the weather is cold tonight. my hands and feet are cold now. my heart is cold too. haha. woah. sounds emo. but, nope, im not emo-ing:) haha. my heart is still warm:)


2 more days of mugging. i am prepared to sacrifice my weekend already. haha. my econs tutor was telling me a few days ago, "you dont look stress. is it cause you have too much faith or you have given up." i was telling jasmine, this tiime round, i ll just trust iin God to bring me through. But after that, i am going to chiong like mad. Because, faith without hard work is DEAD. amen.

Just realised, alot of people are facing relationships problems. Just today, i heard of 3 problems. or rather, 4. people come and people go. in life, there are many people who will hurt us because, humans are not perfect. but there's just certain things that i have still yet to understand but i pray God will reveal it to me soon. I ll take it as a lesson learnt. Not to trust people so easily. It hurts. especially when the person matters most to you. Those people you share everything with. people whom you just thought you can trust. I have been living in my bubble world all along. and i can't believe that humans are actually so scary. People just scare me by the things they do. i dont think i am able to trust people who can even break their promises to God. Its scary. i despise hypocrites. But, my God doesnt. God is still faithful. I shall learn to love the unlovables. I need more love in my life and more acceptance. Be Christ-like. Yes. Let go and let God:) Still, i thank God for people like valerie, who always bothers me in the middle of the night.. TSK. hahaha:)


"Could it be, that You're in control.."


:) i love my life. i thank God for people who care. Really, i am a blessed girl. I need to know my position in Christ! With God, i have authority and victory!:D Ytd's follow up lesson with Jessica was great! I know i gave my best but i'm not satisfied. I'm gonna do even better the next lesson. Great things are happening. I love the things im doing now because i know i'm doing it for a greater purpose. How pastors really sacrifice and love the youths in heart of God church never fails to inspire me. I want to catch the hearts of pastors and keep loving people. Every life is precious in His eyes.



I still thank God for EVERY single person He has placed in my life:) The outing with my family yesterday was sweet. and i think my bro is a good guy. he offers to drive me to church this morning. just sad that he's going off to army soon:(

Reasons i love my life :)

weiyin, you just amazed me again and again. When i heard the amount you pledged last weekend, i was just blown away. haha. it takes alot of faith but i know miracles are going to happen when you made a covenant with God. Breakthroughs will come. Trust that God will provide :) You're just one powerful woman!

Life is not all about studying and studying although we NEED to study:( But there's a greater purpose in life and i want to run for that cause!

Past few weeks have been great. I feel myself growing in faith and closer to Him when i do my qt. There's just this desire of wanting to receive from Him and to just depend on Him. More than that, i really love the people in my life. I realised im someone who really values relationships more than anything else. I love spending tiime with people, especially my closer friends and family. They make me happy more than anything else:) And, zachary, jasmine, timothy, daryl and i met on saturday! It was a super random outing but i still enjoyed it. We can just talk about anything and its good to talk to daryl again and he is now bald!!! i still remember he was the one who would morning call me in the morning so that i could make it for prayer meet! haha. and he was just like a big brother to me and i've learnt alot from him too. i just miss those times we had prayer meet together in school last year. okay, i only went for twice this year i thhink :x haha. but i really miss people who graduated. like daryl and althea and even joash, who sings in the high pitch voice. haha. Time really passes fast...

Went to jiamin's house ytd to study and had econs tuition over at her house. I really think that the econs tutor is quite interesting and he really likes to nag alot. He makes me feels like i'm not studying hard enough. And, jiamin has started nagging at me too. I should go her hse study more. haha. and we surprised cheryl at her house -.- jiamin's idea again. haha. watched past of ghost girlfriend with zhenghui:) i must say that it wasnt as nice as i had expected. Hannah montana is sooo much nicer!:) i wouldnt mind watching it again. haha.

whao. nicholas just smsed me that he saw pastor tan at bedok blk 85 eating ba chor mee! SO COOL right!:D i wish im there but i shouldnt be as havoc as them.

