's eyeview. Nothing is too difficult that God cannot overcome. Just simply nothing!:)

Speaking to this mountain to move into the ocean
With Your authority, given to me

Life is great when you have a great God, great friends and great family:D

Ive got so much to blog but i seriously need to study now! :(

i've learnt my lesson from the econs paper ytd and i dontwant history to repeat itself.

2009 is gonna be awesome.

i'm contented but not satisfied:)

let the pictures do the talking:

hello everyone! im back to blogging again! this holiday has just been awesome despite the business. so many things happen within these two months and i am just so blessed throughout these holiday. 2008 has been great. stepping into new schools, getting to know new people, conquering promos and just growing and growing. it has definitely be an awesome year and also for hoGc:D i know 2009 is gonna be even better. but somehow, im not really looking forward to it:( but with God, i shall conquer it. yes man! school is reopening..i have mixed feelings about it. on one hand, i know there's much stress coming and i hate studying like seriously.also, im beginning to imagine the torturous pe lessons we're gonna have. jc life isnt nice. on the other hand, im excited! like what jm said in her blog, i really miss hanging out with you girls! haha. and i miss talking nonsense with huishi and eating alot alot with her. i miss those funs we had. and the thing im looking most forward to is the harvest in school. school is really the best place u can reach out t more people! the harvest is plentiful! more people are gonna join jasmine and me! jessica is gonna grow to another level! im excited!

i just came back from bintan trip with my family and dad's friends and some relatives. and guess what, im having a diarrheoa now :S must be the dirty food there. everyone is just asking about my trip. so here is my post on my trip...... :( whao. my bro and i were really disapponinted on the first days when we found out we were going to stay at kelong. we thought it was a resort. rah. so throughout the 3 days. my bro and i kept complaning and whining. i almost died there. we lived on water for 3 days and the toilet is disgusting to the max. super... i shall not elaborate on it. but well.. its nice to get away from the busy urban life and see the nature. the scenery is nice there:) and the people are really nice. somehow, my heart goes out to them.. i dontknow how they can stand living this kind of life. the worst was at the villages and everything.its super... yucky. i really see sth we can never see in singapore. many thoughts ran through my mind throughout the trip. i think God really puts me in this trip for a reason. im glad to say that i survived! LOL. amazing. dogs and cats everywhere. mosquitos, lizards and even rats can be seen okay. im not joking. the last night, i was sleeping with my mom in the room and a bee just flew in. we covered ourself with blankets:S felt so dumb.even my mom was afraid. haha. in the end, my dad was the hero and rescued us. he killed the bee!:D haha. but i coudlnt sleep the whole night. kept thinking there were more bees or rats in my room! HAHA. but i survived!:D when i toldd people my story or rather my adventure in bintan, everyone was just laughing at me. zhilin was saying i go there for war, not holiday. sounds quite true. haha. but my bro is one irritating person. he talked AT me for 1 and half hr on the ferry to bintan. non stop! and so i couldnt sleep. and he kept making fun of people and im amused by all the jokes he made. felt so bad now:( i shall say i bond with my bro alot during this trip. he kept using the word "bond". i know he sees my blog but well.. he is really anooying sometimes. but funny. haha. i shall end talking about my trip. my stomach still hurts... D: and i will never go bintan again. first and last time! but i thank God for this trip. got some insights.

today had new gens meeting and went to watch twilight with joey,val,dom,ryan yap and a few zone f people. i didnt realy like the show. cos we sat at 2nd row-.- my neck hurts after that. and. i dont think i want a vampire for boyfriend. robot sounds better. haha. joey is such a nice guy lah. he is really sweet as a guy. always caring for people and helping others. its great he is back again:D God found him when he was lost:) christmas service was just awesome! was really glad that yishuen came back too. what he said after that really touched my heart. i guess thats what i really live for. to see lives being touched by God.

anyway, i suddenly miss so many people so much... people like althea, jm, huishi, cheryl and even zhenghui who is in kl now. i think im really blessed to have so many great friends around me!:D and the thought of j2 is pulling me down:( i haven started studying and everyone kept reminding me abuot it especially melvin goh. i told him i want to quit jc so not studying. haha. and he was saying that he will have peace next year.whalao. but still, he asked me dont quit cos cant see people go toilet anymore. whalao. i kind of miss mr ng too... hahaha. ookay. one more week. im gonna chiong everything! by faith, i will do well for my tests:D

i miss hanging out with you girls:)

Man.. i really think i lead an exciting life:D hahaha. but im just chiong-ing too much. i guess i really have to slow down sometimes and enjoy the scenery of life. haha. cool...

D5 and D50 is just a hungry ceg man. everyone is loving frogs now!!! hahaha. cool. Today was jessica's birthday and yiwen, jasmiine, qian and me went to surprise her. haha i shall not elaborate on it cos im tired to now. haha. but i really love surprises and i love to surprise ppl cos i just feel really happy seeing people surprised and touched. its a good feeling:) after that i chiong-ed down to church for CO and after CO, had a D5 ceg leaders prayer and worship session. it was great. Felt as though i lifted everything to God. Sometimes, things dont go as smoothly as we hope for and we feel weary and discouraged at times but God is just always there to catch us when we fall. i live to please my God and not people:) discouragement is the platform for strength :D when we are weak, He is strong. yay! i love my God. i cant imagine how my life would be without Him:) after the session, 11 of us went down for frog legs and jieru brought us to the place in geylang! whao! geylang -.- hahaha. the only good thing abut that place is that there're many good food! im so going to bring my parents back there for frog legs! its yummmmy!:D hahaha. we all kept wanting more. on the way on bus, we were just so noisy as usual and everyone just started to complain how high pitch my voice isD: i didnt want it that way.. God made it that way. hahaha. but i still thank God for my high pitch voice! haha. i shall use it properly so it will not sound irritating... hahaha!

Ytd was another day full of surprises! early morning, jingfen woke me up cos she was staying at my place. woah! she's really a disciplined person who wakes up on time man. while me... i just want to sleep and sleep forever. haha. we then went down to surprise jocelyn with zi xin zao chan!!! hahaha!! jocelyn is such a funny girl man.. she said us lame!!! how could you jocelyn! hahaha. but our ai xin zhao chan brighten your day yeah? hahhaa. then we met nicholas for breakfast at the round market. ate my fav wanton mee!:D after that, i went down to meet val and zh and surprise wilfrid with some stuffs to encourage hiim for his birthday:D hahaha. and after that had cafe in church. some of them just stood around cafe area and chatted with zhilin and me throughout. and they were really fascinated by cafe stuffs. and godric and choongkai want to join cafe! LOL! and godric is the funniest man. he actually went inside and tried to learn and help up. whao. confirm get in cafe alr. hahaha.

im looking forward to candy weekend!!! its gonna be great. oh its just a few hours later. haha. and next week gonna be another long week! there's AMT on tues to wed. and more surprises have yet to come! haha. well.. im tired now. its time to sleep. i hope i wont dream of frogs -.-

hahaha. a few of us are at skype now and going crazy soon. jingfen,nic,carlo and me are like talking. haha. and we saw a bug in my room just now. :( jingfen is staying over at my house:D and we are going to surprise jocelyn later:D exciting:D haha and after that breakfast with a few of them:D woohoo. they better wake up man..

anyway, today was a messy day. haha. long story and im lazy to talk about it. haha. i saw joash aka simpsons on the way to pasir ris! LOL. i immedialtely msged huishi! hahaha. and she confessed that she misses him! :x hahaha. funny woman. well, ii miss the j2s too D: i used to be quite close to some of them but things change.. haha. well well, i wonder what next yr is gonna be like :( i hope it ll be a good year. huishi is sad... :( im sad for her. haha. and i saw benny after that at pasir ris mrt! whaoo!!! my sec 1 friend! hahaha. he change alot man. he did... omgosh. i still remember how he was liked last time. haha. i miss those sec 1 days man.. hahaha.

studied at whitesand mac with qianqian, zheng, grace and siew chi. then went simei with qq to find shiyun and bought bubble tea and went qiyun's hse and bought bubble tea for her too:D haha. qiyun misses us lots lah:) hahaha.. i miss those sec 4 days.. hahaha. and we chatted awhile in her house:D hahaha.

after that, i went toa payoh to meet jingfen and supposed to find jocelyn. but it was a long story. haha in the end we ended up in tampines! and jingfen suggested coming my house to type report cos we had to send in by 1159!!! so she ended up at my hse and then decided to stay over cos its late. hahaha. and we're still awake now... tired... i dont want to type anymore. haha. NICHOLAS! I WANT PICTURES FROM STRIKE IT WEEKEND!!! YOU DID TAKE PICTURES! :)

The cross i see
Your blood redeem
My imperfections
Your hands divine
Come shape this heart of mine

i have so many things to blog about but i dontknow where to start.....

Had a great day hanging out with my cousins on sunday. haha. we always hang out together after some celebration with the adults. We ate good food at suntec and played basketball in the arcade. haha. they never fail to make me laugh lah. especially when weiwei and kaikai come together. two jokers. and the funniest thing was that both of those two guys were wearing yellow and ling and me were wearing green! -.- oh ya, we went barang barang too. haha. we have to meet up soon again man!!!:D yes, the next outing we have will be to play basketball and swim and karaoke at weiwei's house. haha. i miss my cousins now:( and the saddest thing is that we cant go bintan togetherD: RAH. the adults... hai! haha.. but i love my parents. they are the best lah!

Ytd was zone D outing! like finally!:D haha. we were supposed to swim and run at jurong east but in the end, we only swam. And many things happened lah. haha. it was funny. I was wet inside out after that. haha. and some of us stood at the hand dryer area and tried to dry ourselves inside out. haha. look super dumb and people walked past the toilet were just staring at us. haha. we're like some despo people. desparate for the dryer. Had dinner and watched beverley hills chihuahua together:D it was fun. haha. the movie makes me laugh even after it ended. haha. i think its quite a good movie. there's meaning to it unlike hsm -.- haha. the dogs are so adorable! haha. whaoo.. friendship and love story of dogs. yes, i think its a good movie! haha:) i changed my opinion about that movie after watching it. haha. so you should watch it too:) we had much laughter. on our way back at boon lay mrt, we saw vincent bai! WHAO. it must have been God's plan. haha. even on the other side of singapore, we still see him!and he actually missed the zone outing -.- TSKTSK. haha. but he met us! amazing. haha. so we travelled back together to the other side, journey to the east:) and we really made much noise on the train. reached hme at 12plus am..

Today was supposed to be a study day for me. but... i failed D:D:D: dont ask me about it. haha. but i still love today. I had lunch with my mom at cafe cartel:D and my mom took alot of breads. haha. adults are funny. arent they. haha i love my mom. she always give me the best. i told her that i ll bring her to ritz carlton for dinner when im older:) haha. yes, i will! hahaha. after that, met zhenghui and we were supposed to study. however, we ended up talking alot. haha but girl! i have much fun talking to you. we laughed alot right? haha. really miss those time when we ll just mug together and talk about many many stuffs. haha. but she had to leave to church at 4:( so i decided to be smart and go tamp lib alone. -.- i felt dumb after that becase it rained heavily. really heavily. haha. i slacked in the lib. yes, i slacked, not studied. i tried reading econs but nothing just goes into my head. i've lost the momentum to study D:D:D: all the best to me man... haha. i need to get back the momentum!!! :D can one lah. haha. yes peijun! can one! im tired now.. haha.

this week is gonna be another busy week.. but im excited! i have 3 outings tmr:D haha. awesome! all 3 are at pasir ris:D haha. and frog legs with nicholas on friday and im gonna ask more people to join us. jiamin and cheryl just called me not long ago and told me they're at airport :x haha. i forgotten that the are leaving for japan today. haha. tsktsk. what a good friend i am. but i suddenly miss schooliing.. those tiimes we had. i hope next yr will be even better. well... more stress maybe. haha

have just been reflectiing alot these 3 days. i guess there're much more things i can do and build on. its about being blameless! yes thats the word God spoke to me on sunday. i thank God for al the people around me. Really. i thank God for you. YES, YOU! :D

it was another tiring but fulfilling day:D valerie and me went down to rp to meet up with jocelyn. i totally love being with this girl! she's just someone you can easily click with. although i've only met her for 3 times, i can sense that there's a strong bond between us and thats good! we're so gonna hang out more together yeah. rp is huge! later, zhenghui and yiwen joined us too. went to church for co and had theory lesson -.- honestly, i am still very blurred by everything. i dont like theory! :x haha. but we had much fun. co is gonna grow big in the future!

