A's is over! totally love my life now. im just gonna write what i have been doing so i can look back and check in the future :)

Weekend was spent well in church and i finally can hang out after services! Lazer tag was super cool. our church is really world class church. the planning team was just awesome! Im sure many new friends were impacted :) yeah man. church is not for the saved ones but for the unsaved ones. Im sure theres gonna be a great harvest coming especially as Big days draw nearer! grow grow grow. in quantity and quality :)

supper for the past two days and i think my digestive system kind of screwed up. havent been eating proper breakfasts and my meals are so rubbish. I need to live a healthy lifestyle again! and val cheong came my hse stay last night and we slept till noon. its my first time sleeping past noon after so long! but it doesnt feel good. haha. slping early and waking early still works better. but anyway, we ordered pizza and we had too much faith. we ordered two pizzas and two side dishes and couldnt finish. in fact, we left a box of pizza untouched. haha. kind of.

went for steamboat at cheryl's house after that and huishi and me took the wrong bus. we were 1 hr late! the guys and the two girls started eating. it was a good hang out :) the game was fun too. haha. i guess i ll really miss school. it just feels different without school! we were discussing about prom and still discussing now. im looking forward to it:) as quoted by huishi "im going to shock people" haha. its quite funny. but its gonna be fun with the fun bunch of people!

many times, our lives are made up of decisions. pastor how said last weekend that our lives are governed by our thinking. its so true. either be filled with good thoughts or bad thoughts. i rather have faith and think good thoughts because only by doing that, will it make me a happier person :) the past yr was a mess yet i learnt so many things. next yr is gonna be even better!:)

A levels is finally here and 3 papers down.. 5 more to go. It has not been good... Somehow im on the verge of giving up. haha. whats the point... whats the point of studying so hard for two years when on the actual day itself, you lose control of time management.. ahh. i really dont know what to say. But, i can only encourage the sec 4 ppl not to go to a jc. haha. but if i can, i wouldnt mind restarting this year. Alright, im not gonna give up. I'm still gonna give my best. Im a strong girl and my mind is strong. Yes, i ll fight till the end. Even if everything is not as expected, i know i have given my best.. at least at this moment..i ll do what i can.. and for now, I need to spend time with God. The verse from Jeremiah 29:11 keeps ringing in my head since monday. I believe God has placed that verse in my heart to assure me that no matter what the outcome may be, my future is safe in His hands.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.


Really like the chorus of this song, happy by leona lewis. :)

someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea

holding on tightly
just cant let it go
just tryna play my roll
slowly diasappear, oooh
well all these tears
they feel like theyre the same
just different faces, different names
get me outta here
well i can stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
pass me by

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
oooh

so any turns that i cant see
ill count a stranger on this road
but don’t say victim
dont say anythng

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about all the pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy

2 more days to As! FINALLY. im feeling excited and happy that its gonna end, yet feeling so stress because i know, im not working HARD enough. SIGH. im supposed to be out in a birthday party now, but, i gotta study :(

i was just thinking, many people tell me, God will help me, God will bless me, God will bring me through since i've been faithful. But thoughts came to me and sometimes, people just cant stop thinking of bad stuffs yeah. And i started to have doubts and i thought, if God will help me, then wont He help other christians too since He loves us all the same. He doesnt love me more than any of them. And tell me, how many christians are there taking As! wont they all do well too! But they are my competitors!!! haha. i know its such a childish thought. Yet, i got a revelation:) God spoke to me. That it shall be according to my faith. While there are thousands and thousands of christians taking the same papers, we all have different level of faith and it is the amount of faith that we have that will bring us through. So, how much faith do i have now? haha.

well well well, so many things i want to do after As. i want to spend more time with church people, i want to go for integration outings, i want to go out with my cousins, i want to go for prom, i want to go out with my bro's gf and go shopping with her, i want to meet up with my pri school friends, i want to enlarge my social circle by going out to work. i want i want. But most importantly, i want to build my team. i want to bring more people in. we're gonna grow! :D


And i come across this song and was singing with zhilin. This is such a sad song :( Some people only realise how precious something is after they had taken it for granted and when things or circumstances become different. I dont want to be that in that category because i never want to lose something precious in life and only to realise it when it is gone. It is a decision i made.

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我

走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多