its been a long time since i last slept past noon :) happy youth's day :)

Exams have ended but yet, im not feeling delighted at all. i screwed up my maths and history paper, and maybe china studies too. i'm so going to fail 2 h2s :( how bad can that be. Its not as if i did not try my best, but the past few weeks have been rather distracting for me. I tried to study. I tried to put in effort but yet, it was not effective at all. Oh man :( this cant be happening for A levels too! Prelims is coming.. near my birthday :( sigh. haha. I am really not prepared to take A's. Will you just postpone the exams? h1n1 has the ability to do so :) haha. but again, i have come so far! how can i be discouraged so easily! Yes, im learning to let go of all the bad thoughts and let God take control. And, i will not be defeated so easily. 4 more months to go. I'm going to expand and think bigger and greater. because my God can do exceedingly above all that we ask or think :) amen.

I love weekends so much :) D5 is really growing! And not just in quantity, but also in quality. The newer people in the cg are also rising up to take ownership of the cg. haha. And, i really have to say that shipei, yiying and eloise are the people that always always make me laugh alot! haha. i really love to hang out with people like them :) I love d5 and i thank God for placing me in this lovely family :) And, i really love to do follow ups with jessica :) After every follow up lesson, there's this sense of fulfilment in me and hearing what jessica shares really put a smile on my face :) More than that, i always receive my own personal revelation while preparing for the lessons :) Even during the exams period, i will give my best for every follow up lesson. This is a decision i made.

Lets give God the best years of our lives:) Its not about living the relaxing and comfortable life we want. But i found greater purpose in living a life for God and others. Pastor Kent's sermons really impacted me. Only Jesus can satisfy us. Why would people want to look for security and hope in another person through relationship? All these are only temporary if they are not in God's purpose and will. Why waste those time and having to go through hurts and disappointment. Pastor kent said that sins is never satisfying. Truly, once we fall into it, we will fall deeper and deeper and keeps going further and further from God's purpose and words. These thorns growing inside of us will soon crowd out the word of God and soon, there will be no space for His words. Whao, what he shared really clicks with what i shared with jessica for follow up lesson on friday :) What pastor kent says really encourage me, God will let us meet the right people on the other side of the battle. The people that will go through life together with us. He will provide the peace and prosperity. I've got to go.

I'm so looking forward for DR AR Bernard services! Im anticipating for greater things to happen :)

Yiying sent me this song on friday and i just fall in love with this song. I let everyone hears this song. haha. And it was only yesterday that i realise it was a very old song-.- Jieru said she loved this song during her JC days. And wendy neo said she used to emo this song after she broke up with her boyfriend. haha. But its a reallly nice song with really sweet lyrics. Thats what love is really about man.. haha. I pray that God will let me meet someone whom i can sing this song for and really mean every single word that i sing. haha. AND, its not a fairytale. it is realistic -.-
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what