after that, jasmine and i went to meet huishi at pasir ris and went for class bbq. haha. i cant help but saying that our class is so ___. i dontknow what to say. haha. but i still thank God for people like huishi, jasmine, eeteng, melvin, weeyang and a few who were there. they are nice people. but i think its the clique thing in our class that makes it so disunited. well, i guess melvin tried his best to bond the class. it all depends on us now. haha. im sure God has a reason for me to be in class and i thank God for that. and im just so happy that jasmine and i are in the same class. it just feels great to have a hoGc person in the same class as you cos we just can flow in the Spirit and at least, i have someone whom i can talk to about church and stuffs. haha. so jasmine! you better study hard and be advanced! im sure you can do it! :D and i really really thank God for huishi. its like although i've not seen her for a super long time, but when we meet, we can just talk about anything. we dont feel akward at all and i think thats what true friendship is about. there's no pretense between each other. haha. i wrote her a card for her birthday and she just sms-ed me that she felt like crying after reading it. haha! i really can make ppl cry. yay. we're not just friends in school but for life yeah. the bbq wasnt that bad i guess. i did not help out at all :x haha. i just ate and ate. well well.. i feel quite bad now. haha. poor melvin has to pay for most of the expenses. it pays to be a class chairman -.-

watched two movies twice this week. high school musical with yiwen and wildchild with val. the second one was really random. it was after discipleship class on thurs and val and me were actually going to minds cafe to meet cg but because it was alr very late, we ended up in the cinema. i have to say that wild child is so much better than hsm! haha. but yiwen enjoyed hsm! i dontknow why! haha! but soemthing amazing happned on the day we went to watch movie. we were taking bus to church and had to cross a big field and road to get over to church. but it was raining really heavily! but when we crossed the overhead bridge, the rain stopped! WHAO. and i almost wanted to get an umbrella. but by faith, we crossed the bridge. and God is always faithful right! the rain stopped and i believe its for us:) haha. so we went to church without being drenched. :D

cg on wed was really powerful. vision beyond myself. visions keep me running after them. i see myself doing great things for God in the future. and i believe that there're still so much more i can do. so much more. God has really challenged me to conquer new ground for this season. many things have just been coming in and i know that i can either stay at the level i was at or rise up to a new level and conquer new ground. i chose the second one. this holiday is definitely not the most relax one but i know that im going to breakthrough this holiday. jieru prayed for me during cg and i can just feel the power of God moving in ever area of my life, especially in the area of leadership. at that moment, everything just boom and goes up to a new level. she laid her hands on my hands and prayed that more anointing will be upon me when i pray and lay hands on people next time. God begin to show me pictures of me laying hands and praying for people. more and more people. tears just flowed down my eyes as i see that these are the lives that are going to be changed for the glory of God. im ready for God to be used. i know there will be much more responsibility that will be given to me but i shall have faith and see things in God's eyeview. its really powerful if we can all start to see things in His eyeview. try it! jieru is just so powerful and i feel so privilege that she is my leader:) when you start to see things from the perspective of your leader, you know that they're really doing alot of great things that you can never imagine. she pays attention to every life and im so inspired to do the same too. thanks jieru! i've indeed learnt alot throughout this whole period. d5 has just been growing not only in quantity but in quality too. the presence of God is always so strong during cg. thurs discipleship class was awesome too. dominic prayed for every single one of us in the class. although there was no guitar, we just kept singing and worshiping God. it was great. his sharing became a revelation to me. we are more spiritual than we think we are. its time to start relying not on my strengths but by His Spirit. this is a spiritual world we're living in! what a human can do is limited but what God can do is far beyond what we can imagine. God is good! :D

there're just so many things i can blog about but im tired of typing already. well, how beautiful it is if my life is written as a storybook. haha. i dotnknow what im typing alr because my brain is tired. TGIO is gonna be fun:D

ohoh, and zhenghui said i have one more habit regarding the previous entry, she said that i "eee" at everything. haha! oh no :( sounds bad... haha.

the God i know righteous and Holy
the God i know faithful and true
the God i know my tower of refuge
hearts are healed, Christ revealed
the God i know light of the city
the God i know strengthens the weak
the God i know, Your heart beats within me
as You are, so are we.

this is my cry
my one desire
more of You, more of You

haiya. im here because of the quiz thingy that hongrui, carlo and valerie have tagged me to do-.- i must be quite bored. im so stuck with GP now!:( and the thought of going to J2 just frightens me:( i dontknow why but the thought just came to me all of a sudden. AHHH!!! thanks to the reading logs homeworks. im so stress by it now, i dont know why. i cant seem to force any word out. but i shall conquer "you" man! "you" are so dead!RAH! thanks for friends who will still be there to jiayou together!:D at least, we'll gonna conquer the next year together:)

okie back to the quiz thingy. and carlo, you dont have to write my name as "Ang Pei Jun aka Potato aka Peggy aka Tapioca aka Oneh Oneh" the whole world already knows-.-

THE RULES :People who were tagged , need to blog about their 10 weird habits/little facts.At the end , you have to choose 10 person to be tagged and list their names.

1) i used to play wrestling with my bro on our grandma's bed when we were younger. HAHA. FUN!!!:D:D:D

2) i daydream alot. seriously... HAHAHA. i dream of travelling around the world :)

3) my voice sounds like donald duck on phone(as mentioned by zhilin's mom-.-) and everyone who morning called me before said that i sound annoying or "teh" in the morning! D:

4) i like to observe the people around me. so if you catch me staring at you one day, pls dont beat me up or get the wrong idea:)

5) i like to hear positive things:D haha. like who dont?

6) my hand just cannot stop hitting people.. when im laughing or being provoked? (as mentioned by val-.-)

7) i like to watch sad korean dramas. i really dont know why! i just get addicted to it. and i usually daydream about them after watching. -.-

8) i used to sing or dance and act my own concert at home when im younger. my maid was my audience. haha :x

9) i am known as a "toilet girl" or that the toilet is my fav place(-.-) since pri school to sec school to jc D: and i think i influenced alot ppl to go toilet cos i have quite a number of toilet buddies now :D:D:D

10) everyone knows me as a potato and if you dont know yet, it started during sec 3. ( because im as cute as a potato :D )

there're still many things about me you havent yet to know about. hoho.

can i just tag the people who are reading this. haha. im too tired to think of names. and most of them are alr being tagged. so its okay lah! haha.

GOODNIGHT.

ASIA CONFERENCE was just mind blowing:D im so glad i made it for all the night sessions as they were all powerful and exciting. ushering on the first day was tiring but fun! liu geng hong smiled and said "hello" to me! but he dao-ed alot people. hahaha:D opps. hahaha. okok. and pastor kong said hi to us!!!:) the way he said hello is just so sweet. haha. and pastor ares and pastor kevin loo are so handsome! pastor tan is so tall. zhilin and me did some stupid thing when ushering and it was so embarrassing. haha. but there was much laughter that day although we were all tired. i still love working with hoGc ushers. haha. but chc ushers are really zai. ours are zai too okay! and the best part is that we are all young:) haha. we really can learn alot from the chc ushers. its a privilege to serve in asia conference!:D im so sad i missed both of pastor phil pringle's sessions:( i heard they were really powerful. but its okay cos there is a session with him again on sudnay morning and im definitely not going to miss that one!:D its just great to be part of the thousands and thousands in asia conference. i cried so much ytd when we sang crossing over. the lyrics just touched me so much as i saw all the different represensatives of the different asia countries at the front. yes! all nations belong to Jesus! its so powerful man. even bangladesh, cambodia and the 3rd world nations have radical christians who are represented in this conference. they are going to take their nations for God and its going to happen! as im typing now, i just feel so strongly that God is really doing something in asia. miracles will happen and more and more people will see the light.

By Your Spirit O Lord we claim the nations of the world for You Jesus
Pour down Your rain
Holy Spirit move in us today
By Your Spirit O Lord we claim the nations of the world for You Jesus
By Your word of truth
We're crossing over
To bring the losts for You


yes man! we're gonna win the losts for You. who says that its hopeless over at the 3rd world nations. ytd, a few cambodia people were sitting infront of me and i can feel the same hunger in them for their nation to be saved. all things are possible with God! and yes! i saw that verse on the pillars in tangs mall. yes! in the shopping centre! i was in orchard with my parents to mt elizabeth hospital too consult the doc for some prob. i really hate the hospital:( its just a bad feeling i always sense when i step in. i dont like to go hospital! but anyway, after that, we went to tangs mall and guess what i saw on the pillar! "with God all things are possible -matthew19:26" WHAO. i thought i was seeing thing as i was thinking of God too much. haha! but i was not-.- haha! and i quickly showed my parents and they were not surprised at all cos they said that the boss of the mall is a christian. but still, in a shopping centre! thousands of people will see that man! its so cooool! you may just think its some words on the pillar in the shopping mall but imagine how many lives it can touch! furthermore, its not any neighbourhood shopping mall but a mall in the middle of orchard!!! and they sell branded goods okay. haha:D truly, with God, ALL THINGS are possible! yes, ALL things! and i love my parents so much! they are such a blessing from God. the paid for my medical fees which was around 200plus 300 dollars and even bought stuffs for me. when i grow up, i want to honour them and give them a good life. many youths do not know how to respect their parents but because im a child of God, i know that i should and i must honour them. and yes, they will be saved soon.. have faith!:D



JERSEY WEEKEND:D

I AM HERE TO BLOG! its gonna be a long long post!:D


haha i've been mia for so long and i miss blogging. i have like millions of things to say. my life is just too happening man!:D:D:D i totally enjoy every min of my life. yeah. including the time spent sleeping because i always have sweet sweet dreams:) LOL


last week had been a power packed one! 2 days of nick vujicic and 3 days of pastor kong! D5 brokethrough. we had like tons of new friends!!! until i didnt even recall some of their faces. in total, our att was 63!!!!!!! AND guess what! the ceg att was 103 for the power packed week!!!:D ZAI RIGHT! hahaha. prayers move mountains yeah! God is great! the best part was that there were many salvations for nick vujicic!:D so many people stood up! they are really courageous! i almost teared when i see so many souls giving their lives to Jesus. it was such an awesome moment. and i hugged nick vujicic! he said "i love you" and i replied "love you too!" and i hope he wasnt shocked cos many people just said "thank you". haha. but if i could have more time with him, i would tell him that i did my pw on him! HAHA! he's such a great man of God. im so glad my parents made it. even if they were not saved that day, i know a seed had been sown into their hearts. i love them soooo much! they never fail to give in to me when i invite them for church. haha. well. some of the time-.- during big events... haha. YES slowly! one step at a time. prayer is the key now!:D


Pastor Kong is amazing and i love him to be in heart of God church!!! His preachings never fail to inspire me to love people more and go into the world to bring more souls to God. i was so blessed throughout that 3 days. no wonder he is a pastor of the biggest church in singapore:) his wife and him have been doing so much for God and His people! im soooo inspired! especially the part when he shared that we should not discriminate people but redeem them. all creations in this world belong to God!:D amen!


this week is another tiring yet exciting week. had school on mon, tues and this morning! Well, guess what, im late for all 3 days of lectures! HAHAHA! and the lectures are useless to me. i dont think i learnt anything from those boring lectures. haha. great. i could have slept more but still, going school is a must lah! haha. monday had HQ till 10plus in church. and it was great planning for outings. looking at the new friends' list is just exciting! imagine all of them planted in church. haha. greater things have yet to come! 240 for d zone!!! :D tues went to cck to meet yiling and her friends with jingfen and zhenghui. cck is like so far man! but its worth it:) after that, went to meet my parents. it had been so long since i last spent time with them. every since last tues, i've been home like very late. but i love my parents because they are understanding. well, they did complain but what can they do. HAHA. im a good girl and they can see it. haha. they bought things for me too. what more can i ask. great family, great friends around me, great church and good school..? haha. yay. wed had dinner with jocelyn and jingfen and jasmine and jocelyn is such a funny girl. haha. totally loved the time spent with her. yeah we will meet up soon again:)


today is another day that i was late for school. haha. really have to thank cheryl chern. she had been waiting for me all 3 days and even went out of audi to fetch me into the audi. LOL. haha. i thank God for good friends in school:) and huishi is forever late! tsktsk. haha. and it was her bd ytd! didnt manage to spend time with her but i know we ll meet again soon. haha. jessica and jasmine came my hse after sch to eat and we went to meet the rest and had cg after that. many new faces but the atmosphere was still good. His presence was so strong in the room and when jieru prayed for me, i felt His voice so close to my heart. BREAKTHROUGH! this is the season for me to grow. with so many events coming, there will be so many things to do. its gonna be tiring and everything, but i know that i have His strength i can rely on. i ll praise Him in every circumstance i am in. my God reigns:D i really think i am a blessed girl and now i want to bless others as well. so dont be surprised if i treat you something one day! i just treated qq a donut and she was shocked to the max. -.- HELLO? im always so nice right! :D hahaha. people like people who like them! i ll take the initiative to like people. its no longer me anymore!!! but about God and His people! this year is going to end with a blast!:D i cant wait for all the great plans God has for us:D:D:D:D


speaking to this mountain
to move into the ocean
with Your authority given to me
no matter what happens
here i am standing
on the hope of Your word
promise You've made

we're gonna multiply!:D














the real pro!

this man is amazing! i did my PI on him for project work! :D isnt that cool! im so inspired by his life journey that i decided to use him for the topic on "Journey" i wrote in my PI - Nick Vujicic’s life journey can inspire others to treasure their life because he has proven that even a man without limbs can live his life to the fullest. Key Learning Point: Never take things for granted but to live life to the fullest.