we had a crazy night ytd. val came my hse at midnight,when i was about to step into lala land. and we casually asked nicholas and hongrui to buy supper over to my house. and guess what, they actually did it! And my parents were already asleep. haha. At first, we were having girls talk so we locked them out of my house for like 15miins. haha. but these guys are 'quite' nice at times:) so, we ate supper at liike 3am -.- and the funniest part was when nic actually fell off the chair! hahahaha! and, val and me continued our talk while nic and hongrui stayed in the computer room and we totally left the two on their own. It was crazy. I still cant believe they actually stayed over at my house. at least, my bro wasn't at home. haha. and my parents were shocked at first to see them. but my mom was so nice to the guys that they kept telling me my mom is as nice as me :) HAHA. apparently, hongrui was saying my mom is so nice, unlike me -.- well. they just havent seen the nice part of me:) but it was a good time of talk with val cheong and we actually talked all the way till 6am and prayed. indeed, we really shared out of our hearts. really, everyone has a story to tell of their lives and there's actually more than beyond what we see of a person everyday. and i thank God there's someone you can just share things with and know that he or she will not judge you differently and will be able to relate to you:)

i better start planning my study plans for june before my econs tutor come nagging at me again! i cant wait for zone camp! im really really looking forward for the revival nights! I'm anticipating for a breakthrough in my spiritual life and i know it will happen, especially during this whole period before the A's. Just like how i grow during the O's period, it will be the same this time. I will hold on to my vision and run because i know that one day, i will look back and say that it's all worth it:)

On this altar, i've written my life
Tells of the story i have with You, my Lord
i want the world to know

God of my forever, and forever i'm with You
my life is saved with a price,
Your sacrifice, redeemed my soul
God of my forever, and forever i will sing
my greatest honour will always be to serve my Lord and King

Firstly, i have to thank two crazy women for coming all the way to my house to wake me up on monday morning because i overslept and missed econs lecture! you girls are the best lah:) hahaha. and although i was reluctant to let you all in at first (because i hadn't brushed my teeth and wash up!), but im thankful for the "wake up call" and waiting for me to prepare to go for breakfast together. haha. its quite crazy. like what cheryl said in her blog, my mom must be happy that you all came to wake me up. she was complaining to the girls non-stop -.- and sorry for my rude brother who was shouting at you all :S haha.

Went to watch hannah montana with weiyin and jerene and the show is really good:) its kind of like modern day fairytale. the guy is cute:) and the movie is funny and sweet. Had dinner with my parents at a hk restaurant atfer that:)

Today was a long day... Went for chc prayer meet with jessica. It was awesome awesome awesome:) Really glad she made it. And when i prayed for her, i felt that God was moving and putting strength and faith in her. I felt so led by the Holy Spirit and it was just a great time of prayer together. I had a powerful qt last night. And i know God's promise will not fail if i have faith and believe in Him. There can be miracles when you believe :) Had history lesson after that and went for sl. And the kids there really bring smile to my faces.especially kaifeng. He's SO CUTE. i heard he has autism. but still, i like him and i just smile whenever i see him. he's really really cute. especially his hair. he likes to twirl his hair and he does it every like 20 secs! SERIOUSLY! And those few strands will stand up. hahaha! super cute Went down for cafe clean up straight after sl. Was tired but still, i feel faith in me and a sense of fulfilment.

Going for huddle cuddliing soon. So many things to say but so little time to blog. still, life is good because God is good :)

Just a few minutes ago, i was multi tasking!:) Watching video, smsing people, talking on msn to people and eating my burger!!! dont be mistaken. thats my dinner -.- at 1am:) hahaha. truly, we're living in a fast paced society where we just got to do so many things at a time, always rushing and fighting with time which always passes so fast like nobody's business. this reminds me of the busyness compre. well. im feeling sleepy now actually. but i just have to talk about my exciting life:) haha.

