i just got home from HQ and its fantastic! the red rain harvest was just amazing:D d5 is growing, zone D is growing, the whole church is just growing and growing. i'm sure many new friends will come back for this weekend service. AWESOME! we have many sec school students signing up for the sec school camp too. the whole RED RAIN was really fantastic! i'm so glad i went for all 3 days! though there were many many new friends, the atmosphere was still great. but above all, its the presence of God that touches the hearts of many people. many decisions were made those two days(: also, what charleston shared just now impacted me alot. i learnt so much from him. i want to build my spiritual life. visualise and pray for the people.

Vision and dreams are the language of the fourth dimension. And the Holy Spirit communicates through them. Pastor Cho is just amazing!

we had so much fun ytd on the rooftop of esplanade. HoGc people dominated that area and the police just stood there and looked at us. i bet they wanted to join us with the fun. and we made carlo danced in between the two policemen! LOL but they told him to get off. hahaha. ok we had lots of fun and we didnt want to go home except that there was school this morning. i woke up late and went in the lt late with huishi. THANK GOD mr matthew lim was in a good mood? he did not scold us like he usually would. hahaha.

its going to be a busy busy june. this whole week alone and i'm totally packed. in fact, its the same for the following week too. huishi was telling me its so hard to even have lunch with me. i hope i can squeeze in some time for my jc friends. i was supposed to go shopping with joanne on fri but i doubt i can now=X oh man. i realised i seldom use my organiser now because its getting hard to plan my life. hahaha. CO and cafe duty tmr till 9. china studies test on wed and i'm totally not prepared!-.- i dont even know what to study! movie outing on wed! i'm so excited for that! sec school camp and pastor tan service on fri night! woohoo!

Though my life is in a complete mess, i just simply love it. because i've found my purpose in life. of cos i am tired and everything but its not always about me. i want to help others to find their purpose in life. everything in the world, like the aeroplanes, tables and remote control have a purpose in life. isn't it sad that a human does not even know his purpose in life. like what pastors said, i want to build the dreams of others and i know God will make my dreams come true too. this is what i live for. but what really keeps me going on at the end of the day is Him. He provides me with the strength i need. i need a spiritual breakthrough today.

Let Your Spirit come in power, change my heart. i want to live for You my Lord.

i SEE many new faces worshipping God in the house of God.

i had a really crazy day in school today especially the incident in the toilet. we were seriously insane. i was in the cubicle and cheryl and huishi started flooding my cubicle with toilet papers because i told them i needed it. the funniest was that cheryl threw a roll of toilet paper and it dropped into the toilet bowl. its super disgusting and i shall not elaborate what happened after that. but the nonsense didnt end there. HAHAHA. PE was torturing): Mr Gay is just so comical. we always laugh at him during class. OK so school is fun! JC life isn't that bad afterall with a bunch of crazy friends.

TOMORROW IS GP AND ECONS MID YEAR! 15% of promos. oh man, i cant afford to fail any subject and definitely not gp. i shall have faith!:D

FAITH AS small AS a mustard seed can move MOUNTAIN standing in my way!
i look to the power of the Holy Spirit.

my sec 4 sitting buddy! miss those times):

we're wearing the same kind of blouse. and he said i copied him-.-

STUDYSTUDY

and..

DOESNT THIS LOOK EXCITING.
COME JOIN US IN RED RAIN!:D

So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will I breakthrough Lord
Touch me now, let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears.
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my Calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

i will hold on, i will stay strong.
And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2 Corinthians 12:9

Hold up
hold on
don't be scared
you'll never change whats been and gone

may your smile (may your smile)
shine on (shine on)
don't be scared (don't be scared)
your destiny may keep you warm

cos all of the stars
are fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out

i remember singing this song with my brother when we were young. thats so long ago. its a very nice song(:

FAITH = CONFIDENCE :D

SERVICE TODAY WAS FANTASTIC! God really used pastor's sermon to speak to me and answer all my doubts. i have an amazing God who will NEVER forsake me(: ytd i was just praying to God and coming before Him with a heavy heart because i was really discouraged by my poor results. after today's sermon, i know i need more faith and confidence in my life especially when it comes to studying. my bad results of all the previous tests had successfully discouraged me. but after today's service, i'm faith-filled! i'm not going to be discouraged. faith is the foundation of abilities and power of God. the power of God works through the atmosphere of FAITH! i'm so glad i went for service today(: and jasmine is just awesome. she has choir practice tmr and if she were to go, she would have to miss church this weekend. but she's just so hungry for the word of God and so she is coming tmr despite having concert on monday! i'm so inspired and encouraged by her hunger.