"There were times when Nick felt depressed and angry because he couldn't change the way he was, or blame anyone for that matter. Nick went to Sunday School and learnt that God loves us all and that He cares for you. Nick understood that love to a point as a child, but he didn't understand that if God loved him why did He make Nick Vujicic like this? Is it because he did something wrong? Nick felt like he was a burden to those around him and the sooner he go, the better it'd be for everyone. Nick Vujicic actually wanted to end his pain and end his life at a young age, but he is thankful once again, for his parents and family who were always there to comfort him and give him strength."

"Due to his emotional struggles, he had experienced bullying, self esteem problems and loneliness, God has implanted a passion of sharing his story and experiences to help others cope with whatever challenge they have in their life and let God turn it into a blessing. To encourage and inspire others to live to their fullest potential and not let anything gets in the way of accomplishing their hopes and dreams."

"One of the first lessons that he learnt was not to take things for granted. Nick Vujicic had that wake up call around the age of twelve and realized just how much he was blessed with. He took his foot for granted, his family and the fact that he wasn't born in a third world country, with all the blessings that God had freely given."

"Nick Vujicic completely gave his life to Christ at the age of fifteen after reading John 9. Jesus said that the reason the man was born blind was "so that the works of God may be revealed through him." Nick truly believed that God would heal him so that Nick could be a great testimony of His Awesome Power. Later on Nick was given the wisdom to understand that if we pray for something, if it's God's will, it'll happen in His time. If it's not God's will for it to happen, then He has something better. "

"However, Nick Vujicic believed that if you have the desire and passion to do something, and if it's God's will, you will achieve it in good time. As humans, we continually put limits on ourselves for no reason at all! What's worse is putting limits on God who can do all things. We put God in a "box". The awesome thing about the Power of God, is that if we want to do something for God, instead of focusing on our capability, concentrate on our availability for we know that it is God through us and we can't do anything without Him. Once we make ourselves available for God's work, guess whose capabilities we rely on? God's!"
taken from http://www.inspiring-quotes-and-stories.com/nick-vujicic.html

isnt his life journey an inspiration to you?
its amazing how he can do so much with what he has been given, while some of us use what we are lacking as an excuse to do nothing at all.
come hear his testimony and be impacted. i bet you'll love your life so much more and make full use of it even more:D

Nick Vujicic at heart of God church on 4th to 5th NOV!
(its after my PW OP!!!:D:D:D:D)

it has been such a long time since i last blogged!!! im so lazy to blogging nowadays:( but cheryl has been wanting me to blog cos she said she likes reading it as it is "so me" hahaha. well, i have so many things to say but im really tired to blog now. i can only say that i love my life cos its always interesting and excitng:)

skype is so cool lah! im a noob at skype though. ytd night wanted to sleep at 1 but ended up sleeping at around 330 to 4 cos some of us were skyp-ing. is that the word to use? haha. i spent around 1 hr trying to talk to them cos i was using desktop and my desktop doesnt have a mic. so i changed to laptop and has to dl the whole thing again. so troublesome. until today, nicholas and val still call me noob at skype. haha. its amazing how we can chat till so late. and its fun! at least im not alone in the middle of the night. haha. and i couldnt wake up this morning. i think im the queen of all pigs. nic and jingfen morning called me twice each. and the last call was from jingfen. so she called and i actually talked to her for awhile and rose up from bed and sat on it. but once i put down the phone, i actually went to lie on my bed again and told myself "zai gei wo liang fen zhong".... hahaha. so in the end, i woke up like 940 and i knew that i was gonna be late for the photoshoot so i decided to takke cab. i could have been early if i rushed but i hate to rush. so i went out at 940 and fetch a cab to church. and its 9dollars!!!:( SADDED.

services this weekend were awesome awesome awesome! ytd was pastor aries from chc and today was garrett!!! i miss pastors:( i hope they're doing fine in london. i cried under the presence of God during these 2 services. i miss crying under His presence. it really makes me treasure His presence even more. i want to experience His presence every every day of my life. no matter how tired i am, i want to spend time in His presence. i want to be even closer to Him. im not satisfied at where i am now. i want to draw even nearer to You. its my heart's desire, to know You more, to love You more each day.

i really really love my parents and love spending time with them. God has really chosen me to be in this family and its definitely not by accident that my parents are my parents. im so thankful to God for placing me in this parents. i love to be around my parents. i love how i can always act like a child infront of them, how i can be like a spoilt kid, how my dad always make us laugh with his blur face, how my mom and i love to argue, how they love me. i love everything about them though my mom likes to throw temper at us sometimes. i told my parents just now that they are really blessed to have such a daughter like me. haha. and my mom said that im really lucky to have parents like them. well, its not luck. its all God's plans and im thankful of that. by 2010, they are gonna be saved. they are gonna be part of the 3000 people that are going to be coming to our church in 2010. my whole family will be saved soon. pray for them, wont you?:)

i have so many things to blog about that i dontknow where to start!!! and i'm so tired now i can sleep for a week. hahaha:D

had a great weekend in church. we had so much fun during the hang out on sat and i had fun mashing potato at al fresco ytd. it was qianqian and yiwen's birthday on saturday!:D happy birthday! we dedicated songs for them. hahaha. its always a blessing to have your birthday spent in church:D service was great and Pastor's sermon really applies much to our life and to the way we evangelise. i got revelation from God about this whole tpjc revival. its just the beginning! i want more souls to be saved and more lives to be changed by Him. all will see His miracles in this school! imagine her character and attitude changes. she'll be such a great testimony for God. im praying. im praying for a clean heart in me, in us. i trust in God that all things are possible!:D

i went to bugis twice last week. once was on thursday because of meeting with jieru and second was with jingfen, jingfen's two friends and zhenghui:D and i went to pgsm for the first time! hahaha! the place is just beautiful! its so fun to see so many hoGc people in the same university. haha. and now, i'm reminded of the horrible trip to NUS last thurs. we did nothing but eat. haha. but its good that we managed to skip lesson:D

its such a tiring day but i really thank God for all the friends in school. jiamin wasnt in school today and i bet she misses us. haha. well, we miss your funny face too:) i have to blog about this! huishi and me were just competing who could press the fastest for the lead to come out of the pencil!!! haha. this idea is modified from the bishi bashi game just that we only have the strength to press out a lead. hahaha. we played during econs tutorial and i bet mrs ting was so disappointed in us. we even drew on a piece of paper many many food and i wrote there, i am hungry! haha. she saw it:( mr ng said that its difficult for him to give me a 'very good' for conduct:( i hope he's just joking with me if not i ll just quit school:(

i cut my hair just now somewhere near my house! and zhenghui cut hers too! we were quite afraid it would turn out bad but i think its okay. i think her hair looks good. see zhenghui! i told you, you will look good with short hair! haha.

i'm so thankful for everything He has placed in my life(: He's always so faithful.

You are faithful and true
Glorious Lord
All my life it is You i adore
You've touched my soul
Completed my world
i surrender to You

its friday!:D like finally. this week has been a tiring week:( and emo week because many people like jiamin and melvin were getting emo and stressed. we kept complaining about our school. we have so many homeworks and even had econs test in the morning just now! and the worst thing is that my pw has to change the entire idea:( its a crisis man. i got so emo on wed after hearing that we had to change idea. RAH. its million times worse than promos. if the school really wants us to do well in pw, they should just stop all the homeworks and tests and let us focus on pw! stress stress stress. so if you're considering coming to a jc, DONT! hahaha.

watched this really sad but sweet movie called tada kimi wo aishiteru. its a really cute show. you gotta watch it! the girl in the show has a kind of weird disease. she lacks of growth hormone and when she falls in love, she will mature and will die:( im still trying to find out the name of the disease. its so sad.


growth is gonna be so easy. tpjc revival is near..
my school, my responsibility:)

we want to run to the altar and catch the fire
to stand in the gap between the living and the dead
give us a heart of compassion
for a world without vision
we will make a difference bringing hope to our land

we definitely had a great time spending our children's day in botanic garden:D was really glad that the whole thing went well and really thank God for the wonderful weather. it was not too hot yet not raining, though its warm. well, we're living in singapore right? that isnt unusual. sylvia joined us too and i bet she loves us even more. haha. fungus and me were just saying that its not the place of the outing or the whole planning that makes it fun. Rather, its the people that make the outing fun and enjoyable. i thank God for this great bunch of people who never fail to make the outing an enjoyable one:) this outing is great but the next outing will be even better:D

my eye is still swollen. did not go to school again today and couldnt join the girls for karaoke:( there's econs test next week!!! im so dead. mrs ting wrote in the online msg: Should you fail the test, you will likely be called back to attend extra lessons during the Nov period. i bet i ll be one of those attending them. man, i really dont want to go to church with my swollen eye:(

my eye is still so painful!!!:( i want go school!!! if not my friends will miss me like mad! hahaha! but i seriously want to go school. i pray that my eye will be healed completely by 12am! hahaha.

im having a very sinful chats with zhenghui and zhilin. both of them talking to me about the same topic! HAYO. hahaha!!! not really sinful cos it concerns our future. HAHA. but its super funny. i shall not elaborate on it and shall go pray later. hahaha!

who am i that You will know me from the start, set me apart.

HAPPY BRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER:D

my bro's friends are at my house now, planning to give my bro a surprise when he gets back home. ahhaha. so sweet of his friends. he should count his blessings for having a great bunch of friends:) and i have to waittt for their surprise to take place. its quite funny seeing their reactions. they're like so comical. hahaha.

my eye is swollen and hurts like mad now. i wish i can go school tmr but i doubt so. its painnn!!! VERY VERY PAIN!!!

i better go prepare for the surprise too:D

one of my fav korean actors, kwon sang woo, just got hitched:( haha.

my head hurts now. must be the terrible weather. few hoours ago, it was so warm. after that, it began to rain heavily!:( it started raining during pw lesson. pw is horrible. we have to change our idea:(:(:(:( say goodbye to my A:( but well, we had a great time during pw lesson lookng at our school forum. HAHAAHA. all the nonsense. its super dumb and we had a good laugh at all the posts. mr ng is super mean! because they were using my account to read so he suggested using my account and post some stupid stuffs on the forum. what a good teacher i have.

i still do not have the mood to study. i cant wait for weekends to come! oh i cant wait for the outiing on wed! we're gonna go botanic garden:D hahaha. its gonna be a great outing! yay. ball, frisbee, photoshoot, sun, flower, food. even if it rains, we'll still have a great time in minds cafe. haha:D

sometimes its just so hard to love people but we are all created in the image of God. God loves us the same and never chooses who to love more. the sermon on love undeservedly just comes back to me. i ll continue praying and i know this weekend's gonna be a great one. i pray that God, You'll change her from the inside out.

a thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains.
should i stumble again, still i'm caught in Your grace
everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fade
never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame.

/edit : i went to watch last few mins of stairway to heaven and its so sad. totally affected my mood:( haha. but i dontneed tissues cos im strong!:D

eating apple now..

F1 race just ended. i didnt really catch it though its on the 3 big screens in church. haha. maybe its just not me to watch this kind of race. i dont get as excited as others do. but i think its really cool to have a night race in singapore. i totally love hanging out in church. many people stayed back to watch the race these 2 nights. the feeling is just indefinable. haha. its not something that can be defined or described. the feeling of having one big family you can hang out with and the feeling of having a church you can call it your home. i really want others to experience what i've experienced and am experiencing. like what peifen said, i really treasure the relationships i have in church(: i want to bring more people into this wonderful placce and let them experience the love in the house of God.

woke up at 6plus today! its amazing how i could wake up so early. thanks nicholas for the morning call and because of his morning call, i managed to morning call qq and zh. so nic! you not only woke up one person but 3 people:D hahaha. met qq and rushed to church for customer ops meeting. the whole meeting was just mind-blowing and everyone was just blown away by all the great ideas that jianming had mentioned. im looking forward to 14thoct!:D customer ops team is going to rise up to a whole new level and bringing friends to hang out in church is going to be so much more fun and easier. i love hoGc because there're always full of surprises:D usher today was great too. i stationed at the white gate and yes, its really really hot. stood under the sun for a long time and the wind just kept blowing at me. but i love to greet people especially unfamiliar faces. standing at the white gate must be one of the most impt task because im the first person that people will see when they walk in. i have the honour of giving them the first impression of our church. haha! and i love to see the smiles of people's faces. it just puts joy in my heart to see people responding to your greeting(: yes! its a great joy to be serving in the house of God. i want to serve Him for all eternity!

school starts tmr and there's only one word to describe it - SIAN. hai. i cant stop sighing. haha. yes love school undeservedly. i ll try my best to enjoy my days in school. all the best to me:D and i feel so dumb:( im having a sunburn after ushering at the white gate. hahaha! who ever gets a sunburn after usher duty! LOL. okay. im really tired now. slept only for4 hrs last night:( goodnight people!

even when the mountain trembles and a thousand falls,
i will stand with You, my Jesus take my all.

yay! thanks CHERYL CHERN for the blogskin! im so lazy to do one myself:D

today's morning prayer meet was good. was just talking to jasmine about the prayer group in our school and we just thank God for all the wonderful people in it especially daryl and althea. all of the people just come faithfully EARLY every morning to worship and pray. the atmosphere might be different from that in church but it definitely refreshes us every morning(: i have been feeling so guilty about always being late and letting people morning call me. be blameless peijun!

i realised i have many hi-bye friends in school. haha. yes just say HI and BYE. have been walking around school during breaks with huishi these few days. school might be boring but thank God for friends whom i can talk to during break. somehow, we just always have things to talk about. from our childhood to our brothers/sisters to our sec school to our ugliest moment. right? haha. pw is terribleD: my group mates and i nearly died last night. mr ng sent us a very not-nice-to-read sms. haii.. tsk. its horrible. but i still think my group is the best group among the rest in the class. that is if we dont look at efficiency and quality of work. which makes it like the worst group in class. whatever. it is the process that we should enjoy.