A week of holiday just passed. And i only studied for 2 days :( The rest of the week was just busy with events and stuffs. Wed had wedding the whole day and i went for the tea ceremony too -.- haha. Wedding dinner was funny. My brother made me laughed throughout the dinner. He's just.... so immature for his age. AHAHA. but he can really make me laugh. all his nonsense and jokes. haha. And, my mother laughed with us too. haha. the wedding was cool. i want to be a wedding planner. And i like all their wedding photos. So sweet! especially the photo at the Singapore flyer. But my brother was saying, he wants to go overseas for wedding photoshoot. Haha. i agree:) I'm 4d-ing myself getting marry at age 25. HAHAHA. joking. But God definitely has a better plan for me. I shall stop dreaming and let God take me to where He has planned for me. That'll be a real fairytale. haha.

Thursday was a day spent with qianqian. haha. we studied in the noon. And we met alot of mjc people. Qianqian was saying she didnt know her school people study so much as she's always at home and didnt know what the rest are doing outside. Well. Study. yes. all JC people do is, study! what a good life. haha. And we went shopping after that! i love the shopping outing spent with yiwen, shipei, eloise and qianqian. We had a great time together. Thanks shipei for all the funny and silly actions and jokes. You make our day man. hahaha! but i love shopping with them. Its amazing how we understand each other's 'style' so well. Haha. especially qianqian's!!! Everytime we see a shirt that we think qianqian will wear, we'll just shout "qianqian!" haha. but we had fun:) and we were even thinking of exchanging style one day. Like yiwen wearing qianqian's style and me wearing yiwen's style and so on. hahaha. i look forward to another shopping outing with you girls :)

Friday was another packed day. Tuition, service learning then follow up training session with pastor lia!:) Service learning was better than i expected. And i got to know cch people in the kids connect thing! Its a small world afterall. Seriously. I was super shocked and excited. They were telling me about the cch camp and stuff. And this guy was telling me, that our cch camp is 10 times better than his old church camp. Haha. When i told fungqi that, she was like super happy. Haha. And another kid told me how he finds the kid connect thingy boring after going for cch camp! HAHA. Yeah, of cos. We're heart of God church:) Im not boasting. But where else can you find kids who will be so passionate about church and God, always reaching out to their friends in school. haha. Follow up training with pastor lia was just powerful. I indeed learnt so much from pastor lia and pastor lia really spend alot of time and effort in preparing for the notes and training. I love my pastors :) Follow up is really the foundation for all christians and i want to give my best for the follow ups im going to do next time. I really really love heart of God church. Many thoughts were just going through in my mind. What pastor lia said really struck me, serving God is not about our feelings, but we serve God with our character. That sentence just struck me and hit me so hard. God was just speaking to me throughout the whole follow up training. Lead by His revelation and not by my own knowledge. That'll be the most powerful kind of leadership, when we are being led by His spirit. i desire for more of His presence and power in my life. Its time to expand my mindset and spirit. Today's service just spoke to me too. I felt like all my burdens are being lifted. I was feeling so burdened past few days. But, im going to let go and let God take control. Sow and you will reap :)

Okay. The burger is making me sleepy. Goodnight:)

Let my lifesong sing to You

Having mass conver with people now:)

Today's the last day of school! Gonna miss the 3 of them! And we saw a poster today titled"effects of stress" and there were 4 of them. Each of them really represents each of us! Huishi and cheryl's ones are the funniest! Shall wait for cheryl to post the picture. haha. And im sure they're gonna miss my "HAI-ings" Haha. Went down to TP after school and i felt like an alien there. But i had a great time with a bunch of great people. Though was just a casual lunch, i love this kind of company. Accompanied jasmine to polyclinic and waited for a looong time. haha. talked about qualities of husband again. and yes, my "tip-toe and kiss" thing shall come true:) hahaha. jasmine must be laughing when she reads this. haha. and had dinner with family before a long and tiring tuition. i must say, i love my parents. my mom was asking what im so frustrated about recently. She really cares for me:) And, shes coming for parenting workshop tmr! i told her, i will tell her after the workshop. So she will be able to help me better and not nag at me. HAHA.