Life is going to be full of challenges but with Him, i can do all things:D thank You Lord! i love my life because You paid for it with a price.

How could we live
but not see
Your sacrifice, Your glory

See now
The King of Glory
Love of God become my calling
Father i surrender
All i have to You forever

ITS FRIDAY! and one more week to mid year econs and gp paper. gp is definitely one of the worst subject ever. well. i shall love it undeservedly. i did really badly for all my tests even chinese): what happen to me! but i have to admit i did not study much too. there's just so little time to do so many things. school has been great excluding the studying part. i love to lead worship with althea! she's super zai. she had never heard God of my forever before but after sending her the song and singing it for her, she knew the chords immediately. so we use that song today. power lah! and today worship was great. Spirit touch Your church and we sang Spirit touch Your school. powerful! we want to care for others like Jesus cares for us. Let Your harvest come to TPJC Lord.

We need Your grace and mercy
We need to pray like never before
We need the power of the Holy Spirit
To open Heaven's door

Spirit touch Your church (school)
stir the hearts of men
Revive us Lord
with Your passion once again
i want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me
Let Your rain fall upon me

Lord we humbly come before You
We dont deserve of You what we ask
But we yearn to see Your glory
Restore this dying land

its late and i'm still doing my homework! AHH. i am super inefficient because since 7, i have been doing hist assignment till now. i'm so dumb!!! and i hate the tests today. i am gonna fail badly for both tests. what happen to me!!! TSK. STUDY!

and many d5 people are still online now! haha. its nice to know that when you are bored at night trying to finish your hw, you can just talk to these lovely people. at least, i'm not alone!:D we are all busy people, but busy with a PURPOSE! yeah man!

haha i saw this in Garette's blog:
There are 3 kinds of people in the world

People that are BUSY doing nothing
People that are BUSY for the sake of being busy
People that are BUSY with a purpose

yeah what are YOU busy with!

i will give my heart to You
in everything i do
cos You are the One i'm living for

ahh! i need to let it out!!! i'm going to break down soon. i feel so bad cos it's my mom's bd but i kept telling her i want to go home and study during the dinner. oh man oh man oh man. i'm seriously going to fail my history test and chinese test. there's nothing in my head now. i hate this feeling. and there are so many things i have yet to settled and its like 9pm. i'm not going to sleep tonight. NOT GOING to sleep tonight. i need to study study study. its impossible to study so much in such a short time but i have faith.

i believe i believe i believe in You Lord that Lord with You i can do all things far beyond my capabilities. i trust in You. for when i'm weak YOU ARE STRONG! AMEN!

You're my feet when i can't move on

i am totally worn-out. tests and tests and they never seem to end. i have so many things to do too!!! ARH. but i shall not grumble. seriously, i think i'm going crazy soon. i practically did not study the whole weekend, spending my time in church and celebrating mother's day at my aunt's house. my cousins and nephews were making so much noise. but its fun looking at all their stupid actions. they always make me laugh. and im a joke to them too. hahaha.

today is my mother's birthday!!! im going for dinner late and so, i am not able to study as much. i hate history!!! the history notes are useless to me. the more i read, the more confused i get. ARGHHHHHHHHHH! i need more time. and there's chinese test tomorrow. and i need to complete my hist essay by wed. and there's BOP and ER test on friday. and these are just school stuffs alone. well well well. i shall not grumble but thank God for everything in my life. i know i can depend on Him. thank You, Lord.

RED RAIN!!! hahaha. manage to get some of my classmates to go. and i love the red rain bottle. now everyone in class knows about red rain including mr ng-.- it's definitely more than just a concert. it's about changing lives.