CG was awesome. we just worshipped God and prayed. this could carry on forever:D i love His presence and i treasure every second spent in His presence. i want more of Him. jessica joined us today!:D 3 tpjcian in our cg today! hahaha. its such a beautiful picture. we should have taken that down. yes! more will come!!! MORE!:D

thank God for my results! all glory goes to Him. i was quite amazed at my econs and history results. especially econs! i thought i would fail badly but instead, i did better than mid year! praise the Lord! He sees my hard works and is always faithful.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

my dreams and my desires, i lay them at Your feet.

contented but never satisfied. this is something i've learnt from dom during discipleship class. contented is to be pleased with your situation, your position. To content is to give enough to keep one from being disposed to find fault or complain. However, satisfaction is different. satisfaction puts us at a risk of not moving forward because it puts an end to a desire, want or need because of sufficient provision. im contented with my position in Christ, being a child of God but im not satisfied and i know i want more of Him, more of His presence in my life. im contented with my life, having many things that not others can have but im not satisfied and i want to keep working hard for my future. im contented with my family and with my friends but i not satisfied. i know i can be a better daughter/sister/friend and build better characters. im contented with my maths results but im not satisfied because i know there's still rooms for improvement. but. im really not contented with my gp results. yes. the whole world knows i failed my gp. i got 13.5 marks for my paper 2. my first four short ans get 0 0 0 and 0. its horrible. yes, i was not feeling good that day, i was tired, i dozed off halfway through the paper, i thought the paper was 1hr 45mins. all these are just excuses that i can use to console myself. but i know that i have not put in my best. im soooo disappointed and just cant get over it! its really lousy! really. haii..

today was a very unfruitful day. i didnt learn much during tutorials and lectures. i kept thinking of my results and was really afraid of my econs. i know i wont do well. tmr is gonna be a bad bad day:( well.. at least huishi and me had some talk during the long break. talk about many many stuffs and many thoughts have been running through my mind. haha. school has been rather boring now because we have nothing to do during break unlike in the past when we would rush our works. i totally wasted the 2 hrs of pw in com room. thank God for jingfen and nicholas who accompanied me till 230 online. haha. so nice of them. but i had no privacy at all lah!D:

i hope tmr never comes because i really donwan to know my results. many people keep telling me i wont retain but thats what makes it even more scary. the thought of wasting another year in jc is terrible. i can just pray and surrender all to God because i am in no control of my results anymore. He is in control.

Philippians 4:11
Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content

1 Timothy 6:6
Now godliness with contentment is great gain.

Be contented with what you have and who you are:D







after promos:D

life has been great after promos. so many good things have been happening and im looking forward for even more exciting things that are going to happen! f1 race screening in church next week! its gonna be awesome! God has already dropped names into my heart and im so gonna grab this oppurtunity to bring more souls to church! i love heart of God church. we are always so creative, coming out with new ideas, new events to evangelise. 1400! its coming! thursday to sunday have been fruitful. cg on thurs, meeting and went for prayer on friday, service ytd, discipleship class and service today. i felt a breakthrough in my prayer life because of the prayer meetings i went on friday, sat and sunday! it was awesome. how i wish there's no school tomorrow. i hate to go back to my school life again:( the feeling is horrible. but well, i've found my purpose in going to school! a revival is coming!:D

going to watch ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni with my mom now. still praying for my bro:D

yesyes. i blogged twice today. was planning to pon school today and i did pon but even if i didnt have the idea of ponning. i wouldnt have gone to school because of sth that happened and woke me up at 6 plus. if i had planned to go school, i would still be sleeping. im so deprived of sleep now. being a responsible girl, i msged mr ng and let him know that i actually wanted to pon but sth really happened so couldnt go. and he replied okay and that he will bring me to see principal on monday with a smiley face(: whalao. hai. its not a good day after all until i go to church. had an exciting meeting with jieru! hahaha. we planned lots of things and im so so looking forward to them. yeah. more than just all the excitements and fun, its all about bring the new friends closer to us, church and God. there're so much to look forward to:D

and being a nice friend, i actually accompanied some of them to mug for their promos and even helped val and zhenghui with maths! one nyjc one tj. and im just a tpjcian-.- okay. stress is the word to describe zhenghui. she got emo and crazy. and i managed to make her laugh. i know im such a nice friend(: haha. i know how you feel la. i've been through it(: at least i wish i was taking promos at the same time as them. but thank God its over.

just looking through all the old photos. childhood memory is really one of the best things in life that we should cherish. how i wish i can go back to those time again. when my brother always put his arms around me, smiling and posing for the camera. i miss my old maid too. the maid who had been with us for 5 years. life was great then. but i know its gonna be even greater. thank God.

hello brother, i miss those times talking to you. when will you be back to your old self:( i want to help you erase the unhappy memories. i want you to be happy, filled with the joy of the Lord, having the peace of God upon you. i want you back as my brother...

"BE STRONG PEIJUN! BE STRONG"

i feel that im losing my brother to this world. my heart wrecks for hiim. whenever i think aboout him, i cant help but tears just rolled down my eyes. i miss him so much. he used to be so happy go lucky, always entertaining people and making people laugh. but after breaking up, he just changed to a totally different person. i blamed myself for not giving much attention to him. i have not been a good sister. im always going out or studying. i knew he was not right ever since after the break-up but i did nothing. and sometimes, doing nothing is worse than doing wrong thing. it hurts to see him this way. but at least, he has great friends who truly care for him, supporting him. why why why does he have to act like nothing has happened. cant he just let it out. why does he have to keep everything to himself and torture himself. he needs God and i just prayed for him in his room. i cant stop crying. i want my brother back. Lord, please bring him back. only You can give him the love he needs. that girl is a jerk. she is not worthy of him doing and suffering so much for her. i've learnt not to go too deep in a relationship. no matter what happens, i ll still stand by him and pray for him. i kknow that one day, he will share his testimony on stage.

but i know everything's gonna be alright. the peace of God will rest upon me and my household. he will forget everything about that girl. i have faith. he will be back to his old self again soon.

YAY! PROMOS ENDED FOR ME:D HURRAY HURRAY!
but i still have school tmr and stupid pw. but i ll still bring praise no matter what!:D

it has been a long week. and its finally over! i almost couldnt wake up in the morning and thanks daryl for the morning call. but still! i only woke up at 630plus! if its normal school day, i would have been late cos i reached school around 745. qianqian! you're not the only one who needs a vibrating bed to wake you up! i think i need it more! china studies wasnt that good cos i have to admit that i didnt study hard enough. the questions were pretty straightforward and i wish i had studied harder. but well, i managed to crap out something at least! thank God! i've learnt to rely on Him throughout this whole exam seasons(:

mr ng said i did quite good for maths! but i doubt its an A): and there's a high chance of me promoting because we asked and he said two danger zones and not anyone of us. i hope i ll pass for china studies. i need to promote! pw is such a hassle. draft and draft and more drafts. i want an A for pw! and an A for chinese! gotta work hard now. its gonna be easy.

going out for seoul garden with chern jm and hs later. its time to enjoy after so much of studying! :D

i 'love' studying!

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

yay! it has been a great weeekend and i enjoy to be back in God's house and serving in it:D after a long week of promos, i felt so refreshed being back in church! ytd's usher was fun! i love seeing the smiles on people's faces after me greeting them. the best was to see many unfamiliar faces! i know we're gonna breakthrough! the south african ambassador came ytd and she's just powerful! and i managed to greet her personally while stationing at the glass door! she said hi to me!! whao!!!:D leadership is humility. Amen to that! i was so impacted by the stories she shared about the great leaders especially nelson mandela! i want to read more about him now! in fact i just read an article on him in Time magazine and i like what he said"Courage is not the absence of fear. its inspiring others to move beyond it"!

today's service was AWESOME cos its about the glory of virginity. im sure everyone was impacted by it cos its really the sermon for us especially when we are still not married. i've learnt so much from pastor and really, thank God im still a virgin and i hear this sermon when im 17:D im proud to be a virgin! hahaha!
Virgnity is ONE THING you can give ONE TIME to ONE PERSON in ONE LIFETIME!
AMEN!

i've got so many things to say but im so lazy to blog it(:
to sum it all out, i love my life and the people around me:D

HAPPY MOONCAKE + LANTERN DAY!

im watching the taiwanese drama ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni and its such a funny show! that girl dreams alot. feels like me. hahaha! makes me laugh infront of the com screen. feel dumb but its really funny! its time to de stress before i start studying again for china studiesD: cheryl ended her promos alr. rah!!! while some of us only end on wed. AND there's pw on thurs and fri! man. cant they just give us a break?!! not looking forward to it cos jiamin is going to pluck her wisdom tooth on thurs. i ll miss her): HAHAHA.

had history test this afternoon. im not sure if i ll do well cos i just crapped out whatever info i remembered. FOUR essays in THREE hours. its horrible. my hand hurt like mad. wrote non stop for 3 hours. rahh! and i was so confused by the indo pakistan war and arab israeli conflict. remember one and i ll forget another. hai. but im so blessed by jasmine, zhenghui and annlynn! jasmine just told me that they were praying for me during my paper and i was on their mind throughout the 3 hrs. WHAO. im super touched after hearing that. thanks girls:D no wonder i was awake throughout the paper! yay! i know im not alone during this period with such great people in my life, constantly giving me encouragements. :D

maths paper should be one of the better paper alr although i doubt i can get an A): at least the 3 hrs doesnt feel as long as history's 3 hrs. haha. but im happy that i left one paper!:D well. i still have pw and a level chinese. and next year, a level. if i promote. ok. i shall have faith! let Your will be done(:

now all that are in mind now are hezbollah, hamas, PLO, Nasser, Israel, Pakistan, religious fundamentalism. yeah history is exciting except the writing of essays. something scary happened yesterday when i was taking a nap. i was thinking of integrations and differentiation and i cant get them out of my head! its scary cos i confused them with history. finally, i can sleep in peace(: good night!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO BLOG TO RELIEVE STRESS! IM GOING CRAZY SOON!!! SOON!!! VERY SOON!!! ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! :O

i feel like screaming!!!!! man. i never felt so stress before. this is so much worse than o level can):):): i tried doing maths but somehow. i just couldnt get the answers. and when i looked at the solutions. its like so simple!!! angpeijun! can you not think too far! i cant stand myself! i want an A for maths but i doubt i can get it. with integrations, maclaurin, 3d area and volume. i can say goodbye to my A. man.. i want to sleep! i need more sleep! i took a nap just now and i couldnt even sleep in peace because all the maths questions were flooding my mind): i woke up and felt that if i continued to sleep for one more minute, i ll retain. the feeling is just horrible. now i understand how stress jc life is.

eight more days and it ll be over...

i cant take it anymore! i hate it when im studying and there're so many thoughts on my mind. i hate to study when im feeling unwell. i hate the feeling of stepping into the exam hall. i hate the feeling of me not knowing the answers to the questions. i hate it when everyone is busy writing yet i cant write out anything. i hate it when all the things i've studied never seem to come out. i hate the feeling of passing up the scripts when i know the things i've written on it are not going to give me marks. i hate it i hate it i hate it!!! how can i be so faithless!!!D: i need more assurance. i really really dont want to retain...

and all i can say, no longer my way, let Your will be done.

oh mannn. i should not have watched stairway to heaven! its affecting my mood to study nowD: such a typical emo korean drama. one episode is enough to make me sad. power lah! hahaha. but seriously.. HAI... what a sad life.. what a beautiful love.. tsktsk.. i wonder if ever i loss my memory, will i forget the person i love. but well i know i will never forget the One i love the most. kwon sang woo said in the show, "love always comes back" yeah. no matter what, He will still find me back:D ok. enough of emo-ing. i ll watch more of these dramas after my promos:D haha.

its such a bad dayD: i think i ll fail gp. seriously. i have never left so many blanks before. and i dozed off halfway during gp paper 2 and econs paper. ARGH! how could i! vitamin c doesnt work for me. maybe chicken essence does. i shall try it on wed. i told my mom im going to fail and somehow, she believed it. off to study soon!D:D:D:

if not for love
if not for grace
all the sins that You've erased
i will always have reasons to praise

no longer will i forfeit grace
i'll follow You and live by faith

You have made a way for us
when You died upon that cross

oh. and thanks to those who have sent me encouragement msges and have shown concern about my promos(:

its one more day to promos and im having a headache now! its those kind of fever headache and i cant fall ill now! definitely not now! just ate vitamin c in the morning and ate apple after dinner. i hope everything will be alrightD: felt so much better after service just now. service was great:D yay! i love history cos its pastor how's favourite too. sir winston churchill is so powerful! the 2 greatest days of our lives is the day when we are born and the day we find out why we are born. amen!

study study. i have been study EVERYDAY during the holiday. the people i studied with thoughout this holiday: zhenghui, valerie, qianqian, yiwen, jasmine, peifen, grace, siew chi, cheryl and jiamin(: yay. we are going to do well for promos okay! we're together in this and we ll conquer it together. haha. the place we studied at: tamp library, church, tamp inter mac and airport. ytd grace, zhenghui, jasmine, peifen and me studied at airport together(: and carlo, choongkai and nicholas joined us too. it wasnt productive lah. but the time spent was worth it:D i think after promos, i ll miss those mugging period. HAHA! but there're so many things i want to do after promos! SO MANY THINGS!!!:D yay. its gonna be over soon. hopefully i ll do well. i donwan to just promote but i want to do well and be a good testimony for God.

just ytd, i was just thinking. i have been studying so much outside and im out everyday. thus, i didnt really spend time with family. but God just reminded me the importance of placing family above my studies. dont take them for granted and most importantly, dont take God for granted. yes i am busy and stress but studying is not all to life. i cannot be stuck in my own studying world and neglect the things that are happening around me or missed out on things and time spend with our love ones. so ytd when at airport, i just felt so strongly that the Holy Spirit is speaking to me to sms my dad cos he was working night shift and i wasnt at home to say bye to him. it just not me to send sweet sms. haha. i was afraid he would think that i wanted to commit suicide cos i msged him bye. but he replied good night and dont sleep late. so sweet... hahaha. so to all the people studying very hard! spend time with your parents and spend time with God! its definitely worth the few hours or even minutes. dont study out till too late outside or lock yourself in the room whole day. talk to your parents and have some quiet time with God:D

aint no giant gonna walk on my land!