Alright alright, study. i know. but i want to proclaim here: i love my life! though i may be sad, disappointed, tired, frustrated, irritated, stress and many more negative feelings you can think about, im still loving my life. i have only one life to live. how i choose to live it lies in my hands. i want to make my life a significant one. And i thank God for friends who care. for zhenghui who calls me when i wasnt feeling good, for jasmine who keeps speaking life to me, for cheryl jiamin huishi for always making me laugh in school, for zhilin who says she'll pray for my future husband(-.-), for weiyin who always shares good news with me and everyone, especially d5, who's always there to make me happy:) And most importantly, i thank God for jieru who always sow into our lives, teaching us to be better leaders and to love others. and i thank God for pastors and heart of God church:) im really sad i cant make it for pastoral meetng:( but im excited for the follow ups with pastor lia! There's so much more i can learn. I want to receive more. And i want to keep loving people and loving life. God has been faithful. I see light in the darkness. When im weak, He is strong. His grace is sufficient for me:) It has been a terrible week. Jiamin says, it takes 3 weeks to break a habit. I will die. this 3 weeks is crucial for me!!! how can i waste 3 weeks. haha. but, with God's power, i shall break it in 3 more days. I ll be a happier person then ! :)

When im weak, You are strong
You're my feet when i cant move on
You are the light in the dark
You're the whisper inside my heart

guess what! i napped for four hours just now! Jieru was saying it wasnt a nap at all. haha.But i didnt mean to. i only lied on my parents' huge comfy bed and before i knew it, i was in lala land and did not come back to reality. haha. how i wish i can stay there longer. haha. but my tutorials and studies were haunting me even in lala land D: and when i woke, the sky was dark and it was 9. how horrible is that. no wonder, im so awake now:)

school is great. laughed alot in school to de-stress:) its good to have friends who are stress too cos we can de-stress together:D
melvin showed me this song ytd and i think the lyrics is really meaningful. the climb by miley cyrus.

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

I was just praying in the afternoon. Im beginning to dislike what i'm feeling and thinking nowadays. The thoughts that always pull me down everytiime i try to focus on my studies. I prayed that He'll cast them all away. And, it came to me. That noone and nothing can make us sad or disappointed without our consent, or rather, God's consent. Many times, its our emotions that led us to feel all the bad and negative feelings and sadly, most people gave consent to these emotions by allowiing them to control us. Its such a horrible thing to let emotions rule over the way we live our life. Its scary. But, God's will is not for us to feel that way. He wants us to live each day, having the joy of the Lord in us and more than that, spreading this joy to the people around us. yeah, i ll rely and depend only on Him. I ll get over it and move every mountain in my life. i live to glorify Him.

On a random note, i was talking to weiyin about dream husband. Haha. And shipei is the funniest. i remember her telling me her criteria for her husband - good looking, buy rose for her blahblah. and best, averagely rich. HAHA. how do you even gauge how rich one guy is? seriously.. haha. and weiyin also wants someone a little rich. haha. so realistic. yeah if i can dream, i ll dream for a rich rich man:) but in reality, averagely rich sounds good:) everyone says i have high expectations. but then again, all i pray for is someone who will love me for who i am, williing to do anything to make me happy and will never never never never never hurt me or make me sad. a fairytale story with a happy ending :) hahaha :x every girl is a guy's missing rib. cool huh. so dont worry of not getting a life partner! hahaha!

its 1 am... sleep or study? hmm.

Had hq after school and it was a long hq. But it was great. Truly, every impression slip is a piece of destiny. haha. The tpjc group is growing and all the leaders have a good feel about this red rain harvest. It might not be a big group of new friends but its going to be more focused:) One life at a time:) I'm really excited! There're so many people i want to meet. I know im going to expand in capacity during this period of time!

