guess what! i napped for four hours just now! Jieru was saying it wasnt a nap at all. haha.But i didnt mean to. i only lied on my parents' huge comfy bed and before i knew it, i was in lala land and did not come back to reality. haha. how i wish i can stay there longer. haha. but my tutorials and studies were haunting me even in lala land D: and when i woke, the sky was dark and it was 9. how horrible is that. no wonder, im so awake now:)

school is great. laughed alot in school to de-stress:) its good to have friends who are stress too cos we can de-stress together:D
melvin showed me this song ytd and i think the lyrics is really meaningful. the climb by miley cyrus.

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

I was just praying in the afternoon. Im beginning to dislike what i'm feeling and thinking nowadays. The thoughts that always pull me down everytiime i try to focus on my studies. I prayed that He'll cast them all away. And, it came to me. That noone and nothing can make us sad or disappointed without our consent, or rather, God's consent. Many times, its our emotions that led us to feel all the bad and negative feelings and sadly, most people gave consent to these emotions by allowiing them to control us. Its such a horrible thing to let emotions rule over the way we live our life. Its scary. But, God's will is not for us to feel that way. He wants us to live each day, having the joy of the Lord in us and more than that, spreading this joy to the people around us. yeah, i ll rely and depend only on Him. I ll get over it and move every mountain in my life. i live to glorify Him.

On a random note, i was talking to weiyin about dream husband. Haha. And shipei is the funniest. i remember her telling me her criteria for her husband - good looking, buy rose for her blahblah. and best, averagely rich. HAHA. how do you even gauge how rich one guy is? seriously.. haha. and weiyin also wants someone a little rich. haha. so realistic. yeah if i can dream, i ll dream for a rich rich man:) but in reality, averagely rich sounds good:) everyone says i have high expectations. but then again, all i pray for is someone who will love me for who i am, williing to do anything to make me happy and will never never never never never hurt me or make me sad. a fairytale story with a happy ending :) hahaha :x every girl is a guy's missing rib. cool huh. so dont worry of not getting a life partner! hahaha!

its 1 am... sleep or study? hmm.