STUDYING
):

this is worse than O levels):):):

but smile!(: cos God is with me and He is all i need:D
He is with you too:D

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY MR NG

i dont think you ll see this anyway. haha.

im using my new laptop to blog now! whoohoo. and im using my msn on another desktop.

stayed in the lib from 10 to 6 just now with zhenghui. quite quite productive. i hate econs and suddenly, i felt like i cant do maths anymore):): i hate this kind of feeling. but i know nothing is iimpossible! im gonna conquer my promos like never before!:D

went to IT fair with my family ytd and it was crowded. we had to sqeeuzed our way through. hai. then we went to eat at this restaurant call just noodle and its super nice! its near the fountain area:D there were free flow drinks and free scoops of icecream!!!YUMYUM. i ll definitely go back there again:D:D:D

Going back to prss is just awesome. many memoriess in the old school(: miss ang is still the same. FUNNY:Dwell, i just feel like im still a part of prss. hahaha, yes part of this prss revival!:D

now, im going to watch the last episode of 9 clock show, do my china studies assignment and study abit and sleep. plan my life!

i cant wait for Nick Vujicic to come HoGc! lets have a date on 4th and 5th november! see you!

Every step i take You will lead me
With You i ll walk the raging seas
You're my strength when i am weary
You give me reasons to believe:D

AND I SERIOUSLY MISS A1!!!! was just watching their old videos. all the old nice songs. i dontknow where are they now): i just miss the 90s so sosososo much!!!

beautiful moments(:

i hate e learning day!!! its horrible! i didnt even manage to study): and they are showing stairway to heaven now on channel u 6pm! the show that makes many cry... haha. i miss korean dramas... oh well... holiday faster come please!:D

E-LEARNING DAY

HAI!!! there are so many works to be done online and i hate it. i rather go school man!D: staying at home and staring at the com is boring. and zhenghui is pestering me to go tj to find her. if only i have a laptop, i will. but man, i need my com the whole day!

This week has been a great week!!! because sunday was my birthday!:D had an enjoyable time in church and pastor how's birthday celebration was humourous. they really can act! im sure jack neo will want them in his movies. hahaha. monday still feels like my birthday because people were still msging me birthday wishes and the prayer group celebrated my bd in the morning too. i didnt expect it man. but still, thanks to them! i think the best presents i received are the cards and letters, especially JM's one. HAHA. i didnt know you can write LONGGG letter! i was quite amazed by it. i love the card from d5. the good thing about cards and letters is that i can just read and read again and again(: perhaps maybe one of my languages of love is words of assurance so i love reading them. reading the cards never fail to make me smile(:

ytd was a fun day! had school blahblah and had cg at evening! ytd cg was poweful powerful!:D we just kept worshipping and just enjoying His presence. and oh! jasmine told me mon's prayer meeting was super powerful too even though she came halfway through the song!:D yay! it shall be like this every morning. im so hungry for more of Him every morning. thank You Lord for Your presence(: im so inspired to reach out to more souls! not satisfied with just one but i want more to come into His kingdom! its going to be easy if i pray and love people a little more... Pastor's sermon on self leadership of our will totally impacted me. a little more, a little further, a little longer... to move from good to great!:D nothing is impossible. Amen!

after cg, we hang out awhile in church and some of us went to eat supper! we actually decided it on monday night and wanted to go blk 85. but some of them stay far from there so we were deciding again and decided to eat zhu zhar tang near our church! at geylang-.- hahaha! so zhenghui, jasmine, jingfen, moo, carlo, nicholas and me headed off to geylang and we walked a really dangerous path! the girls were screaming or isit only jasmine and me. haha. the cars were driving past us and i can feel the wind. stupid carlo! led us to this dangerous path! we could have walked another safer path man! but we still enjoyed the laughters. finally we reached that place. its such a sinful place lah. my parents called and i was telling them i will tell them im in geylang. haahha. tsk! we ordered a little but we talked a lot and we were really noisy. but its fun! its usually at night when we get totally crazy. saying crazy stuffs. went home around 10plus. homw sweet home.

and now, i need to do e learning! i seriously rather go school! but there's supposed to be pe today so i should be thankful. haha. im still deciding whether i should go school tmr. i donwan do the muay thai thing and i want go back prss! and should i cut hair tmr? hmmm.....

You know that i love You
You know that i want to
know You so much more
more than i have before

These words are from my heart
These words are not made up
i will live for You
i am devoted to You

King of Majesty
i have one desire
just to be with you my Lord
just to be with you my Lord

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ANDPEIJUN!!!!:D

hahaha. i've lived on this year for like 16 years and im finally 17! it sounds really old): this is the 2nd year i'm celebrating my birthday knowing who my Creator is, the One who knows me even before i was born and the One who gives me a purpose in life. thank You Lord for finding me(: this year birthday will be the best one cos its on sunday and there's service today! i celebrated my bd last yr in church but its on a friday. this year, i'm going to celebrate my birthday under the presence of God. and there will be Pastor How birthday celebration later on! I'm so honoured that my birthday falls on the same month as my pastor's!:D hohoho.

I slept really early last night like at 11pm): i wanted to wake up at 12am to study and all these. however, i was only awaken by the dring sound of my phone. i was quite surprised that the first two msges were by cheryl chern and huishi! hahaha. their msges are so sweeeet can. so unlike them. hahaha just kidding! but i really thank God for them. they said that i make school great and enjoyable but without them, i dont think my school life will be fun too. thanks friends!(: after reading their msges, i went back to sleep and before i knew it, it was 7am in the morning and i looked at my handphone. there were 16 msges!!! i didnt expect it to be so much and after that, every 20-30mins, i received another one or two msg(: i didnt reply to all msges or else i ll be broke! so thanks so much people. all these msges make my day:D especially the msges from my pri school friends! shaochun, weiwei, siqi, zhangxiang, amelia... the people i have known for half of my life. love them so much!!!:D

going to church soon! bye!

This is a very cute mv of A1's ready or not. i loved them alot!!! miss them so much.


This is my favourite mv! i remember my brother and i always looked forward to this mv during the mtv show on sunday morning. miss those times!!!): i like ben! that center parting hair guy. haha.

i still enjoy my friday!:D

its been a long day out today from morning till now..and my eyes are tired): but still, its a great day so i shall blog and 10 yrs later, i ll still remember this day(: hahaha. thats my purpose of blogging.

the class celebrated the june to august birthday babies after econs lecture just now. hahaha. it was super funny. i didnt know they wanted to celebrate and was complaining that they took so long to take "teacher's day present". when mr ng came in, i was quite shocked. i thought we didnt want him to knw about it. he totally spoilt the whole surprise when he told jm "we should just buy a bao and put a candle on it and give it to her." so i know about the whole plan-.-hahaha. so they came in with the pink strawberry cake. and melvin said its mr ng who said i like strawberry cake and thought i dont like chocolate. i prefer chocolate cake okay! izza was thinking maybe its the strawberry pouch which im carrying that gives the wrong idea that i like strawberry. HAHA-.- the cake was full of cream!): haha.

after school, went for lunch with cheryl, huishi and jm at kfc. we wanted the 5.95 meal but i think the promotion ended alr): oh yeah, huishi and me still kept thinking of all those old pop songs and we sang it out. cheryl was irritated by us. i think mrs ting and the chinese teacher dont like us anymore): i used to like a1 so much!!! i love my childhood.. have been thinking about it since this morning. hahaha. life is good.

after the lunch, i went to jasmine's house with d50 people to bake bread for pastor how!:D sometimes i get really irritated by the lower sec people when i see them holding hands or flirting with each other, blasting their hp mp3 and talking loudly on the bus. however, when i see the group of pasir ris sec peoplein d50, choonkai godric all these people, i just feel that they are so different from those lower sec people i see outside. they might be young but dont despise their youth! they are always so willing to do big things for God and to love people in their school. they are just not your typical lower sec kids. im sure they will be great men and women in the future. seeing how they always make things seem fun make me smile. anyway, we had a great time at jasmine's house although i had to leave early. and jasmine is just another great woman. she actually stayed up late to prepare the dough!thats how heart of God church people are like, always willing to go the extra mile(: i thank God for this wonderful church and the wonderful people.

went to watch money no enough with my parents at century after that. its such a dumb show. although its quite funny, the show is too negative for me. haha. the end was happy but there were so much unhappiness throughout the show!): they showed the typical singaporean's life. its too pathetic man. the show puts me into lots of thoughts later. death is so scary. life is not just about living and dying. if thats the case, it ll be too pathetic! come on! there's so much more to life!!! when i grow up, i want to honour my parents and give them a good life!(:

i love this song!

every girl dreams of a beautiful marriage. hahaah.



Duriing gp lesson, jm,cheryl,huishi and me started talking about our plans for marriage, how we want our wedding to be and who are going to be the bridemaids for one another. its really a girls talk man. we really dream too much and i told them i want to hold my wedding on a cruise! hahaha. but then again, maybe not. haha. i want to watch northen light with my future boyfriend. haha. i watch too much dramas alr. its quite bad. jiamin did something really embarrassing just now! she wanted to tell bryan to be her best man but she said bride...groom!! HAHAAHA super paiseh lah!!! but its fun. we spent 45mins talking about all these stupid stuffs which might never come true. hahaha. all i want is just a guy who is faithful, serve God and love people, reaching out to the losts. i know God has a perfect plan for this(: i saw this picture while i was worshipping quite long ago. me and my husband in our room doing qt, lifing our hands and worshipping God together. isnt that picture cool!:) i know its a picture God has put in my heart. a Godly family:D

just now in school, jiamin, huishi and me started reminiscing throughout the whole chinese lesson. we talked about all the old songs we used to sing like A1, westlife, backstreet boy, boyzone, atomic kitten, blahblah! HAHAHA. and we liked britney spears until her "im a salve for you" album! LOL. and we started singing all or nothing by o town and if you come back by blue. hahaha. i remembered my brother and i used to watch this mtv show on sunday morning 10am. so we bought alot of english albums. until sec school, we started listening to chinese pop songs. and now, i totally lost touch with all the new songs. i still prefer old songs. they are more real. hahaha.

life is exciting and full of coincidence. but i would prefer to say that all these are part of God's plans. hahaha. yesterday, i was talking to zhangxiang and we were saying that we've known each other for 5 years. but i remembered he is my long lost neighbour! haha! no lah. just that i know him since pri 1 cos he stayed near my old house. and our maids always talk to each other!!! he doesnt remember. but he remembered there's a girl. hahaha. girls usuall have better memory. he asked why didnt i tell him all along but i didnt really think about it. now that i come to think of it, its quite amazing. cos we are now in the same group of pri sch friends. hahaha! and shaun is coming to my church this sunday! i totally forgotten how he looks like! its like 4 years since we last saw each other? hahaha(:

promos is coming! and im still enjoying school although it gets tiring at times. even when trouble comes and all else fades away, i ll still bring praise:D

some of my fav old songs:






and the amazing thing is that i've got all these albums! from westlife to a1 to mandymoore to m2m to avril lavigne to boyzone to atomic kitten to even destiny child!!! WHAHA. still got many more. waste money!):

baking bread for Pastor How tomorrow(:!!
and watching movie with parents tmr night!!!(:
this weekend is going to be exciting!:D

We bow our hearts
We bend our knees
Oh Spirit come make us humble
We turn our eyes
From evil things
Oh Lord we cast down our idols

So give us clean hands
and give us pure hearts
Let us not lift our souls to another
Oh God let this be a generation that seeks
Who seeks Your face, Oh God of Jacob

PICTURES PICTURES AND MORE PICTURES!!!:D

I am a happy girl! School as been really great this week and jiamin and cheryl really love yesterday although i felt it was okayokay. hahaha. cheryl claimed that we treated each other nicely yesterday. only yesterday! haha. but with a great bunch of friends, how can jc life not be fun! thanks friends!(: CG just now was awesome! more and more souls will come into His kingdom! i'm looking forward to our church growth. all things are possible! amen!(: went to eat with zhenghui and chatted with her about school and everything. its always nice to have friends whom you can share with about your life and they'll always be there to listen(: i love my life because my Saviour is living in me!

