If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

i need to focus! i cannot take it anymore D: i just cant focus. i have really really short attention span and this is really bad. 4 more months to A's... come on peijun. you said you can do it. why are you procrastinating! why are you letting yourself being distracted :( honestly, i cant wait for this year to end. SIGH.

people really confuse me at times with the things they do. personally, i dont see myself as a complicated person but the world and the people around me complicate my perspective of them. yet, a part of me still wants to trust and believe. maybe, because it matters alot to me. but one truth is that, i cant deny everything that is happening now. its time to grow out of your bubble world, peijun. the fact is, people do change, unknowingly. i pray the mystery will be unlocked soon. and till that day, i will only cry out to God to take away all the nonsense thoughts in my head. i still see hope.

still, i thank God for everything that has happened and for the people He put in my life. i know i will grow to be wiser and stronger.

Though all else falls away, still i'll praise.