School is still horrible but with the crazy but fun bunch of people in school, im beginning to 'like' school more:) haha. Thanks jm for making me laugh with huishi's story after seeing me so sad and stress. hahaha! Im laughing to myself now as im thinking of that story. hahaha! oh man. haha. my birthday is coming and im going to be 18! i just got a revelation today that promises can never last because people have no control of what's going to happen next. Whats the point of making a promise and then break it, causing hurt on people. There's no such thing as forever, only eternity in the kingdom of God. Only God's promises can be trusted cos He is a faithful God. Honestly, im feeling so emotionally led nowadays and just stressing myself over A's. Furthermore, the hot and humid weather is driving me mad. I'm really afraid that i wont be able to make it to uni. Just had a quarrel with my mom over that last night. I'm really afraid and there's so much fear in me you'll never guess how much there is. haha. everyday in school, people are just mentioning abbout A's and how much they've been studying. I really need more encouragements and faith. I made a decision to not be emotionally led but be spirit-led. I will not lose to the devil! WILL NOT!

Life is going to be great and greater:) This is how i choose to live my life.
Let Your harvest in:)

more confirmed new friends!:D weiyin, you're powerful lah!:) im really excited for RR!:D lives are going to be changed for His glory:) Prayer meeting today was great:D And my bro sent me to church today!:D and he even gave zhenghui a lift:) i have a cool brother:D thanks brother!:D

i cant wait for RR. Although i know i will not have tiime to study or even complete my homework, im still looking forward to this weekend and even hq:) its gonna be great! breakthrough 1000!:D

Many things happened recently, in cg and in my life especially in the area of studies. Not really good things. But ive learnt to look on the positive side. Thanks zhenghui for being so truthful to me and being such a good friend:) i know i can trust you:) and i really thank God for the people i hang out with in school:) I found myself laughing more in school nowadays. Must be jiamin's nonsense. But i also found myself sighing more each day. HAHA. My heart is alaways so heavy. Sighing kinds of makes me feel better. HAI. But yeah, just a little more to the end of A's:) no more emo songs kay peijun:)

Zhenghui just told me that im overage for cinderella. haha. true true. but still, i shall be a modern day cinderella:D heehee. But, my mom keeps complaining that im not doing houseworks and cant cook D: maybe, i'll be snow white instead :) haha.

God is really faithful and His promises never fail :) Ive seen Him working in so many lives and i'm glad that i have the privilege to be able to serve Him.

my eye is hurting D: NOOO. it cant hurt that badly :( why! what happened to my big round eyes D: i guess i have to sleep earlier:)

its gonna rain RED tomorrow:) bring your brolly out, okay?:D

Its 21st may! Time passes fast and thats scary. Half a year has gone. Soon, i will find myself sitting in the examination hall taking A's. D:

My bro almost drove me to school today but he was slow! So i took cheryl's van instead. haha. Wasn't feeling good during china studies and jm noticed. haha. i told them i need a lot a lot of ice cream. haha! And we almost went to eat ice cream but we changed our mind after that. But, we went out and even huishi, the one who always goes home after school came for lunch with us. And they said it was for my sake. Haha. But, thanks girls:) We had a great time together:) I felt much better. And, thanks jasmine for accompanying me after that and for the honey lemon though i didnt really tell you anything. It was so unexpected! Haha. i was really touched:) and it really made me smiled:)

Went for cafe in church. and God did not answer zhenghui's and my prayers! Haha! But, im sure He has his reason. haha. Thanks zh anyway:) It was quite funny though. Was so tired that i decided to take cab home and gave ivy a lift. I didnt eat dinner and im feeling hungry right now:( But i brushed my teeth. So i shall only eat spiritual food for now. haha. I love spendiing time with God and i want to have the desire to draw closer to Him everyday, and understand His heart. Im rreally excited for Redrain!:) Sabrina is bringing a friend! She's a really funny person. And jasmine is bringiing her classmate. Im excited! Because that would mean that we ll have 6 tpjcian comiing on sunday including jessica:D And, weiyin is always having so much faith! I love faith:) It makes me a happy person because i know that all things is possible with God. And today i ll decide to be a happy person, not for my sake but because being happy can make others happy too:) people say i have a friendly and happy face. haha. i shall start smiling more:) because i know my God is a happy God.

Some photos taken yesterday during sports day. And really have to thank bryan for driving us to airport and even sending some of us back home:)

You girls are the reason why school is bearable:) haha.

today was a great day:)

School was mundane. I really hate school ever since past few weeks. But what can i do right. haha. I just have to endure a little more.. just a little further:)

After school, met up with jessica and jasmine for lunch. Its been a long time since we last went out together. And they accompanied me to lavendar to collect my passport. There was like 200 people in between my queue. So we went to walk around before jasmine left for her appointment. something happened when jessica and me went to look for sweets. An indian man accused me of calling tiko when i was telling jessica "lets go" LOL. I was -.- And he was really fierce.. Ask me if you want to hear the whole story. He's just totally annoying but i told myself iim not going to let him spoil my mood. Its just too ridiculous. Had a good time spent with jessica though. Hearing her talk about how she can't wait for the day when she can serve God in church. She's really someone who has dreams and visions of doing great things for God. It will come to pass:)

Met jasmine at tampines inter again and in the beginning, we did not plan to walk around tamp one but i wanted to go to chamelon to get accessories. In the end, we spent 3hrs in tamp one! Met my brother there and he successfully gave me a shock. Really saw alot people in tamp one like my neighbour and yishuen. haha. And jasmine kept seeing her sec sch friends. Yeah. We went to the disney shop and aunty jasmine just couldnt stop telling me what she's gonna buy for her kids in the future. How could you plan for what to buy for your kid when you haven thought of who to marry, jasmiine! HAHA. i shall help you keep a lookout:) haha. And she just cant help but keep dropping hints of what she wants from me when she has a new house in the future. Haiyo... But it was fun hanging out with you woman after such a long time! :D Thank you!:) Sushi was nice too:) We're gonna explore tamp 1 shop by shop one day kay:)

The heart of God is for the lost. Yeah. I thank God that im in heart of God church. Ironically, christians are not the nicest people on earth. I've seen many christians who behave worse than non-christians. Christians who judge people, mock at people's weakness, putting people down just so they can look good. I see them everyday in school, outside. It breaks my heart to see people putting down people. Honestly, I despise those people who put down the weak. Why can't we just be secured? Jesus never never puts down the weak. Instead, He lifts up the weak, He makes the weak strong in His strength. Truly, like what pastor preached, its not about being a christian, but being Christ-like. The heart of God is for the unsaved souls, the lost sheeps. We should not just stay within the four walls of church, but to build a church without walls:) We should not stay in our comfort zone, but start to step out, and reach to the people in the world. This inspires me again and again. Somehow, I always think that most of my friends are already christians and that became an excuse for me to lose the passion to evangelise. but, God says, lift up your eyes and look at the harvest. The harvest is truly plentiful. Yes, the harvest is truly plentiful but the laboureres are few. I say, "God, use me and take me so Your harvest can come." I've seen how weiyin has been loving and reaching out to her friends. I see the burden she has for her friends. I understand the heart of God and I pray for a heart of compassion in me, to love the unlovables. I know i will see all these broken souls when i start to open up my eyes to the things unseen, open my spiritual eyes.

Are you going to be the someone who is going to divide, subtract, add or multiply values to others?

Create in me a new heart
One that follows You

Place Your heart inside my soul
A heart that's ever true,
One that's after You.