Can't live a day without Your presence
Closer to You i wanna be

My soul cries out for more of You
My Lord my portion and hope
i close my eyes and feel You near
There's nobody else that can take Your place in my heart

these people brighten up my jc life(:

saturday!:D

Woke up early this morning and went to church for discipleship class!:D:D:D i learnt so so many things from dom during the class and was really blessed by the sharing. He shared with us about responsibility and expectations. yeah. there's a great price to greatness and that is responsibility. as we rise up, there are more responsibility to be taken and higher responsibility also means that people have higher expectations of us because they see us differently. they will expect more from us and the little things we do actually can affect and influence the people. what really impacted me was when dom shared about being blameless and being a role model to others. we have to keep our lives blameless to become an influential leader and also to meet the expectation of the people around us. i want to build up the substance in me and be more Christ like.but first, i need to take responsibility over my life, spirtually, physically and emotionally. dom also shared this, a great church does not only take responsibility of themselves but it takes responsibility for the nation; a great leader does not only take responsibility for himself but he takes responsibility for the lives of others(: i felt God speaking to me that i have to work on my heart and character. i want to blameless in my character. God sees everything i do in the darkness. God knows everything im thinking. He knows everything.


1 Timothy 3:2-7 (New King James Version)
2 A bishop then must be blameless, the husband of one wife, temperate, sober-minded, of good behavior, hospitable, able to teach; 3 not given to wine, not violent, not greedy for money,but gentle, not quarrelsome, not covetous; 4 one who rules his own house well, having his children in submission with all reverence 5 (for if a man does not know how to rule his own house, how will he take care of the church of God?); 6 not a novice, lest being puffed up with pride he fall into the same condemnation as the devil. 7 Moreover he must have a good testimony among those who are outside, lest he fall into reproach and the snare of the devil.

Went out with my parents after GS and spent time with them(: we ate at swensen's!!!:D Walked around and bought many things. my mom was asking if i want to buy a cross necklace!!! but i couldnt find the simple one i wanted. haha. i love my parents so much and i feel really blessed that i have such great parents. now, im just looking forward to the day where they will come to know Christ and accept Him into their lives. i desire for this to happen. pray pray pray!

its time to continue with my study rule. i still left 2 hrs for this week's): oh! and i heard i got A for maths test and 2nd in class!!! YAY! all glory to God! the truth is that i only tried 4 qns before the maths test... :X i really think God helped me through and increased my ability in maths. i didnt do well for the first math's test and mr ng used to pick on me in class. but ever since mid year, i have been doing okay in maths. thank You Lord. i want to continue to glorify You with my results. indeed, all things are possible with Him!

At the cross i bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done

didnt take many pics during FOP):

"Where i belong, where i keep my heart and soul, where we are one big family!"
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY:D

It has been a really tiring week): everyone is tired and emo. but we can still be hyper and crazy at times! i dont dislike school, just that sometimes, its really hard to be nice to some people especially the guys in my class): i've tried. and prayed for a change of heart in me.

today was national day eve and we had some bazaar thingy. anyway, my day started out bad cos i saw mr ng in the bus! HAHA. i was talking to huishi on the phone when i board the bus. i sat at the 3 people seats and guess what! i saw mr ng opposite me and i screamed AH! i felt so dumb. i didnt realise it was loud until he told me that. haha. then i talked on the phone with huishi and said loudly im so suay to see him. and he just laughed and stared at me. when we alight the bus, he told me that i embarrassed him by screaming and talking loudly in the bus. he said he heard my voice before he saw my face!!! oh my gosh. so mean. haha but i have to admit mr ng is the nicest, funniest, fun-loving and most caring teacher i've ever met in my entire life. although we love to make fun of him and he loves to make fun of me, he is really a nice person. during our bazaar today when some of us walked around the school to sell our food, he followed us and helped us! so nice right! he was telling me that he couldnt find my blog but im sure if he ever finds it, he ll be so touched to read this. haha.

during prayer meeting in the morning, we celebrated daryl ong's bd and my mom got the cake for me. i love my mom! not because she got the cake but because of who she is(: and the craziest part was when the guys tau pok daryl! whalao! and he made a really funny sound and althea told us it sounds wrong. HAHA. poor him. his face even got smash by the cake. i bet if there were girls there, they ll run forward to protect him. not that im not a girl, but im diff. hahaha! and i just heard girls talking about him in the toilet ytd. tsk. so sinful. and everyone in the prayer group calls me peggy now all thanks to althea and daryl ooi. i think im quitting school soon. hahaha. its so sad the j2s are having study break next week. althea wont be playing the guitar): huishi is even more sad.. i feel sad for her too. hahaha!

national day celeb was okay. i mean, how fun can it be. we sang along and screamed along. lalala. i still prefer where i belong and home. hahaha. red red red. everywhere, people were wearing red. we went to e hub to eat after that as a class. i really pity bryan because our class guys are so not happening. haii. went to church after that to study and for cafe. everything was good but i was reallllly tired....... and i have not completed my study ruleD:D:D: im so glad this week is over. i have not been sleeping well, kept thinking of my tutorials and tests and everything. test and test and next week i have history test. arab israeli conflict. i read and read the notes but just cant get it into my brain): im really terrified. promos is in 4 weeks time. help me....

i was just talking to zhilin just now and sharing some things from our hearts. im really thankful that God placed me in tpjc and met many nice people and great friends. i would not have survive in other jcs i guess. i read jiamin's blog and she put a picture of cheryl, huishi, me and her and wrote: people that are making a difference in my life. so sweeet!!! though sometimes we can be too straightforward and direct, we are just real to one another and that makes a genuine friendship. and for the school prayer group, my class and even for mr ng, i really thank God for them(: but more than that, thank You, Jesus, for letting me know You.

Beautiful...

All I once held dear, built my life upon,
All this world reveres and wars to own;
All I once thought gain I have counted loss,
Spent and worthless now compared to this.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best,
You're my joy, my righteousness,
And I love You Lord.

Now my heart's desire is to know You more,
To be found in You and know as Yours,
To possess by faith what I could not earn
All surpassing gift of righteousness

Oh to know the power of Your risen life,
And to know You in Your sufferings;
To become like You in Your death, my Lord,
So with You to live and never die.

AHH how i wish i am at fop now. im stuck at home doing homeworks. i have 6 econs essays to complete and history essay outline and china studies essay and commentary plus studying for maths differentiation test on tues! give me a break!!! however, im not feeling stress at all. i kept thinking about fop and listening to the whole album of this is our God. all the songs are so nice nice! from the 1st song to track 16:D today is the last night of fop, it ll definitely end with a blast! oh welll.. i shall enjoy studying at home): pooor me.

Did cafe in church today because there was the cozycot shopping and i saw my dad's friend there! i made latte for them(: haha. i want holiday to come faster!!! FASTER!!!

There is Love
That came for us
Humbled to
A sinners cross
You broke my shame and sinfulness
You rose again victorious

Faithfulness
None can deny
Through the storm
And through the fire
There is truth that sets me free
Jesus Christ who lives in me

You are stronger
You are stronger
Sin is broken
You have saved me
It is written
Christ is risen
Jesus You are Lord of all

No beginning
And no end
You’re my hope and my defence
You came to seek and save the lost
You paid it all upon the cross

Let Your Name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher
Be lifted higher

Living rain
Pour again
Over my life over my land
Living rain
Wash my heart again

this song is so nice nice!!!:D i totally enjoyed FOP these 2 days and really hope i can go again tomorrow. BUT there's school on monday): sadded. im really blessed through these 2 services. i love the praise and worship! Parachute band and Reuben morgan and team were awesome awesome awesome! They brought down the presence of God. Pastor Mark Conner is powerful man! i was really impacted by his sermons especially today's. the way he preached somehow reminds me of pastor joakim! haha. he loves using analogy. I love his preachings. its so applicable to our spiritual lives. i want to mature in Christ! Maturity does not come with age but it comes with the acceptance of responsibility. i've learnt so so much today! i didnt regret going for FOP today!!! im really glad i went!!! REALLY REALLY. though my parents are unhappy and alot of hw are undone. im really happy because i've received so much from FOP!

Before FOP, d5 had cg and it was great. Faith without work is dead. faith + work = BREAKTHROUGH! i see God working in our cg. more souls will be added! lets have faith and work towards it!:D Met fungus and went to queensway for high tea with dominic, lynette, fifi and a few of zone d ppl. we had great fellowship and had much fun! haha. the siew mai thing is funny. its comical to see how everyone is reacting when they are really really full. fungus and me were late so we didnt eat as much as them(: hahaha! i was really late after the outing and was hesitating whether i should go fop cos none of them there were going too. in fact, they were going dom's house.But i just felt so strongly that God is telling me to go for fop and thank God i obeyed(: i hate the going hme part though. but we still enjoy ourselves! the taxi uncle is nice. thank You Lord for everything today!:D

its time to go back to study rule ):

Come back
Back to your first love
Back to the cross

"Hi! Welcome to FOP! This way please!"

Today is an exciting day! Firstly, i reached school at around 620 in the morning and there were very few people! maybe only jasmine was there before me. hahaha. i went so early because i wanted to do my gp compre. its a long story how i lost the worksheet and couldnt do the previous night. sian! national day is coming so our school plays the national day song after 7am everyday-.- it is IRRITATING okay! Why? because its the time our prayer group always have worship and the speaker in the classroom will blast 'shine for singapore lalalalala' oh my gosh. its so much louder than us. so today, some of them tried climbing up to the speaker and use althea's jacket to cover. . they were so spastic! hahaha. they seem to have fun climbing up and kept laughing. in the end, daryl ooi went to the go to ask them to lower the volume. HAHAHA. super funny morning. thank God joash didnt come in when we were singing He is Lord cos that song is really high and i can imagine how he's going to sing. glorified is real low. i was just thinking about the prayer group and i think its really part of God's wonderful plan. we might come from diff classes, diff churches and diff spiritual levels but yet, we are bonded closely with Christ. i think its really nice(:

School is great except i was worrying about finishing my gp compre and AQ. huishi's voice is high-pitched today. hahaha. and during chinese lesson, we were singing jay chou's song. then i sang "就是开不了口让他知道..." huishi became emo! hahaha. i explained to her what the song means and she said it fits perfectly into her feelings. HAHA. exaggerating. then we walked out of class and saw her eye candy, then we sang "就是开不了口让他知道..." its super funny that i couldnt explain it. the song was stuck in my mind for a long time until i went back home.

FOP was EXCITING and it was fantastic:D especially when so many hoGc people are ushering together these 3 days. it was quite a challenge for me since its the FIRST time im ushering and its in the indoor stadium with 12000 people. however, i felt that the whole event was successful. though i met some unreasonable people(maybe not unreasonable but just rude), i still enjoyed ushering and smiling to the people. some were nice and responded, others just totally ignored you. one day, hoGc is going grow to as big as the indoor stadium. then we ll need maybe 200 ushers. hahaha. exciting! Pastor How is just so powerful and impactful. He is my pastor and i love him! Charleston is amazing! He's only 21 yrs old and leading 12000 people in prayer. He's my role model. The order of service was just like ours on weekends.it feels like home(: and we had parachute band! our church is just so close to them! those who missed friday's fop miss the best part of fop man! haha. ok lah. but tmr might be better. i want to go fop! but study rule...): i love all the songs we sang especially salvation is here! it was one of my fav songs but its been a long time since i listened to it! Saviour King too..

reached home at 1 plus cos we went for supper. and there was no more buses left ): so benedict and me took cab home. i had fun today but most of all, i was touched by the presence of God. i treasure every moment in His presence(:

Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for Your Son's holy name
And with the heavens we declare
You are our king

We love You Lord, we worship You
You are our God, You alone are good
You asked Your Son to carry this
The heavy cross our weight of sin

I love You Lord, I worship You
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior King

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is the love
Poured out for all
This is our God

Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Servant and King
Rescued the world
This is our God

I will fall at Your feet

i'm not supposed to be online now!!! study rule starts at 10pm!!! ):

sth that happened to me):

YTD night, i was supposed to finish my maclaurin's tutorial. At around 11, i started doing the first qns and halfway through the question, i went to lie on my bed for awhile thinking that i'll wake up after 10mins to study again. But the next thing i know, its THIS morning!!! my mom woke me up and my light was ON! i did not use a pillow! thats pretty amazing okay. i used only half the bed and i did not turn on aircon. my table was in a mess. i could never sleep in this mess okay! and my phone was charging in my bro's room! which means if my mom did not wake me up, there's no alarm to wake me up! ohmygosh. thank God my dad works morning shift. its scary. its the first time this happened to me. it shall be the last time!D:

School is fun today:D
many laughters.

i want to study!BYE.

what an exciting weekend i have(:

there were 2 guest speakers that came, pastor eddie king and pastor troy marshall. they are all great men of God. i really received much from them. service was just packed these 2 days. i saw many new faces(: thats a good sign yeah. its the time for harvest! we have startes the spiritual adoption of our family members and God is really moving. many parents came back for service this weekend. amazing! one day, my brother will come to church too. i see him worshipping God beside me and somehow i just have this picture of him playing drums in the worship team. it must be a vision from God. its going to happen. keep praying for him!!!

