let the pictures do the talking:

hello everyone! im back to blogging again! this holiday has just been awesome despite the business. so many things happen within these two months and i am just so blessed throughout these holiday. 2008 has been great. stepping into new schools, getting to know new people, conquering promos and just growing and growing. it has definitely be an awesome year and also for hoGc:D i know 2009 is gonna be even better. but somehow, im not really looking forward to it:( but with God, i shall conquer it. yes man! school is reopening..i have mixed feelings about it. on one hand, i know there's much stress coming and i hate studying like seriously.also, im beginning to imagine the torturous pe lessons we're gonna have. jc life isnt nice. on the other hand, im excited! like what jm said in her blog, i really miss hanging out with you girls! haha. and i miss talking nonsense with huishi and eating alot alot with her. i miss those funs we had. and the thing im looking most forward to is the harvest in school. school is really the best place u can reach out t more people! the harvest is plentiful! more people are gonna join jasmine and me! jessica is gonna grow to another level! im excited!

i just came back from bintan trip with my family and dad's friends and some relatives. and guess what, im having a diarrheoa now :S must be the dirty food there. everyone is just asking about my trip. so here is my post on my trip...... :( whao. my bro and i were really disapponinted on the first days when we found out we were going to stay at kelong. we thought it was a resort. rah. so throughout the 3 days. my bro and i kept complaning and whining. i almost died there. we lived on water for 3 days and the toilet is disgusting to the max. super... i shall not elaborate on it. but well.. its nice to get away from the busy urban life and see the nature. the scenery is nice there:) and the people are really nice. somehow, my heart goes out to them.. i dontknow how they can stand living this kind of life. the worst was at the villages and everything.its super... yucky. i really see sth we can never see in singapore. many thoughts ran through my mind throughout the trip. i think God really puts me in this trip for a reason. im glad to say that i survived! LOL. amazing. dogs and cats everywhere. mosquitos, lizards and even rats can be seen okay. im not joking. the last night, i was sleeping with my mom in the room and a bee just flew in. we covered ourself with blankets:S felt so dumb.even my mom was afraid. haha. in the end, my dad was the hero and rescued us. he killed the bee!:D haha. but i coudlnt sleep the whole night. kept thinking there were more bees or rats in my room! HAHA. but i survived!:D when i toldd people my story or rather my adventure in bintan, everyone was just laughing at me. zhilin was saying i go there for war, not holiday. sounds quite true. haha. but my bro is one irritating person. he talked AT me for 1 and half hr on the ferry to bintan. non stop! and so i couldnt sleep. and he kept making fun of people and im amused by all the jokes he made. felt so bad now:( i shall say i bond with my bro alot during this trip. he kept using the word "bond". i know he sees my blog but well.. he is really anooying sometimes. but funny. haha. i shall end talking about my trip. my stomach still hurts... D: and i will never go bintan again. first and last time! but i thank God for this trip. got some insights.

today had new gens meeting and went to watch twilight with joey,val,dom,ryan yap and a few zone f people. i didnt realy like the show. cos we sat at 2nd row-.- my neck hurts after that. and. i dont think i want a vampire for boyfriend. robot sounds better. haha. joey is such a nice guy lah. he is really sweet as a guy. always caring for people and helping others. its great he is back again:D God found him when he was lost:) christmas service was just awesome! was really glad that yishuen came back too. what he said after that really touched my heart. i guess thats what i really live for. to see lives being touched by God.

anyway, i suddenly miss so many people so much... people like althea, jm, huishi, cheryl and even zhenghui who is in kl now. i think im really blessed to have so many great friends around me!:D and the thought of j2 is pulling me down:( i haven started studying and everyone kept reminding me abuot it especially melvin goh. i told him i want to quit jc so not studying. haha. and he was saying that he will have peace next year.whalao. but still, he asked me dont quit cos cant see people go toilet anymore. whalao. i kind of miss mr ng too... hahaha. ookay. one more week. im gonna chiong everything! by faith, i will do well for my tests:D

i miss hanging out with you girls:)

Man.. i really think i lead an exciting life:D hahaha. but im just chiong-ing too much. i guess i really have to slow down sometimes and enjoy the scenery of life. haha. cool...

D5 and D50 is just a hungry ceg man. everyone is loving frogs now!!! hahaha. cool. Today was jessica's birthday and yiwen, jasmiine, qian and me went to surprise her. haha i shall not elaborate on it cos im tired to now. haha. but i really love surprises and i love to surprise ppl cos i just feel really happy seeing people surprised and touched. its a good feeling:) after that i chiong-ed down to church for CO and after CO, had a D5 ceg leaders prayer and worship session. it was great. Felt as though i lifted everything to God. Sometimes, things dont go as smoothly as we hope for and we feel weary and discouraged at times but God is just always there to catch us when we fall. i live to please my God and not people:) discouragement is the platform for strength :D when we are weak, He is strong. yay! i love my God. i cant imagine how my life would be without Him:) after the session, 11 of us went down for frog legs and jieru brought us to the place in geylang! whao! geylang -.- hahaha. the only good thing abut that place is that there're many good food! im so going to bring my parents back there for frog legs! its yummmmy!:D hahaha. we all kept wanting more. on the way on bus, we were just so noisy as usual and everyone just started to complain how high pitch my voice isD: i didnt want it that way.. God made it that way. hahaha. but i still thank God for my high pitch voice! haha. i shall use it properly so it will not sound irritating... hahaha!

Ytd was another day full of surprises! early morning, jingfen woke me up cos she was staying at my place. woah! she's really a disciplined person who wakes up on time man. while me... i just want to sleep and sleep forever. haha. we then went down to surprise jocelyn with zi xin zao chan!!! hahaha!! jocelyn is such a funny girl man.. she said us lame!!! how could you jocelyn! hahaha. but our ai xin zhao chan brighten your day yeah? hahhaa. then we met nicholas for breakfast at the round market. ate my fav wanton mee!:D after that, i went down to meet val and zh and surprise wilfrid with some stuffs to encourage hiim for his birthday:D hahaha. and after that had cafe in church. some of them just stood around cafe area and chatted with zhilin and me throughout. and they were really fascinated by cafe stuffs. and godric and choongkai want to join cafe! LOL! and godric is the funniest man. he actually went inside and tried to learn and help up. whao. confirm get in cafe alr. hahaha.

im looking forward to candy weekend!!! its gonna be great. oh its just a few hours later. haha. and next week gonna be another long week! there's AMT on tues to wed. and more surprises have yet to come! haha. well.. im tired now. its time to sleep. i hope i wont dream of frogs -.-

hahaha. a few of us are at skype now and going crazy soon. jingfen,nic,carlo and me are like talking. haha. and we saw a bug in my room just now. :( jingfen is staying over at my house:D and we are going to surprise jocelyn later:D exciting:D haha and after that breakfast with a few of them:D woohoo. they better wake up man..

