2 more days to As! FINALLY. im feeling excited and happy that its gonna end, yet feeling so stress because i know, im not working HARD enough. SIGH. im supposed to be out in a birthday party now, but, i gotta study :(

i was just thinking, many people tell me, God will help me, God will bless me, God will bring me through since i've been faithful. But thoughts came to me and sometimes, people just cant stop thinking of bad stuffs yeah. And i started to have doubts and i thought, if God will help me, then wont He help other christians too since He loves us all the same. He doesnt love me more than any of them. And tell me, how many christians are there taking As! wont they all do well too! But they are my competitors!!! haha. i know its such a childish thought. Yet, i got a revelation:) God spoke to me. That it shall be according to my faith. While there are thousands and thousands of christians taking the same papers, we all have different level of faith and it is the amount of faith that we have that will bring us through. So, how much faith do i have now? haha.

well well well, so many things i want to do after As. i want to spend more time with church people, i want to go for integration outings, i want to go out with my cousins, i want to go for prom, i want to go out with my bro's gf and go shopping with her, i want to meet up with my pri school friends, i want to enlarge my social circle by going out to work. i want i want. But most importantly, i want to build my team. i want to bring more people in. we're gonna grow! :D


And i come across this song and was singing with zhilin. This is such a sad song :( Some people only realise how precious something is after they had taken it for granted and when things or circumstances become different. I dont want to be that in that category because i never want to lose something precious in life and only to realise it when it is gone. It is a decision i made.

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我

走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多