STUDY RULE. somehow, im beginning to like this study rule thing. many people were chased back home ytd because they failed to complete it):):): this study rule thing really show how well we live our life. seriously, its all about planning and being organised. more than just about the no. of hours, im going to study efficiently. my prayers to God are to expand my capacity and to increase my efficiency. from now onwards, i'm going to sleep by 12 every night and wake up at 5 to study. IM GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN MAN. nothing is impossible. its hard but with God by my side, its easy(: i only have 4 and half days to study this week because of FOP and my weekend only starts now! haha. so yeah. expand! i must study cos i want to go for FOP!!!!!! i cant afford to miss any service.

FOP is gonna be exciting. Pastors are in charge of Friday night and they are heading the whole night! Charleston is going to lead in prayers!!! infront of 12000 people in the indoor stadium! Heart of God church is going to be the prototype church. Parachute band will be with us too! yay! im really looking forward to it!:D OH and im ushering on friday night! HOHO. that will be my FIRST usher duty and its during FOP!!! exciting man!i need to buy black shoes on wed! black shirt and pants settled! and zhilin's smelly shoes is at my houseD:

You've showed me life
You've opened my eyes
So i give You my praise
I give You my all

You've showed me life
You've opened my eyes
To the truth that there's no greater love

Now in the darkness God's light shines
Christ forever glorified
So come on come on sing out to God
Now with all we've got
We live for You our God













Venus is so cute!(:

its friday! and almost 5-6 weeks to promos):): D:D: i fear econs the most because i seriously cant do case study! arghh. i shall conquer it man. its possible(:

i almost died today when a smoker walked past me and exhale smoke from his mouth. unknowingly, i breathed in the disgusting smoke thru my nose and took a huge puff of the cigarette smell into my lungs!!! OMGOSH. i felt terrible after that and kept coughing. it was horrrrrrible! i usually control myself and stop breathing when i walked past smokers. but this time, i was too busy talking to notice it): i dontwant to die so early lah. i hate smokers especially young smokers who love to smoke in public places. uncivilized people. if you want to smoke, go somewhere ulu where noone will be there to suffer for your sake.they really shorten innocent lives.

today is a gloomy and cloudy day. the day started with sth really funny. we had prayer group in the morning and daryl and me led worship. he was quite nervous in the beginning but i think he did well after a while(: wha man, he's not only handsome but also talented and NICE. he's super duper nice can! i dont think i've seen such a nice guy before in my whole life. and im not the only one who says that. haha. okay. so the funniest part was when joash came and sang. we sang through it all and the key was high. he was standing behind me and he's such a joker man. he sang low at first, then sang high again, then low then high. and his high notes are really high!!! i think he sang higher pitch than me!!! serious!!!!!! it sounded like some opera okay. halfway through the song, i really wanted to laugh and could not control but i tried to focus on worship. at the end of the whole session, we started to laugh. its just hilarious lah. hahaha. school day was okay. we were high and noisy during chinese lesson. i dont dislike jc life afterall(: in fact, it can be rather exciting.

after sch, i went to meet moo for lunch and went to church to study. wasnt productive for me. there were too many things on my mind. FOCUS PEIJUN! omygosh. im terrible. then went for prayer meeting and it was powerful! we just prayed and worshipped for 1 hr. i wish i can worship longer. i did cafe with gavin after that and some of d5 and d50 people were studying near the cafe area. i love all of them so much!:D and we are meeting 10am at singpost mac tmr to study! i've got to complete my study rule. i guess i need to have more discipline. Lord, i pray that You will begin to expand my capacity. i dontwant to feel tired and lethargic anymore.

i'll sing to You Lord
a hymn of love
for Your faithfulness to me
i'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
through it all

PAE 08a01!!!:D

"poor teacher mr ng" HAHA.

church:D

School road run.
Today has been a long but great day(:

the day started when huishi morning called me at 545. i was supposed to meet her at 6 and had set alarm at 5! however, im too tired and had slept real late ytd. thus, i did not manage to be on time. huishi and me reached inter mac at around 650 and jiamin cheryl joanne and jasmine were alr there. on the way to inter, i was just thinking of how many times i have been late for sch's prayer meet and when meeting my friends. how could i always be on time or early for church events but late outside of church. thats not hoGc culture. in fact, our culture is to be 15 mins earlier. i shall start to be early from now onwards. its hard to wake up early but i shall not be led by my emotions but by the Spirit. its always better to be early. that trains my patience too(:

we proceeded to east coast park after breakfast and bus 31 was totally packed. thank God we found seats after simei ite. at around 730, it started to rain heavily! jiamin then called mr ng and asked what should we do since we have to walk quite a long distance from the bus stop before we can reach ecp. at first, he told us to go further a few more stops to parkway cos the hawker was filled with tpjc kids. but in the end, he said that we still have to go for road run-.- surprisingly, by the time we reach the bus stop, the rain starts getting smaller. we reached the hawker and it started to rain heavily again and the hawker was indeed filled with tpjcians.

finally at 930, though it was still raining, they decided to continue their plan. they had the competitive run and some of us just stayed in the tent throughout(: the guys were really really fast man. i bet some of them ran 3km for less than 15 mins. huishi cheryl and me went toilet during their race and when we came back, some of them alr ended their 3km race! its insane lah. we were taking lots of pictures in the tent. everyone was standing outside and the tent was supposed to be for teachers but only our class people stayed in it. haha. real slackers. and bryan embarrassed me just now. he's super irritating man! i told huishi i should quit school now. haha. he made it so obvious. now the whole world knows, thanks to him. but well, ec will always remains as ec.come on, im not even serious about it lah.its all for fun and laughter(: that makes jc life exciting and not dull.

the funniest part of the whole event was during the mass RUN. all the j2s and j1s came together and run 3km. its so funny. the whole image of everyone carrying their bags, talking to friends and strolling is just hilarious. there were some who really ran, but almost 90% of the people walk throughout. no, we didnt even walk throughout. many walked to the bedok jetty and stayed there for awhile, take pictures and enjoy the breeze, then turned back to the finishing point. almost no one takes it seriously lah. and couples were walking together like they are on a date. whalao. disgusting. some even hold hands!tsk. our class was the slowest in the beginning cos we stopped and took pictures. mr ng walked with us lah! he rocks lah. hahaha! he is always so full of nonsense. so after the jetty, we turned back to the finishing line. its quite dumb. and we did not even bother to stay till the whole event ended because mr ng did not stop us from going off earlier! hahaha.

some of us, (cheyl, jiamin, huishi, eeteng, joanne, visa, bryan and me) went to popeye's at airport for lunch after that. we stayed there for almost 2 hrs, eating and talking. then we talked about pae days and heidi. everyone still remembers her. hahahaHA! there were much laughters and jiamin can really eat a lot man. so scary! haha.

i went hme and slept for 2 hrs without realising it until i woke up. hai. i hate this kind of feeling. i used to not take afternoon nap until sec 4's O level period when i was really tired everyday. i shall start studying now or i ll never complete my study rule. i believe i can do well in my studies while serving God and being commited to the things i do in church. all things are possible with Him!:D

2 Timothy 1:12
For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day.

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

thank You Lord:D

YAY im using zhenghui's laptop and blogging in singpost mac! had cg just now and it was great!!! there was bmt a too in the audi. so cool!!! and nicholas and i wanted to blk 85 eat bachor mee but he had photog duty for bmt a): so we ended up eating kfc. im with zh, yiwen and jingfen!!! and tmr has no lesson because its road run!!! HURRAYYY:D:D:D

zh: she is very happy cos im here(:

yiwen: peijun forced us to type here but we still love her anyway(:
peijun: yiwen smells "nice" after her basketbahh training!:D

jingfen: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. yiwen said dont say she smells no nice.

zhenghui: mac is closing!!! go home go home!!!

:D

"i sing a love to song to You Lord"

My weekend only starts NOW. and ends 2 hrs later): i've got so many things to say! but i ll keep it short and sweet cos i have to make full use of these 2 hrs!!! thats all i have now. hahaha. and i have to complete eom, chinese compo-.-, gp essay outline, chinese studies tutorial, econs essay. all by tues and i have to stay back in school to finish up wr tmr. im not grumbling or anything. despite all these, i feel really happy and blessed. i know the joy of the Lord is my strength:D this weekend has being fantastic!!! 91 parents came today!!! and we definitely played better today compared to ytd's. the whole audi was totally packed today, packed with parents of the youths(: hahaha. one day, all of them are going to be planted in this church and worship God together with us. i love heart of God church, i love my pastors and i love all the people in this church. its really a great difference between the youths from our church and youths outside the world. heart of God church people are fun, humourous, happening yet at the same time, we are spiritual and are serious about God, following after His heart. do you know its hard to be a hoGc youth! HAHA. we are both serving fervently in church and coping well in studies. more than that, we are a generation of people who love our families and will initiate to date our parents out. where can you ever find such youths.. only in hoGc(: yes i love hoGc subjectively. haha.
where can i go from Your presence
under Your wings i take refuge
Your Spirit lives within my heart
i know we'll never be apart









































































in the artiste room doing my hair. haha!

AE OPEN HOUSE WEEKEND:D

I had parent teacher meeting session in school this morning and my mom and i were late! my dad didnt go cos he went to get mc-.- when we reached there, we still had to wait for like almost 30mins. we should come even later so i could have slept more lah. haha. but anyway, yeah, im such a nice girl so of cos there's nothing bad to say about me. just that i tend to talk too much and have short attention span in class. the best part was when we went to see gp teacher mrs goh. my mom told her i have too much commitments in church. then mrs goh shared with her alot of things and then she winked at me when my mom was not looking. HAHA. she rocks lah. i forgotten what she shared but its all good spiritual stuffs. i dont know if my mom was impacted though. oh my mom saw my eye candy! and she said not handsome. hahaha. but anyway eye candy is not a christian. and being a christian is not even one of the criterias i look for in my future husband. more than just being a christian, he must be a Godly man who follows after His heart. i know i dont have to worry about this cos God has a great plan for me ahead and i trust in Him(:

rushed down to church after breakfast with parents. we prac and rehearsed. this is perhaps the first time i went on stage without putting on contacts. i was just too lazy to put it into my eyes and i dont like the uncomfortable feeling. everything was just so rush. but the great thing was that my mom came! she sat through the service and stayed for refreshment after that. i was helping out with cafe so she waited for me. i really think the adults in our church are awesome. they can make all the parents feel so comfortable. and the deco and cafe just make everything feels like world-class. it was fantastic! im sure all the parents love it. and the best part is that everything in our church, from the usher to the lights to the projection to the cafe to the recep to the worship team to the CO are all run by youths(: i love heart of God church. i want my family to experience His love and presence in this church too.

im so so so tired. eom is driving me mad. and i still have lots of homeworks chasing behind me. how i wish i have 30 hrs a day. WHYWHYWHY. but i know my life is more than just about studying though it is impt cos its AE now. haha. study is a mundane thing. but i study not for myself but to glorify God. i want to reach my fullest potential because He gives me a brain for a reason. haha. studying is going to be easy because i have God with me and im conquer all things. i want to be a testimony to Him that i can be commited in serving church and yet can score well in my exams. its gonna be easy if i rely on His strength.