anyway, today was a messy day. haha. long story and im lazy to talk about it. haha. i saw joash aka simpsons on the way to pasir ris! LOL. i immedialtely msged huishi! hahaha. and she confessed that she misses him! :x hahaha. funny woman. well, ii miss the j2s too D: i used to be quite close to some of them but things change.. haha. well well, i wonder what next yr is gonna be like :( i hope it ll be a good year. huishi is sad... :( im sad for her. haha. and i saw benny after that at pasir ris mrt! whaoo!!! my sec 1 friend! hahaha. he change alot man. he did... omgosh. i still remember how he was liked last time. haha. i miss those sec 1 days man.. hahaha.

studied at whitesand mac with qianqian, zheng, grace and siew chi. then went simei with qq to find shiyun and bought bubble tea and went qiyun's hse and bought bubble tea for her too:D haha. qiyun misses us lots lah:) hahaha.. i miss those sec 4 days.. hahaha. and we chatted awhile in her house:D hahaha.

after that, i went toa payoh to meet jingfen and supposed to find jocelyn. but it was a long story. haha in the end we ended up in tampines! and jingfen suggested coming my house to type report cos we had to send in by 1159!!! so she ended up at my hse and then decided to stay over cos its late. hahaha. and we're still awake now... tired... i dont want to type anymore. haha. NICHOLAS! I WANT PICTURES FROM STRIKE IT WEEKEND!!! YOU DID TAKE PICTURES! :)

The cross i see
Your blood redeem
My imperfections
Your hands divine
Come shape this heart of mine

i have so many things to blog about but i dontknow where to start.....

Had a great day hanging out with my cousins on sunday. haha. we always hang out together after some celebration with the adults. We ate good food at suntec and played basketball in the arcade. haha. they never fail to make me laugh lah. especially when weiwei and kaikai come together. two jokers. and the funniest thing was that both of those two guys were wearing yellow and ling and me were wearing green! -.- oh ya, we went barang barang too. haha. we have to meet up soon again man!!!:D yes, the next outing we have will be to play basketball and swim and karaoke at weiwei's house. haha. i miss my cousins now:( and the saddest thing is that we cant go bintan togetherD: RAH. the adults... hai! haha.. but i love my parents. they are the best lah!

Ytd was zone D outing! like finally!:D haha. we were supposed to swim and run at jurong east but in the end, we only swam. And many things happened lah. haha. it was funny. I was wet inside out after that. haha. and some of us stood at the hand dryer area and tried to dry ourselves inside out. haha. look super dumb and people walked past the toilet were just staring at us. haha. we're like some despo people. desparate for the dryer. Had dinner and watched beverley hills chihuahua together:D it was fun. haha. the movie makes me laugh even after it ended. haha. i think its quite a good movie. there's meaning to it unlike hsm -.- haha. the dogs are so adorable! haha. whaoo.. friendship and love story of dogs. yes, i think its a good movie! haha:) i changed my opinion about that movie after watching it. haha. so you should watch it too:) we had much laughter. on our way back at boon lay mrt, we saw vincent bai! WHAO. it must have been God's plan. haha. even on the other side of singapore, we still see him!and he actually missed the zone outing -.- TSKTSK. haha. but he met us! amazing. haha. so we travelled back together to the other side, journey to the east:) and we really made much noise on the train. reached hme at 12plus am..

Today was supposed to be a study day for me. but... i failed D:D:D: dont ask me about it. haha. but i still love today. I had lunch with my mom at cafe cartel:D and my mom took alot of breads. haha. adults are funny. arent they. haha i love my mom. she always give me the best. i told her that i ll bring her to ritz carlton for dinner when im older:) haha. yes, i will! hahaha. after that, met zhenghui and we were supposed to study. however, we ended up talking alot. haha but girl! i have much fun talking to you. we laughed alot right? haha. really miss those time when we ll just mug together and talk about many many stuffs. haha. but she had to leave to church at 4:( so i decided to be smart and go tamp lib alone. -.- i felt dumb after that becase it rained heavily. really heavily. haha. i slacked in the lib. yes, i slacked, not studied. i tried reading econs but nothing just goes into my head. i've lost the momentum to study D:D:D: all the best to me man... haha. i need to get back the momentum!!! :D can one lah. haha. yes peijun! can one! im tired now.. haha.

this week is gonna be another busy week.. but im excited! i have 3 outings tmr:D haha. awesome! all 3 are at pasir ris:D haha. and frog legs with nicholas on friday and im gonna ask more people to join us. jiamin and cheryl just called me not long ago and told me they're at airport :x haha. i forgotten that the are leaving for japan today. haha. tsktsk. what a good friend i am. but i suddenly miss schooliing.. those tiimes we had. i hope next yr will be even better. well... more stress maybe. haha

have just been reflectiing alot these 3 days. i guess there're much more things i can do and build on. its about being blameless! yes thats the word God spoke to me on sunday. i thank God for al the people around me. Really. i thank God for you. YES, YOU! :D

it was another tiring but fulfilling day:D valerie and me went down to rp to meet up with jocelyn. i totally love being with this girl! she's just someone you can easily click with. although i've only met her for 3 times, i can sense that there's a strong bond between us and thats good! we're so gonna hang out more together yeah. rp is huge! later, zhenghui and yiwen joined us too. went to church for co and had theory lesson -.- honestly, i am still very blurred by everything. i dont like theory! :x haha. but we had much fun. co is gonna grow big in the future!

after that, jasmine and i went to meet huishi at pasir ris and went for class bbq. haha. i cant help but saying that our class is so ___. i dontknow what to say. haha. but i still thank God for people like huishi, jasmine, eeteng, melvin, weeyang and a few who were there. they are nice people. but i think its the clique thing in our class that makes it so disunited. well, i guess melvin tried his best to bond the class. it all depends on us now. haha. im sure God has a reason for me to be in class and i thank God for that. and im just so happy that jasmine and i are in the same class. it just feels great to have a hoGc person in the same class as you cos we just can flow in the Spirit and at least, i have someone whom i can talk to about church and stuffs. haha. so jasmine! you better study hard and be advanced! im sure you can do it! :D and i really really thank God for huishi. its like although i've not seen her for a super long time, but when we meet, we can just talk about anything. we dont feel akward at all and i think thats what true friendship is about. there's no pretense between each other. haha. i wrote her a card for her birthday and she just sms-ed me that she felt like crying after reading it. haha! i really can make ppl cry. yay. we're not just friends in school but for life yeah. the bbq wasnt that bad i guess. i did not help out at all :x haha. i just ate and ate. well well.. i feel quite bad now. haha. poor melvin has to pay for most of the expenses. it pays to be a class chairman -.-

