A levels is finally here and 3 papers down.. 5 more to go. It has not been good... Somehow im on the verge of giving up. haha. whats the point... whats the point of studying so hard for two years when on the actual day itself, you lose control of time management.. ahh. i really dont know what to say. But, i can only encourage the sec 4 ppl not to go to a jc. haha. but if i can, i wouldnt mind restarting this year. Alright, im not gonna give up. I'm still gonna give my best. Im a strong girl and my mind is strong. Yes, i ll fight till the end. Even if everything is not as expected, i know i have given my best.. at least at this moment..i ll do what i can.. and for now, I need to spend time with God. The verse from Jeremiah 29:11 keeps ringing in my head since monday. I believe God has placed that verse in my heart to assure me that no matter what the outcome may be, my future is safe in His hands.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.


Really like the chorus of this song, happy by leona lewis. :)

someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea

holding on tightly
just cant let it go
just tryna play my roll
slowly diasappear, oooh
well all these tears
they feel like theyre the same
just different faces, different names
get me outta here
well i can stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
pass me by

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
oooh

so any turns that i cant see
ill count a stranger on this road
but don’t say victim
dont say anythng

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about all the pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy