"BE STRONG PEIJUN! BE STRONG"

i feel that im losing my brother to this world. my heart wrecks for hiim. whenever i think aboout him, i cant help but tears just rolled down my eyes. i miss him so much. he used to be so happy go lucky, always entertaining people and making people laugh. but after breaking up, he just changed to a totally different person. i blamed myself for not giving much attention to him. i have not been a good sister. im always going out or studying. i knew he was not right ever since after the break-up but i did nothing. and sometimes, doing nothing is worse than doing wrong thing. it hurts to see him this way. but at least, he has great friends who truly care for him, supporting him. why why why does he have to act like nothing has happened. cant he just let it out. why does he have to keep everything to himself and torture himself. he needs God and i just prayed for him in his room. i cant stop crying. i want my brother back. Lord, please bring him back. only You can give him the love he needs. that girl is a jerk. she is not worthy of him doing and suffering so much for her. i've learnt not to go too deep in a relationship. no matter what happens, i ll still stand by him and pray for him. i kknow that one day, he will share his testimony on stage.

but i know everything's gonna be alright. the peace of God will rest upon me and my household. he will forget everything about that girl. i have faith. he will be back to his old self again soon.