watched two movies twice this week. high school musical with yiwen and wildchild with val. the second one was really random. it was after discipleship class on thurs and val and me were actually going to minds cafe to meet cg but because it was alr very late, we ended up in the cinema. i have to say that wild child is so much better than hsm! haha. but yiwen enjoyed hsm! i dontknow why! haha! but soemthing amazing happned on the day we went to watch movie. we were taking bus to church and had to cross a big field and road to get over to church. but it was raining really heavily! but when we crossed the overhead bridge, the rain stopped! WHAO. and i almost wanted to get an umbrella. but by faith, we crossed the bridge. and God is always faithful right! the rain stopped and i believe its for us:) haha. so we went to church without being drenched. :D

cg on wed was really powerful. vision beyond myself. visions keep me running after them. i see myself doing great things for God in the future. and i believe that there're still so much more i can do. so much more. God has really challenged me to conquer new ground for this season. many things have just been coming in and i know that i can either stay at the level i was at or rise up to a new level and conquer new ground. i chose the second one. this holiday is definitely not the most relax one but i know that im going to breakthrough this holiday. jieru prayed for me during cg and i can just feel the power of God moving in ever area of my life, especially in the area of leadership. at that moment, everything just boom and goes up to a new level. she laid her hands on my hands and prayed that more anointing will be upon me when i pray and lay hands on people next time. God begin to show me pictures of me laying hands and praying for people. more and more people. tears just flowed down my eyes as i see that these are the lives that are going to be changed for the glory of God. im ready for God to be used. i know there will be much more responsibility that will be given to me but i shall have faith and see things in God's eyeview. its really powerful if we can all start to see things in His eyeview. try it! jieru is just so powerful and i feel so privilege that she is my leader:) when you start to see things from the perspective of your leader, you know that they're really doing alot of great things that you can never imagine. she pays attention to every life and im so inspired to do the same too. thanks jieru! i've indeed learnt alot throughout this whole period. d5 has just been growing not only in quantity but in quality too. the presence of God is always so strong during cg. thurs discipleship class was awesome too. dominic prayed for every single one of us in the class. although there was no guitar, we just kept singing and worshiping God. it was great. his sharing became a revelation to me. we are more spiritual than we think we are. its time to start relying not on my strengths but by His Spirit. this is a spiritual world we're living in! what a human can do is limited but what God can do is far beyond what we can imagine. God is good! :D

there're just so many things i can blog about but im tired of typing already. well, how beautiful it is if my life is written as a storybook. haha. i dotnknow what im typing alr because my brain is tired. TGIO is gonna be fun:D

ohoh, and zhenghui said i have one more habit regarding the previous entry, she said that i "eee" at everything. haha! oh no :( sounds bad... haha.

the God i know righteous and Holy
the God i know faithful and true
the God i know my tower of refuge
hearts are healed, Christ revealed
the God i know light of the city
the God i know strengthens the weak
the God i know, Your heart beats within me
as You are, so are we.

this is my cry
my one desire
more of You, more of You

haiya. im here because of the quiz thingy that hongrui, carlo and valerie have tagged me to do-.- i must be quite bored. im so stuck with GP now!:( and the thought of going to J2 just frightens me:( i dontknow why but the thought just came to me all of a sudden. AHHH!!! thanks to the reading logs homeworks. im so stress by it now, i dont know why. i cant seem to force any word out. but i shall conquer "you" man! "you" are so dead!RAH! thanks for friends who will still be there to jiayou together!:D at least, we'll gonna conquer the next year together:)

okie back to the quiz thingy. and carlo, you dont have to write my name as "Ang Pei Jun aka Potato aka Peggy aka Tapioca aka Oneh Oneh" the whole world already knows-.-

THE RULES :People who were tagged , need to blog about their 10 weird habits/little facts.At the end , you have to choose 10 person to be tagged and list their names.

1) i used to play wrestling with my bro on our grandma's bed when we were younger. HAHA. FUN!!!:D:D:D

2) i daydream alot. seriously... HAHAHA. i dream of travelling around the world :)

3) my voice sounds like donald duck on phone(as mentioned by zhilin's mom-.-) and everyone who morning called me before said that i sound annoying or "teh" in the morning! D:

4) i like to observe the people around me. so if you catch me staring at you one day, pls dont beat me up or get the wrong idea:)

5) i like to hear positive things:D haha. like who dont?

6) my hand just cannot stop hitting people.. when im laughing or being provoked? (as mentioned by val-.-)

7) i like to watch sad korean dramas. i really dont know why! i just get addicted to it. and i usually daydream about them after watching. -.-

8) i used to sing or dance and act my own concert at home when im younger. my maid was my audience. haha :x

9) i am known as a "toilet girl" or that the toilet is my fav place(-.-) since pri school to sec school to jc D: and i think i influenced alot ppl to go toilet cos i have quite a number of toilet buddies now :D:D:D

10) everyone knows me as a potato and if you dont know yet, it started during sec 3. ( because im as cute as a potato :D )

there're still many things about me you havent yet to know about. hoho.

can i just tag the people who are reading this. haha. im too tired to think of names. and most of them are alr being tagged. so its okay lah! haha.

GOODNIGHT.

ASIA CONFERENCE was just mind blowing:D im so glad i made it for all the night sessions as they were all powerful and exciting. ushering on the first day was tiring but fun! liu geng hong smiled and said "hello" to me! but he dao-ed alot people. hahaha:D opps. hahaha. okok. and pastor kong said hi to us!!!:) the way he said hello is just so sweet. haha. and pastor ares and pastor kevin loo are so handsome! pastor tan is so tall. zhilin and me did some stupid thing when ushering and it was so embarrassing. haha. but there was much laughter that day although we were all tired. i still love working with hoGc ushers. haha. but chc ushers are really zai. ours are zai too okay! and the best part is that we are all young:) haha. we really can learn alot from the chc ushers. its a privilege to serve in asia conference!:D im so sad i missed both of pastor phil pringle's sessions:( i heard they were really powerful. but its okay cos there is a session with him again on sudnay morning and im definitely not going to miss that one!:D its just great to be part of the thousands and thousands in asia conference. i cried so much ytd when we sang crossing over. the lyrics just touched me so much as i saw all the different represensatives of the different asia countries at the front. yes! all nations belong to Jesus! its so powerful man. even bangladesh, cambodia and the 3rd world nations have radical christians who are represented in this conference. they are going to take their nations for God and its going to happen! as im typing now, i just feel so strongly that God is really doing something in asia. miracles will happen and more and more people will see the light.