You'll never let me go

i love every moment of my life(:

who says jc life is boring! i dont agree to that(: jc life can be fun except the studying part. haha.

i gotta blog about this funny incident that happened today! after maths tutorial, some of the guys were just talking about girls. and they said there are lots of pretty girls in vj-.- mr ng then told them that our class girls also pretty what. then there were silence among the guys. whalao. i mean what can we expect from them lah. kim suddenly said "jiamin??????" HAHAHA. jiamin said that he said it doubtfully!!! HHAHA. whalao so mean lah. and the way he pronounced jiamin is really funny cos he's from korea. hahaha. so bad. how i wish i have never known the guys in my class):

and ytd we had hist tutorial in lt4. we wanted to play a prank on mr gay by switching off all the lights in the lt. it was really really dark in the lt if there were no lights. you almost cant see anything. the guys played a prank on us last week too. we were standing at the doorsteps, couldnt find the switch and were screaming lah. so dumb. haha. then when the light turned on, the guys were sitting at their seats laughing at us-.- so we tried to do the same thing too. but in the end, mr lim came in. he didnt know we were in the lt and when he switched on the lights, he saw us sitting at our seats. haha. and he tried to act cool.

okay i gotta study. i need to complete 15 hrs of study rulesD: this week has been really really packed. CO practices, full rehearsal, cg, church builder's service and with so many many tutorials to be done by this week. EOM!!! thats the worst thing ever. i dontknow how to start and i have to hand in the first draft next week. AE weekend! im performing and it ll definitely be a busy weekend. i doubt i have time to study): but i know His grace is sufficient for me.
thank You Lord(:

You said, Ask and you will receive
Whatever you need
You said, Pray and I'll hear from heaven
And I'll heal your land

You said Your glory will fill the earth
Like water the sea
You said, Lift up your eyes
The harvest is here, the kingdom is near

Tutorials and more assignments are piling up): School is unkind to me. I pray i ll able to take it and cope with them(:

PE on two consecutive daysD: HAI. but we played touch rugby today and its quite fun except that the pe teacher is quite irritating. he scolded us for wearing fbt shorts! but at least i've completed my 2.4 run! tmr is gonna to be tough training for 5 items): HAI. okok. i shall stop HAI-ing(: Yay, everyday's a good day(when im walking with You, walking with You) hehh. Rushed to church after school for CO prac. and huishi misplaced her shoebag and onli realised it when we were at the bus stop! HAYO. Church is great. i love being in the house of God(: Today co was fun cos we sang out the ye lai xiang-.- hahaha. i hate this song now. hahah. but im not playing it for myself. spirit of excellence! play it well! Had cafe after co and we did clean up! I met zhenghui for dinner after that and we just had endless conversations. We even stood at the steps of the mrt station and talked before my train came-.- and it was so funny. elgin and matthaeus were at the station too and they said they waited for bus 24 for 48 mins!!! Thats almost 1 hr!!! Then when they were walking to take mrt, the bus came-.- haha. this reminds me that i hate waiting for bus!!! especially bus 29!!! though its only a few stops from my hse to sch, waitin for the bus alone takes up much time!! RAAH. OH! i met jiajuin at tamp just now. its like donkey years since i last saw him and he still hasnt changed. hahaha. i asked him his age. opps! i forgotten he's one year older. and he gave me that -.- face. haha.

im back home and i though i was home late. But my parents were not even at home. they called and told me they were out eating and enjoying life. haiyo! leaving their cute poor daughter at home. but thank God for computer. okay. well. i shall go and complete my study rule! COME ON PEIJUN. you can do it(:

Who am i that You would know me from the start, set me apart
Who am i that You would place eternity into my heart
You have given to me more than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life i lay at Your altar
One love i have with You
One word You know i will follow
One heart broken to You

Your mercies follow me for all my days

I am really a blessed girl. I love my parents! They are so supportive of me that my mom asked my dad to take mc on the day of AE to just come to church and see my performance. devil is so irritating! I ll keep praying for miracles to happen that my dad doesnt have to take mc but does not have to work that day(:

Today discipleship class is just great great great! Ivan really shared from his heart about logical and practical stuffs. He must have really much faith in us for him to share them because its something not all christians will understand. I shall not talk about it for it might stumble some of the people who may misinterpret it. And thats a sin! But i get what ivan is trying to say and im sure everyone in the class gets it. Those were some of the questions i've asked myself too and i definitely learn something from him today(: Build to last and placing eternity in my heart. And i was just thinking of something he said. The simplest thing to do is also the hardest thing to do. Its just like asking someone to believe. All you have to do is just stand still and believe but yet, its just so hard to believe. Asking someone who never never pass maths in his whole life before to believe he will be a mathematician in future is hard! Thats a lame example but you know where im getting at. Asking someone to believe in a God they have never seen before is hard. Someone once asked me, why do people have faith. Well, im not God and only God knows(: haha. Simplicity is good. I pray for a simple and pure heart, a heart that follows hard after Him.
Ecclesiastes 12:13
Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter:
Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.
this sums up everything(:

I'm worried for my brother. He seems okay and he told me he had patched up with his girlfriend. But somehow, i dont think things are so simple as that. Sometimes, i wish they will break up and at his lowest point of life, thats when i can introduce Jesus to him. For now, i'll just keep praying.
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.

I live for You
All of my days belong to You
You draw me to
Your tenderness, You make me new
Into the secret place I will run
Where my heart can be free in the
Grace that I found in You

Unto You
Be all Glory and Praise
How my heart seeks Your Face
As I’m waiting on You

Only You
Are my strength and my tower
Fill my life with Your Power
As I stand here in awe of You
I stand here in awe of You

Peijun is sooo tired but is still loving her life!

Today seems to be a long but fun day. School was the same. Exciting yet exhausting. I have to admit that i have short attention span. Its so hard to not talk for 10mins. HAHAHA. These two days, we were just talking about the PAE days. It was so funny how those days seem to pass so fast and now we're stuck in this horrible JC life. And huishi was talking about how and when cheryl started joining us and jiamin and how we started to be close. It was so funny listening to them talking about their first impression of one another. Huishi said its fate how we get to know each other but i think its God's plan(:

After sch, i went to TP to meet moo, weiyin, jieru and serena. It was so weird going in there with my tpjc uniform. Everyone was just staring at me! hahaha. Tried the mango ice in the student development center and find it okay. Moo lau sai after that. hahah. Went to tampines and walked around. Moo and me decided to go back prss to collect our o's cert. So i called QQ along too. We saw mdm yue and found miss ang!!!:D HAHA. They are still the same and i miss them! I miss those times when 4e6 will always joke in class and do silly things. Miss ang is still the same. The way she talkes and everything. And she agreed to come for AE!!!:D Then, we decided that we cannot leave this school without doing anything so we passed AE card to miss fang and also invited mdm yue for AE!!! We named all the people who are in our church and who are performing. Mdm yue was like, wow. So many of her students. How can she reject us! hahaha. They casually agreed to go. I hope they're able to make it(: We couldnt find mr tan though! Haha. We also called choon kai and asked if he was in school. He was in church and we told him that we were there to find them! hahaha.

Went to mac to eat ice cream and took loads of pictures there because nicholas joined us!!! HAHA. We were spastic. Then, followed qian to specs shop to look for specs. We didnt buy usher dressing today. i shall observe what they wear tmr(:

im supposed to do econs quiz but my bro wants to use the com. OH MAN.

You're my Hero!:D

Went out with zhenghui today in library, simei BK and then tamp interchange mac. Haha. We just cant stay at one place for long. It was not productive cos we talked alot): But had a great time with her cos we can just talk about anything under the sun. We shared about our schools, friends and everything. And so we found out something really interesting! God must be hinting us something. Haha. I cant remember what we did but i know we went alot of places. We are just so excited about everything and we planned our lives according to church schedule. FOP is coming!:D

School starts tomorrow. I dont hate school but one thing i hate is napfa test. I have not been practising since june holi started but I'll just leave it to God. Structured remedial starts this week! It must be the most sian thing that can ever happen. Oh wellllll... Thats how JC life is. But i definitely lead a more exciting life! We're going to TP on friday and moo wants to watch movie and buy black blouse and shoes after that. I cant wait for friday to come. AE weekend! Its gonna be awesome. I'll just slack for one more week because i know after AE, i will never think of slacking anymore. Haha.



I happen to come across this nice song, a pure heart yesterday as i was looking for other songs. Then i went back to my room and packed my file. I saw a old lyrics which has the songs we sang during a school prayer meet long ago during feb i think. And they had this song, a pure heart written on it! AMAZING.

A pure heart
Thats all i long for
A heart that follows hard
After You

A heart that hides Your Word
So that sin will not come in
A heart that's undivided
And one You rule and reign
A heart that beats compassion
That pleases You my Lord
A sweet aroma of worship
That rises to Your throne

Today was a great day(: Firstly we went to jieru house for cg outing. Haha its funny cos our cg is now a single sex cg and we're all girls!!! Girls power!:D haha. No more guys means no more tau pok-ing no more nonsense no more pictures!!! cos nicholas is not here anymore!!! HAHA. But still, i love our cg(: we're a bunch of fun and SWEET ppl. heh. So we watched princess diary, prince of egypt and then tuesday with morries. Princess diary is still nice although i have watched it like trillion of tmes. Haha. It makes me daydream): Its so romantic.

I managed to learn heart of worship on the guitar! The chords are quite easy but i played weirdly cos its my first time touching guitar since 2006 sow! I so want to play for God!!!

After the outing, i went to meet my parents and aunty for dinner. Its been a long time since we last had dinner with aunty. She loves my brother and i alot and always buy food and many things for us even when we did not ask for it. Now that she's old and both my brother and i have grown up, we hardly go out with her for dinner. I heard from my mom that she's facing many problems with her husband and all those. While waiting for food just now, i can feel the Holy Spirit telling me to start praying for her. pray for her. This hits me hard because all along, i pray for the people that are visible to me but i've forgotten about the people who used to be so close to me. I donwant to have any regret in the future.

I heard a story just the other day, about a Man who gave His life away for me. Complicated yet it seems so clear. If i open up my heart, You'll be so near to me. I believe in You.

Its sunday! Time passes so fast): Thats why i should not slack anymore. Before i know it, it will be my promos! oh man! School last week was okay. i still have not felt the stress yet and this really bad! we got back most of our results and i did not fail gp!!! Also! My maths from previous result E jumped to A!!! HOHO. Now, Mr ng will not complain about me to my parents anymore and will not pick on me anymore. I'm not really surprised actually because i find the paper really manageable. But then again, i have to admit i did not study really hard for the paper as june holi was really packed and i was sick during the last week! I can only say that all glory is to God alone. I'm really amaze at how God works. He is always so faithful. Always so faithful. He showed me that if only i will put in more effort in my studies, i will do well. i shall and i will glorify Him with my results!:D i'm a conqueror!

It has been training, ministry and bible study since ytd. Friday i had cafe, then CO, then OPS general meeting. Saturday i had GS bible study, churchwide prayer meet, service, discipleship class. Sunday im having cafe training and then cg outing. It has been training, ministry outings and school. During discipleship class just now, Dominic shared with us something that really inspires us. Something that teaches me how going through the mundane things can actually build up our character and the substance in us. We always do the same things and keep doing it again and again but its really through all these that we build our character that we start to grow more and be faithful, faithful to the little things. He shared with us about his feeling for people work too and i was impacted by it. People work brings greatest joy but also great sorrow. Its really discouraging when you love and have sown so much into one's life and at the end found out that he backstabbed you and then backslidded. But we do all the things we do not for ourselves but for God and His people. Christianity is all about loving God and loving people. I want to love people. I have so many things to say but i'm so lazy to type it out.(: haha. we sang hosanna today! i was amazed cos i sang it with jasmine in school on tues and its the song for me this season(: a near revival...

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You
You've loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everytime i am for Your kingdom's cause
As i walk from earth into eternity

Monday is a blue day): School is never exciting. But i ll conquer these 2 years! All things are possible through Him. Thank God! Oh, i took back my econs paper todayD: i shall not reveal the results but its quite badly done. To put it nicely, i did not study hard enough but i didnt fail!(: i'm just comforting myself. Huishi got 80! She's crazy!

Hudson Taylor, an amazing man of God. He was a missionary in China!!!!! CHINA! His story inspires me! Our God is great!

- The society that he began was responsible for bringing over 800 missionaries to the country who began 125 schools and directly resulted in 18,000 Christian conversions, as well as the establishment of more than 300 stations of work with more than 500 local helpers in all eighteen provinces.

- Historian Ruth Tucker summarizes the theme of his life:
“No other missionary in the nineteen centuries since the Apostle Paul has had a wider vision and has carried out a more systematized plan of evangelizing a broad geographical area than Hudson Taylor."

- In a letter to his sister Amelia Hudson Taylor he wrote in February 14, 1860,
"If I had a thousand pounds China should have it- if I had a thousand lives, China should have them. No! Not China, but Christ. Can we do too much for Him? Can we do enough for such a precious Saviour?"

Wonderful D5(: 2007

Grand opening in singpost!



During Zone D camp! We were taking pic for my testimony!

D5 worship after O's!

This is the cute pic which we took out our phone. haha!

Christmas eve '07:D


Vision weekend!

Nicholas with his camera!!! This was 2007's picture. haha.


Emo cg): Randyne spoilt the pic!

ANGZHILIN. This picture was taken during Christmas 2006. oh my GOSH. Haha. My eyes were bigger then): But anyway, we are in diff CG now. OK i'm sad but i know you're even more sad(: Haha! I'll miss those times when we ll just share with each other so many things and talk about our integrations. Remember dream team! I remember we used to have big dreams doing great things for God in future and we even wrote them down. haha! Now, we are to work in different teams. But we're still in the same ceg and we will still see each other in cafe and CO! Lets GROW GROW GROW!:D Our dreams and visions will come to pass(:

Carlo blahblahblah Qianda! QQ's brother! Haha. You're in d3 now but we're still part of the pasir ris sec revival! We will miss you! keep conquering new grounds!!!:D

Valerie Cheong! The amazing girl who started the PRSS revival and brought me to church. We're now in the same team and we're going to work together! Also in CO! you said its really God's plan that we've met in sec one and its really true. Haha. Lets run this race together!:D

/edit: i'm forced to add links to my blog because nicholas was forcing me too. HAHA. So he helped me by copying all his links for me. Thanks! But taggyboard. maybe soon!(: HEHH

The word REVIVAL is forever etched in my heart.