Praises will not be enough to show
how my love for You has grown

On this altar
I've written my life
Tell of the stories i have with You my God
i want the world to know

Nothing matters when You're here with me
in the end just to hear You say well done
Bowing before Your throne

change my heart Lord. let me love her undeservedly. its hard but i know You put her in my life for a reason.

it has been really busy these few days. EXAMS ARE NEAR and there are testS EVERY week): my brain is tired. JC ppl have no life. hey, but i have! i love my life!!!:D:D:D:D especially when i am serving God and His people!



but well, i have to confess that i have not been a good testimony in school the past few weeks. i was reprimanded my my hist teacher for talking too much during lecture. i think he hates a few of us lah. so huishi said we must score well for him to see. AND we have also been talking much during econs that we think we might not be able to go vietnam anymore. blacklisted): oh well, i need to focus more during lectures and tutorials. i study not for myself but to glorify Him.



Pastors are not in singapore!!!):):):):):):): i miss them so much. heart to heart session was awesome. i'm so inspired to read and learn more about the Word of God. i had cafe duties throughout the day and it was fun except that i was really hungry cos we didnt eat proper meal since 11 till 9plus! So after cafe duty, zhilin and me were like hungry ghosts and ate so much that we were really really full after that.



i'm so excited for RED RAIN! its like after my GP and Econs paper. i gotta do something in school and make it happen man! Prayers + Work = breakthrough!



24th 25th may! BE THERE!

it's gonna be fantastic!

i look like a bee!


ZONE D ECP OUTING:D

something funny happened today after CO in church. valerie and me were in the lift to the first level. we were talking about HER pimples and i was looking in the mirror. haha. When the lift door opened, guess who is there! PASTOR HOW! and he was alone. we rarely see him alone. haha. and i got a shock. and we said "Hi Pastor How" and he said "Hi! Take care girls!" He was laughing at us. i love his smile. it never fails to brighten up my day. I LOVE MY PASTORS!(:

i miss spending times with my brother. really... he is always not home and i seldom talk to him nowadays. even if i do, its usually about whose turn it is to use the com. i know i will never tell him this but i really really miss him... even though he can be mean and insensitive at times. he is my brother and i love him subjectively.

Every step i take
You will lead me
with You i'll walk the raging seas
You're my strength when i am weary
You give me reason to believe

i'm so glad i found You(:

Building fund pledge day service was po-wer-FUL!!! awesome time worshipping God and listening to His words. And i written an amount to pledge. it's more than last year's. i still can remember last year building fund pledge day was powerful too! i remembered that i added a few amounts to it at the moment when we were writing. and vivien was there): YAY. now i have a BF to look after and pay for. its time to plan for my financial pie and start a new cookie jar for BF!

east coast park outing tomorrow!!! i'm excited for it!!! i'm so going to suntan and remove that specs mark. it has been a long time since i last cycled too!:D

i miss this song..
Who am I
That You would know me from the start
Set me apart

Who am I
That You would place eternity
Into my heart

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life, I lay at Your altar
One love, I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands

One word, You know I will follow
One heart, broken to You
Use me again
Your mercies follow me
For all my days

In Your presence
In Your power
Holy Spirit I surrender

How could I live without You
How could I survive
Without Your love
Without Your touch
You're the One that heals me
And cleanses my heart
And sets me free

Now i come right before You
With my hands lifted up
With my heart humbly bowed
At Your work on the cross
As You hang there and die
You were paying the price
For my life, For my life

For Your love is higher than the heavens
Deeper than the seas
And all I want is You in my life
Noone else can satisfy my soul
Can make me feel this way
Only You Lord, only You

all pics were uploaded by jm.

You dont have to wonder why the guys were not in the pictures.

AI conference later! i'm looking forward to it:D Visa is having a performance in esplanade later and i heard the people in our PAE class like heidi and cai are going! The sad thing is none from JAE class is going. most of us have church stuffs on while others just want to mug at home. i would love to go but AI conference is a higher piority for me. and i was supposed to attend a concert in TJ cos shanyan is selling the ticket. i feel so bad now that she has to pay herself):

Building fund pledge day is tomorrow. i've heard from God the amount to pledge long ago and i'm going to do it. obedience is better than sacrifice. He has given me His best and now, i'm going to give Him my best. NO CAB for 3 months! and i shall eat lesser and drink less expensive drinks. budget!

i'm building Your house!!!

redredred is the colour of the rain this month!!!

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