By Your Spirit O Lord we claim the nations of the world for You Jesus
Pour down Your rain
Holy Spirit move in us today
By Your Spirit O Lord we claim the nations of the world for You Jesus
By Your word of truth
We're crossing over
To bring the losts for You


yes man! we're gonna win the losts for You. who says that its hopeless over at the 3rd world nations. ytd, a few cambodia people were sitting infront of me and i can feel the same hunger in them for their nation to be saved. all things are possible with God! and yes! i saw that verse on the pillars in tangs mall. yes! in the shopping centre! i was in orchard with my parents to mt elizabeth hospital too consult the doc for some prob. i really hate the hospital:( its just a bad feeling i always sense when i step in. i dont like to go hospital! but anyway, after that, we went to tangs mall and guess what i saw on the pillar! "with God all things are possible -matthew19:26" WHAO. i thought i was seeing thing as i was thinking of God too much. haha! but i was not-.- haha! and i quickly showed my parents and they were not surprised at all cos they said that the boss of the mall is a christian. but still, in a shopping centre! thousands of people will see that man! its so cooool! you may just think its some words on the pillar in the shopping mall but imagine how many lives it can touch! furthermore, its not any neighbourhood shopping mall but a mall in the middle of orchard!!! and they sell branded goods okay. haha:D truly, with God, ALL THINGS are possible! yes, ALL things! and i love my parents so much! they are such a blessing from God. the paid for my medical fees which was around 200plus 300 dollars and even bought stuffs for me. when i grow up, i want to honour them and give them a good life. many youths do not know how to respect their parents but because im a child of God, i know that i should and i must honour them. and yes, they will be saved soon.. have faith!:D



JERSEY WEEKEND:D

I AM HERE TO BLOG! its gonna be a long long post!:D


haha i've been mia for so long and i miss blogging. i have like millions of things to say. my life is just too happening man!:D:D:D i totally enjoy every min of my life. yeah. including the time spent sleeping because i always have sweet sweet dreams:) LOL


last week had been a power packed one! 2 days of nick vujicic and 3 days of pastor kong! D5 brokethrough. we had like tons of new friends!!! until i didnt even recall some of their faces. in total, our att was 63!!!!!!! AND guess what! the ceg att was 103 for the power packed week!!!:D ZAI RIGHT! hahaha. prayers move mountains yeah! God is great! the best part was that there were many salvations for nick vujicic!:D so many people stood up! they are really courageous! i almost teared when i see so many souls giving their lives to Jesus. it was such an awesome moment. and i hugged nick vujicic! he said "i love you" and i replied "love you too!" and i hope he wasnt shocked cos many people just said "thank you". haha. but if i could have more time with him, i would tell him that i did my pw on him! HAHA! he's such a great man of God. im so glad my parents made it. even if they were not saved that day, i know a seed had been sown into their hearts. i love them soooo much! they never fail to give in to me when i invite them for church. haha. well. some of the time-.- during big events... haha. YES slowly! one step at a time. prayer is the key now!:D


Pastor Kong is amazing and i love him to be in heart of God church!!! His preachings never fail to inspire me to love people more and go into the world to bring more souls to God. i was so blessed throughout that 3 days. no wonder he is a pastor of the biggest church in singapore:) his wife and him have been doing so much for God and His people! im soooo inspired! especially the part when he shared that we should not discriminate people but redeem them. all creations in this world belong to God!:D amen!


this week is another tiring yet exciting week. had school on mon, tues and this morning! Well, guess what, im late for all 3 days of lectures! HAHAHA! and the lectures are useless to me. i dont think i learnt anything from those boring lectures. haha. great. i could have slept more but still, going school is a must lah! haha. monday had HQ till 10plus in church. and it was great planning for outings. looking at the new friends' list is just exciting! imagine all of them planted in church. haha. greater things have yet to come! 240 for d zone!!! :D tues went to cck to meet yiling and her friends with jingfen and zhenghui. cck is like so far man! but its worth it:) after that, went to meet my parents. it had been so long since i last spent time with them. every since last tues, i've been home like very late. but i love my parents because they are understanding. well, they did complain but what can they do. HAHA. im a good girl and they can see it. haha. they bought things for me too. what more can i ask. great family, great friends around me, great church and good school..? haha. yay. wed had dinner with jocelyn and jingfen and jasmine and jocelyn is such a funny girl. haha. totally loved the time spent with her. yeah we will meet up soon again:)


today is another day that i was late for school. haha. really have to thank cheryl chern. she had been waiting for me all 3 days and even went out of audi to fetch me into the audi. LOL. haha. i thank God for good friends in school:) and huishi is forever late! tsktsk. haha. and it was her bd ytd! didnt manage to spend time with her but i know we ll meet again soon. haha. jessica and jasmine came my hse after sch to eat and we went to meet the rest and had cg after that. many new faces but the atmosphere was still good. His presence was so strong in the room and when jieru prayed for me, i felt His voice so close to my heart. BREAKTHROUGH! this is the season for me to grow. with so many events coming, there will be so many things to do. its gonna be tiring and everything, but i know that i have His strength i can rely on. i ll praise Him in every circumstance i am in. my God reigns:D i really think i am a blessed girl and now i want to bless others as well. so dont be surprised if i treat you something one day! i just treated qq a donut and she was shocked to the max. -.- HELLO? im always so nice right! :D hahaha. people like people who like them! i ll take the initiative to like people. its no longer me anymore!!! but about God and His people! this year is going to end with a blast!:D i cant wait for all the great plans God has for us:D:D:D:D


speaking to this mountain
to move into the ocean
with Your authority given to me
no matter what happens
here i am standing
on the hope of Your word
promise You've made

we're gonna multiply!:D














the real pro!

this man is amazing! i did my PI on him for project work! :D isnt that cool! im so inspired by his life journey that i decided to use him for the topic on "Journey" i wrote in my PI - Nick Vujicic’s life journey can inspire others to treasure their life because he has proven that even a man without limbs can live his life to the fullest. Key Learning Point: Never take things for granted but to live life to the fullest.


"There were times when Nick felt depressed and angry because he couldn't change the way he was, or blame anyone for that matter. Nick went to Sunday School and learnt that God loves us all and that He cares for you. Nick understood that love to a point as a child, but he didn't understand that if God loved him why did He make Nick Vujicic like this? Is it because he did something wrong? Nick felt like he was a burden to those around him and the sooner he go, the better it'd be for everyone. Nick Vujicic actually wanted to end his pain and end his life at a young age, but he is thankful once again, for his parents and family who were always there to comfort him and give him strength."

"Due to his emotional struggles, he had experienced bullying, self esteem problems and loneliness, God has implanted a passion of sharing his story and experiences to help others cope with whatever challenge they have in their life and let God turn it into a blessing. To encourage and inspire others to live to their fullest potential and not let anything gets in the way of accomplishing their hopes and dreams."

"One of the first lessons that he learnt was not to take things for granted. Nick Vujicic had that wake up call around the age of twelve and realized just how much he was blessed with. He took his foot for granted, his family and the fact that he wasn't born in a third world country, with all the blessings that God had freely given."