Mother's day event was just great. Seeing many mothers coming to church and being touched by the numerous videos shown, my heart just melted. And my mom came on sat:) Although she did not say anything, im sure she has been touched by the testimony and videos and of cos, by His presence. I'm still praying for the day to come when we can worship God together in His house. The performance was quite scary though i dont know why. But chekyeow said many parents liked our performance:) yay:)

I bought a flower for my mom ytd before going to aunt's house. We had a gathering over there and had much fun and craziness with my cousins:) I cant wait to hang out together again. There's always so much fun. The little kids, our nephews and nieces are cute too although there was this mischievious kid who keeps bullying his sister and even us! TSK. he hit my head and when my cousin "orhor" him, he started crying-.- Haha. But well, they brought a smile on my face:)

Went to ikea today to study with zhilin and venus. I like the food there:) Didnt study much this weekend and doing last min work right now. I hate what im feeling now. Im having so many thoughts in my head and so much distractions:( Maths test on thursday and i still dont understand a thing about normal and sampling distribution. Im going crazy soon and i dont like this feeling of sian-ness. But, if love is a decision and not feeling, then happiness should be a decision too and not just a feeling. It becomes a revelation to me a few mins ago:) Yes, i shall make a decision to be happy instead of being controlled by my emotions.

I know there's so much more i can do with His strength and power. I just need to lift up my eyes and focus on Him. FOCUS peijun, FOCUS!

i learnt a new word today:) solipsistic its not a good word to use on people. haha.

Holy Spirit come in power, change my heart
I want to live for You my God
Let Your spirit come in power, change my life
That i may live for You my Lord

So i look to You, long to see You move
Lord i lift my hands before my King and pray

24 prayer meeting was just powerful:) I was anticipating for it since the beginning of the week. I knew it was going to be great and it was:) Everyone was just praying fervently. I was really touched to see weiyin and shipei praying so strongly for their friends. By their prayers, i can see the burdens they are carrying to see their friends save. It just moved me and inspires me. We'll never be satisfied but will keep praying and praying:) I can't wait for the next 24 pm and i promise i will stay over in church the next time! haha. My dad is getting paranoid due to the swine flu. I dont seem to get well ever siince the previous time i fell ill. I dont want to be a target of swine flu! :( I think i am getting paranoid too. Well. Lets practice social responsibility and everything will be well!:)

We went to send carlo off in the morning. Just when he was going into the departure gate, we started crying. Nic was the worse.. :( well.. its kind of sad but life goes on:) haha its not like he is going to fight in a war... HAHA. But, it just struck me at that moment that it still feels better to cry with your friends than alone. I wanted to laugh when i see them cry but also wanted to cry aat the same time. Its just me to cry when i see people cry.

My brother just pranked me that he used my thermometer to measure his temperature :S

Bye carlo miguel saavedra. Thanks for all the nonsense and jokes although you're irritating too. haha. See you in 3 years time:)

Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
Eddie Cantor US comedian & singer (1892 - 1964)

I found this when i was looking for a quote for my gp essay question on slowing down in life instead of speeding it up. Somehow, i got a revelation while doing this essay and through this quote. I find it really meaningful. I just thought of how everyone is just moving so fast in life and as a result, neglect their loved ones and the scenery in life. As we are constantly moving fast in life, we tend to take the people around us for granted. When was the last time you greet your parents good morning or good night? When was the last time we spend the whole day to prepare a surprise for our family members? When was the last time you actually spent hours on the phone with your close friends? I guess hardly anyone can afford to do that now. As i was reading the quote, i felt God speaking to me and everything just click. As we are moving so fast in life, are we still able to slow down and give him the best time of each day to just spend time with Him. Like the quote says, if we fail to do it, we'll not only miss His presence by going too fast, soon, we will find ourselves missing the sense of where we are going and why. We will lose the purpose of whatever we are doing now. This applies as we are busy in the kingdom of God. Admist all the busyness, we still need to spend time with Him and constantly hearing from Him and that's when we will be assured of where we are going in God and why we are doing the things we are doing. All for His glory:)

yay, how cool is that:) haha. Okay, now i have to complete the other half of my essay :(