"Nick Vujicic completely gave his life to Christ at the age of fifteen after reading John 9. Jesus said that the reason the man was born blind was "so that the works of God may be revealed through him." Nick truly believed that God would heal him so that Nick could be a great testimony of His Awesome Power. Later on Nick was given the wisdom to understand that if we pray for something, if it's God's will, it'll happen in His time. If it's not God's will for it to happen, then He has something better. "

"However, Nick Vujicic believed that if you have the desire and passion to do something, and if it's God's will, you will achieve it in good time. As humans, we continually put limits on ourselves for no reason at all! What's worse is putting limits on God who can do all things. We put God in a "box". The awesome thing about the Power of God, is that if we want to do something for God, instead of focusing on our capability, concentrate on our availability for we know that it is God through us and we can't do anything without Him. Once we make ourselves available for God's work, guess whose capabilities we rely on? God's!"
taken from http://www.inspiring-quotes-and-stories.com/nick-vujicic.html

isnt his life journey an inspiration to you?
its amazing how he can do so much with what he has been given, while some of us use what we are lacking as an excuse to do nothing at all.
come hear his testimony and be impacted. i bet you'll love your life so much more and make full use of it even more:D

Nick Vujicic at heart of God church on 4th to 5th NOV!
(its after my PW OP!!!:D:D:D:D)

it has been such a long time since i last blogged!!! im so lazy to blogging nowadays:( but cheryl has been wanting me to blog cos she said she likes reading it as it is "so me" hahaha. well, i have so many things to say but im really tired to blog now. i can only say that i love my life cos its always interesting and excitng:)

skype is so cool lah! im a noob at skype though. ytd night wanted to sleep at 1 but ended up sleeping at around 330 to 4 cos some of us were skyp-ing. is that the word to use? haha. i spent around 1 hr trying to talk to them cos i was using desktop and my desktop doesnt have a mic. so i changed to laptop and has to dl the whole thing again. so troublesome. until today, nicholas and val still call me noob at skype. haha. its amazing how we can chat till so late. and its fun! at least im not alone in the middle of the night. haha. and i couldnt wake up this morning. i think im the queen of all pigs. nic and jingfen morning called me twice each. and the last call was from jingfen. so she called and i actually talked to her for awhile and rose up from bed and sat on it. but once i put down the phone, i actually went to lie on my bed again and told myself "zai gei wo liang fen zhong".... hahaha. so in the end, i woke up like 940 and i knew that i was gonna be late for the photoshoot so i decided to takke cab. i could have been early if i rushed but i hate to rush. so i went out at 940 and fetch a cab to church. and its 9dollars!!!:( SADDED.

services this weekend were awesome awesome awesome! ytd was pastor aries from chc and today was garrett!!! i miss pastors:( i hope they're doing fine in london. i cried under the presence of God during these 2 services. i miss crying under His presence. it really makes me treasure His presence even more. i want to experience His presence every every day of my life. no matter how tired i am, i want to spend time in His presence. i want to be even closer to Him. im not satisfied at where i am now. i want to draw even nearer to You. its my heart's desire, to know You more, to love You more each day.

i really really love my parents and love spending time with them. God has really chosen me to be in this family and its definitely not by accident that my parents are my parents. im so thankful to God for placing me in this parents. i love to be around my parents. i love how i can always act like a child infront of them, how i can be like a spoilt kid, how my dad always make us laugh with his blur face, how my mom and i love to argue, how they love me. i love everything about them though my mom likes to throw temper at us sometimes. i told my parents just now that they are really blessed to have such a daughter like me. haha. and my mom said that im really lucky to have parents like them. well, its not luck. its all God's plans and im thankful of that. by 2010, they are gonna be saved. they are gonna be part of the 3000 people that are going to be coming to our church in 2010. my whole family will be saved soon. pray for them, wont you?:)

i have so many things to blog about that i dontknow where to start!!! and i'm so tired now i can sleep for a week. hahaha:D

had a great weekend in church. we had so much fun during the hang out on sat and i had fun mashing potato at al fresco ytd. it was qianqian and yiwen's birthday on saturday!:D happy birthday! we dedicated songs for them. hahaha. its always a blessing to have your birthday spent in church:D service was great and Pastor's sermon really applies much to our life and to the way we evangelise. i got revelation from God about this whole tpjc revival. its just the beginning! i want more souls to be saved and more lives to be changed by Him. all will see His miracles in this school! imagine her character and attitude changes. she'll be such a great testimony for God. im praying. im praying for a clean heart in me, in us. i trust in God that all things are possible!:D

i went to bugis twice last week. once was on thursday because of meeting with jieru and second was with jingfen, jingfen's two friends and zhenghui:D and i went to pgsm for the first time! hahaha! the place is just beautiful! its so fun to see so many hoGc people in the same university. haha. and now, i'm reminded of the horrible trip to NUS last thurs. we did nothing but eat. haha. but its good that we managed to skip lesson:D

its such a tiring day but i really thank God for all the friends in school. jiamin wasnt in school today and i bet she misses us. haha. well, we miss your funny face too:) i have to blog about this! huishi and me were just competing who could press the fastest for the lead to come out of the pencil!!! haha. this idea is modified from the bishi bashi game just that we only have the strength to press out a lead. hahaha. we played during econs tutorial and i bet mrs ting was so disappointed in us. we even drew on a piece of paper many many food and i wrote there, i am hungry! haha. she saw it:( mr ng said that its difficult for him to give me a 'very good' for conduct:( i hope he's just joking with me if not i ll just quit school:(

i cut my hair just now somewhere near my house! and zhenghui cut hers too! we were quite afraid it would turn out bad but i think its okay. i think her hair looks good. see zhenghui! i told you, you will look good with short hair! haha.

i'm so thankful for everything He has placed in my life(: He's always so faithful.

You are faithful and true
Glorious Lord
All my life it is You i adore
You've touched my soul
Completed my world
i surrender to You

its friday!:D like finally. this week has been a tiring week:( and emo week because many people like jiamin and melvin were getting emo and stressed. we kept complaining about our school. we have so many homeworks and even had econs test in the morning just now! and the worst thing is that my pw has to change the entire idea:( its a crisis man. i got so emo on wed after hearing that we had to change idea. RAH. its million times worse than promos. if the school really wants us to do well in pw, they should just stop all the homeworks and tests and let us focus on pw! stress stress stress. so if you're considering coming to a jc, DONT! hahaha.

watched this really sad but sweet movie called tada kimi wo aishiteru. its a really cute show. you gotta watch it! the girl in the show has a kind of weird disease. she lacks of growth hormone and when she falls in love, she will mature and will die:( im still trying to find out the name of the disease. its so sad.


growth is gonna be so easy. tpjc revival is near..
my school, my responsibility:)

we want to run to the altar and catch the fire
to stand in the gap between the living and the dead
give us a heart of compassion
for a world without vision
we will make a difference bringing hope to our land

we definitely had a great time spending our children's day in botanic garden:D was really glad that the whole thing went well and really thank God for the wonderful weather. it was not too hot yet not raining, though its warm. well, we're living in singapore right? that isnt unusual. sylvia joined us too and i bet she loves us even more. haha. fungus and me were just saying that its not the place of the outing or the whole planning that makes it fun. Rather, its the people that make the outing fun and enjoyable. i thank God for this great bunch of people who never fail to make the outing an enjoyable one:) this outing is great but the next outing will be even better:D

my eye is still swollen. did not go to school again today and couldnt join the girls for karaoke:( there's econs test next week!!! im so dead. mrs ting wrote in the online msg: Should you fail the test, you will likely be called back to attend extra lessons during the Nov period. i bet i ll be one of those attending them. man, i really dont want to go to church with my swollen eye:(

my eye is still so painful!!!:( i want go school!!! if not my friends will miss me like mad! hahaha! but i seriously want to go school. i pray that my eye will be healed completely by 12am! hahaha.

im having a very sinful chats with zhenghui and zhilin. both of them talking to me about the same topic! HAYO. hahaha!!! not really sinful cos it concerns our future. HAHA. but its super funny. i shall not elaborate on it and shall go pray later. hahaha!

who am i that You will know me from the start, set me apart.

HAPPY BRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER:D

my bro's friends are at my house now, planning to give my bro a surprise when he gets back home. ahhaha. so sweet of his friends. he should count his blessings for having a great bunch of friends:) and i have to waittt for their surprise to take place. its quite funny seeing their reactions. they're like so comical. hahaha.

my eye is swollen and hurts like mad now. i wish i can go school tmr but i doubt so. its painnn!!! VERY VERY PAIN!!!

i better go prepare for the surprise too:D

one of my fav korean actors, kwon sang woo, just got hitched:( haha.

my head hurts now. must be the terrible weather. few hoours ago, it was so warm. after that, it began to rain heavily!:( it started raining during pw lesson. pw is horrible. we have to change our idea:(:(:(:( say goodbye to my A:( but well, we had a great time during pw lesson lookng at our school forum. HAHAAHA. all the nonsense. its super dumb and we had a good laugh at all the posts. mr ng is super mean! because they were using my account to read so he suggested using my account and post some stupid stuffs on the forum. what a good teacher i have.

i still do not have the mood to study. i cant wait for weekends to come! oh i cant wait for the outiing on wed! we're gonna go botanic garden:D hahaha. its gonna be a great outing! yay. ball, frisbee, photoshoot, sun, flower, food. even if it rains, we'll still have a great time in minds cafe. haha:D

sometimes its just so hard to love people but we are all created in the image of God. God loves us the same and never chooses who to love more. the sermon on love undeservedly just comes back to me. i ll continue praying and i know this weekend's gonna be a great one. i pray that God, You'll change her from the inside out.

a thousand times i've failed, still Your mercy remains.
should i stumble again, still i'm caught in Your grace
everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fade
never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame.

/edit : i went to watch last few mins of stairway to heaven and its so sad. totally affected my mood:( haha. but i dontneed tissues cos im strong!:D

eating apple now..

F1 race just ended. i didnt really catch it though its on the 3 big screens in church. haha. maybe its just not me to watch this kind of race. i dont get as excited as others do. but i think its really cool to have a night race in singapore. i totally love hanging out in church. many people stayed back to watch the race these 2 nights. the feeling is just indefinable. haha. its not something that can be defined or described. the feeling of having one big family you can hang out with and the feeling of having a church you can call it your home. i really want others to experience what i've experienced and am experiencing. like what peifen said, i really treasure the relationships i have in church(: i want to bring more people into this wonderful placce and let them experience the love in the house of God.

woke up at 6plus today! its amazing how i could wake up so early. thanks nicholas for the morning call and because of his morning call, i managed to morning call qq and zh. so nic! you not only woke up one person but 3 people:D hahaha. met qq and rushed to church for customer ops meeting. the whole meeting was just mind-blowing and everyone was just blown away by all the great ideas that jianming had mentioned. im looking forward to 14thoct!:D customer ops team is going to rise up to a whole new level and bringing friends to hang out in church is going to be so much more fun and easier. i love hoGc because there're always full of surprises:D usher today was great too. i stationed at the white gate and yes, its really really hot. stood under the sun for a long time and the wind just kept blowing at me. but i love to greet people especially unfamiliar faces. standing at the white gate must be one of the most impt task because im the first person that people will see when they walk in. i have the honour of giving them the first impression of our church. haha! and i love to see the smiles of people's faces. it just puts joy in my heart to see people responding to your greeting(: yes! its a great joy to be serving in the house of God. i want to serve Him for all eternity!

school starts tmr and there's only one word to describe it - SIAN. hai. i cant stop sighing. haha. yes love school undeservedly. i ll try my best to enjoy my days in school. all the best to me:D and i feel so dumb:( im having a sunburn after ushering at the white gate. hahaha! who ever gets a sunburn after usher duty! LOL. okay. im really tired now. slept only for4 hrs last night:( goodnight people!

even when the mountain trembles and a thousand falls,
i will stand with You, my Jesus take my all.

yay! thanks CHERYL CHERN for the blogskin! im so lazy to do one myself:D

today's morning prayer meet was good. was just talking to jasmine about the prayer group in our school and we just thank God for all the wonderful people in it especially daryl and althea. all of the people just come faithfully EARLY every morning to worship and pray. the atmosphere might be different from that in church but it definitely refreshes us every morning(: i have been feeling so guilty about always being late and letting people morning call me. be blameless peijun!

i realised i have many hi-bye friends in school. haha. yes just say HI and BYE. have been walking around school during breaks with huishi these few days. school might be boring but thank God for friends whom i can talk to during break. somehow, we just always have things to talk about. from our childhood to our brothers/sisters to our sec school to our ugliest moment. right? haha. pw is terribleD: my group mates and i nearly died last night. mr ng sent us a very not-nice-to-read sms. haii.. tsk. its horrible. but i still think my group is the best group among the rest in the class. that is if we dont look at efficiency and quality of work. which makes it like the worst group in class. whatever. it is the process that we should enjoy.

CG was awesome. we just worshipped God and prayed. this could carry on forever:D i love His presence and i treasure every second spent in His presence. i want more of Him. jessica joined us today!:D 3 tpjcian in our cg today! hahaha. its such a beautiful picture. we should have taken that down. yes! more will come!!! MORE!:D

thank God for my results! all glory goes to Him. i was quite amazed at my econs and history results. especially econs! i thought i would fail badly but instead, i did better than mid year! praise the Lord! He sees my hard works and is always faithful.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

my dreams and my desires, i lay them at Your feet.

contented but never satisfied. this is something i've learnt from dom during discipleship class. contented is to be pleased with your situation, your position. To content is to give enough to keep one from being disposed to find fault or complain. However, satisfaction is different. satisfaction puts us at a risk of not moving forward because it puts an end to a desire, want or need because of sufficient provision. im contented with my position in Christ, being a child of God but im not satisfied and i know i want more of Him, more of His presence in my life. im contented with my life, having many things that not others can have but im not satisfied and i want to keep working hard for my future. im contented with my family and with my friends but i not satisfied. i know i can be a better daughter/sister/friend and build better characters. im contented with my maths results but im not satisfied because i know there's still rooms for improvement. but. im really not contented with my gp results. yes. the whole world knows i failed my gp. i got 13.5 marks for my paper 2. my first four short ans get 0 0 0 and 0. its horrible. yes, i was not feeling good that day, i was tired, i dozed off halfway through the paper, i thought the paper was 1hr 45mins. all these are just excuses that i can use to console myself. but i know that i have not put in my best. im soooo disappointed and just cant get over it! its really lousy! really. haii..

today was a very unfruitful day. i didnt learn much during tutorials and lectures. i kept thinking of my results and was really afraid of my econs. i know i wont do well. tmr is gonna be a bad bad day:( well.. at least huishi and me had some talk during the long break. talk about many many stuffs and many thoughts have been running through my mind. haha. school has been rather boring now because we have nothing to do during break unlike in the past when we would rush our works. i totally wasted the 2 hrs of pw in com room. thank God for jingfen and nicholas who accompanied me till 230 online. haha. so nice of them. but i had no privacy at all lah!D:

i hope tmr never comes because i really donwan to know my results. many people keep telling me i wont retain but thats what makes it even more scary. the thought of wasting another year in jc is terrible. i can just pray and surrender all to God because i am in no control of my results anymore. He is in control.

Philippians 4:11
Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content

1 Timothy 6:6
Now godliness with contentment is great gain.

Be contented with what you have and who you are:D







after promos:D

life has been great after promos. so many good things have been happening and im looking forward for even more exciting things that are going to happen! f1 race screening in church next week! its gonna be awesome! God has already dropped names into my heart and im so gonna grab this oppurtunity to bring more souls to church! i love heart of God church. we are always so creative, coming out with new ideas, new events to evangelise. 1400! its coming! thursday to sunday have been fruitful. cg on thurs, meeting and went for prayer on friday, service ytd, discipleship class and service today. i felt a breakthrough in my prayer life because of the prayer meetings i went on friday, sat and sunday! it was awesome. how i wish there's no school tomorrow. i hate to go back to my school life again:( the feeling is horrible. but well, i've found my purpose in going to school! a revival is coming!:D

going to watch ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni with my mom now. still praying for my bro:D

yesyes. i blogged twice today. was planning to pon school today and i did pon but even if i didnt have the idea of ponning. i wouldnt have gone to school because of sth that happened and woke me up at 6 plus. if i had planned to go school, i would still be sleeping. im so deprived of sleep now. being a responsible girl, i msged mr ng and let him know that i actually wanted to pon but sth really happened so couldnt go. and he replied okay and that he will bring me to see principal on monday with a smiley face(: whalao. hai. its not a good day after all until i go to church. had an exciting meeting with jieru! hahaha. we planned lots of things and im so so looking forward to them. yeah. more than just all the excitements and fun, its all about bring the new friends closer to us, church and God. there're so much to look forward to:D

and being a nice friend, i actually accompanied some of them to mug for their promos and even helped val and zhenghui with maths! one nyjc one tj. and im just a tpjcian-.- okay. stress is the word to describe zhenghui. she got emo and crazy. and i managed to make her laugh. i know im such a nice friend(: haha. i know how you feel la. i've been through it(: at least i wish i was taking promos at the same time as them. but thank God its over.

just looking through all the old photos. childhood memory is really one of the best things in life that we should cherish. how i wish i can go back to those time again. when my brother always put his arms around me, smiling and posing for the camera. i miss my old maid too. the maid who had been with us for 5 years. life was great then. but i know its gonna be even greater. thank God.

hello brother, i miss those times talking to you. when will you be back to your old self:( i want to help you erase the unhappy memories. i want you to be happy, filled with the joy of the Lord, having the peace of God upon you. i want you back as my brother...

"BE STRONG PEIJUN! BE STRONG"

i feel that im losing my brother to this world. my heart wrecks for hiim. whenever i think aboout him, i cant help but tears just rolled down my eyes. i miss him so much. he used to be so happy go lucky, always entertaining people and making people laugh. but after breaking up, he just changed to a totally different person. i blamed myself for not giving much attention to him. i have not been a good sister. im always going out or studying. i knew he was not right ever since after the break-up but i did nothing. and sometimes, doing nothing is worse than doing wrong thing. it hurts to see him this way. but at least, he has great friends who truly care for him, supporting him. why why why does he have to act like nothing has happened. cant he just let it out. why does he have to keep everything to himself and torture himself. he needs God and i just prayed for him in his room. i cant stop crying. i want my brother back. Lord, please bring him back. only You can give him the love he needs. that girl is a jerk. she is not worthy of him doing and suffering so much for her. i've learnt not to go too deep in a relationship. no matter what happens, i ll still stand by him and pray for him. i kknow that one day, he will share his testimony on stage.

but i know everything's gonna be alright. the peace of God will rest upon me and my household. he will forget everything about that girl. i have faith. he will be back to his old self again soon.

YAY! PROMOS ENDED FOR ME:D HURRAY HURRAY!
but i still have school tmr and stupid pw. but i ll still bring praise no matter what!:D

it has been a long week. and its finally over! i almost couldnt wake up in the morning and thanks daryl for the morning call. but still! i only woke up at 630plus! if its normal school day, i would have been late cos i reached school around 745. qianqian! you're not the only one who needs a vibrating bed to wake you up! i think i need it more! china studies wasnt that good cos i have to admit that i didnt study hard enough. the questions were pretty straightforward and i wish i had studied harder. but well, i managed to crap out something at least! thank God! i've learnt to rely on Him throughout this whole exam seasons(:

mr ng said i did quite good for maths! but i doubt its an A): and there's a high chance of me promoting because we asked and he said two danger zones and not anyone of us. i hope i ll pass for china studies. i need to promote! pw is such a hassle. draft and draft and more drafts. i want an A for pw! and an A for chinese! gotta work hard now. its gonna be easy.

going out for seoul garden with chern jm and hs later. its time to enjoy after so much of studying! :D

i 'love' studying!

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

yay! it has been a great weeekend and i enjoy to be back in God's house and serving in it:D after a long week of promos, i felt so refreshed being back in church! ytd's usher was fun! i love seeing the smiles on people's faces after me greeting them. the best was to see many unfamiliar faces! i know we're gonna breakthrough! the south african ambassador came ytd and she's just powerful! and i managed to greet her personally while stationing at the glass door! she said hi to me!! whao!!!:D leadership is humility. Amen to that! i was so impacted by the stories she shared about the great leaders especially nelson mandela! i want to read more about him now! in fact i just read an article on him in Time magazine and i like what he said"Courage is not the absence of fear. its inspiring others to move beyond it"!

today's service was AWESOME cos its about the glory of virginity. im sure everyone was impacted by it cos its really the sermon for us especially when we are still not married. i've learnt so much from pastor and really, thank God im still a virgin and i hear this sermon when im 17:D im proud to be a virgin! hahaha!
Virgnity is ONE THING you can give ONE TIME to ONE PERSON in ONE LIFETIME!
AMEN!

i've got so many things to say but im so lazy to blog it(:
to sum it all out, i love my life and the people around me:D

HAPPY MOONCAKE + LANTERN DAY!

im watching the taiwanese drama ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni and its such a funny show! that girl dreams alot. feels like me. hahaha! makes me laugh infront of the com screen. feel dumb but its really funny! its time to de stress before i start studying again for china studiesD: cheryl ended her promos alr. rah!!! while some of us only end on wed. AND there's pw on thurs and fri! man. cant they just give us a break?!! not looking forward to it cos jiamin is going to pluck her wisdom tooth on thurs. i ll miss her): HAHAHA.

had history test this afternoon. im not sure if i ll do well cos i just crapped out whatever info i remembered. FOUR essays in THREE hours. its horrible. my hand hurt like mad. wrote non stop for 3 hours. rahh! and i was so confused by the indo pakistan war and arab israeli conflict. remember one and i ll forget another. hai. but im so blessed by jasmine, zhenghui and annlynn! jasmine just told me that they were praying for me during my paper and i was on their mind throughout the 3 hrs. WHAO. im super touched after hearing that. thanks girls:D no wonder i was awake throughout the paper! yay! i know im not alone during this period with such great people in my life, constantly giving me encouragements. :D

maths paper should be one of the better paper alr although i doubt i can get an A): at least the 3 hrs doesnt feel as long as history's 3 hrs. haha. but im happy that i left one paper!:D well. i still have pw and a level chinese. and next year, a level. if i promote. ok. i shall have faith! let Your will be done(:

now all that are in mind now are hezbollah, hamas, PLO, Nasser, Israel, Pakistan, religious fundamentalism. yeah history is exciting except the writing of essays. something scary happened yesterday when i was taking a nap. i was thinking of integrations and differentiation and i cant get them out of my head! its scary cos i confused them with history. finally, i can sleep in peace(: good night!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO BLOG TO RELIEVE STRESS! IM GOING CRAZY SOON!!! SOON!!! VERY SOON!!! ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! :O

i feel like screaming!!!!! man. i never felt so stress before. this is so much worse than o level can):):): i tried doing maths but somehow. i just couldnt get the answers. and when i looked at the solutions. its like so simple!!! angpeijun! can you not think too far! i cant stand myself! i want an A for maths but i doubt i can get it. with integrations, maclaurin, 3d area and volume. i can say goodbye to my A. man.. i want to sleep! i need more sleep! i took a nap just now and i couldnt even sleep in peace because all the maths questions were flooding my mind): i woke up and felt that if i continued to sleep for one more minute, i ll retain. the feeling is just horrible. now i understand how stress jc life is.

eight more days and it ll be over...

i cant take it anymore! i hate it when im studying and there're so many thoughts on my mind. i hate to study when im feeling unwell. i hate the feeling of stepping into the exam hall. i hate the feeling of me not knowing the answers to the questions. i hate it when everyone is busy writing yet i cant write out anything. i hate it when all the things i've studied never seem to come out. i hate the feeling of passing up the scripts when i know the things i've written on it are not going to give me marks. i hate it i hate it i hate it!!! how can i be so faithless!!!D: i need more assurance. i really really dont want to retain...

and all i can say, no longer my way, let Your will be done.

oh mannn. i should not have watched stairway to heaven! its affecting my mood to study nowD: such a typical emo korean drama. one episode is enough to make me sad. power lah! hahaha. but seriously.. HAI... what a sad life.. what a beautiful love.. tsktsk.. i wonder if ever i loss my memory, will i forget the person i love. but well i know i will never forget the One i love the most. kwon sang woo said in the show, "love always comes back" yeah. no matter what, He will still find me back:D ok. enough of emo-ing. i ll watch more of these dramas after my promos:D haha.

its such a bad dayD: i think i ll fail gp. seriously. i have never left so many blanks before. and i dozed off halfway during gp paper 2 and econs paper. ARGH! how could i! vitamin c doesnt work for me. maybe chicken essence does. i shall try it on wed. i told my mom im going to fail and somehow, she believed it. off to study soon!D:D:D:

if not for love
if not for grace
all the sins that You've erased
i will always have reasons to praise

no longer will i forfeit grace
i'll follow You and live by faith

You have made a way for us
when You died upon that cross

oh. and thanks to those who have sent me encouragement msges and have shown concern about my promos(:

its one more day to promos and im having a headache now! its those kind of fever headache and i cant fall ill now! definitely not now! just ate vitamin c in the morning and ate apple after dinner. i hope everything will be alrightD: felt so much better after service just now. service was great:D yay! i love history cos its pastor how's favourite too. sir winston churchill is so powerful! the 2 greatest days of our lives is the day when we are born and the day we find out why we are born. amen!

study study. i have been study EVERYDAY during the holiday. the people i studied with thoughout this holiday: zhenghui, valerie, qianqian, yiwen, jasmine, peifen, grace, siew chi, cheryl and jiamin(: yay. we are going to do well for promos okay! we're together in this and we ll conquer it together. haha. the place we studied at: tamp library, church, tamp inter mac and airport. ytd grace, zhenghui, jasmine, peifen and me studied at airport together(: and carlo, choongkai and nicholas joined us too. it wasnt productive lah. but the time spent was worth it:D i think after promos, i ll miss those mugging period. HAHA! but there're so many things i want to do after promos! SO MANY THINGS!!!:D yay. its gonna be over soon. hopefully i ll do well. i donwan to just promote but i want to do well and be a good testimony for God.

just ytd, i was just thinking. i have been studying so much outside and im out everyday. thus, i didnt really spend time with family. but God just reminded me the importance of placing family above my studies. dont take them for granted and most importantly, dont take God for granted. yes i am busy and stress but studying is not all to life. i cannot be stuck in my own studying world and neglect the things that are happening around me or missed out on things and time spend with our love ones. so ytd when at airport, i just felt so strongly that the Holy Spirit is speaking to me to sms my dad cos he was working night shift and i wasnt at home to say bye to him. it just not me to send sweet sms. haha. i was afraid he would think that i wanted to commit suicide cos i msged him bye. but he replied good night and dont sleep late. so sweet... hahaha. so to all the people studying very hard! spend time with your parents and spend time with God! its definitely worth the few hours or even minutes. dont study out till too late outside or lock yourself in the room whole day. talk to your parents and have some quiet time with God:D

aint no giant gonna walk on my land!