Mother's day event was just great. Seeing many mothers coming to church and being touched by the numerous videos shown, my heart just melted. And my mom came on sat:) Although she did not say anything, im sure she has been touched by the testimony and videos and of cos, by His presence. I'm still praying for the day to come when we can worship God together in His house. The performance was quite scary though i dont know why. But chekyeow said many parents liked our performance:) yay:)

I bought a flower for my mom ytd before going to aunt's house. We had a gathering over there and had much fun and craziness with my cousins:) I cant wait to hang out together again. There's always so much fun. The little kids, our nephews and nieces are cute too although there was this mischievious kid who keeps bullying his sister and even us! TSK. he hit my head and when my cousin "orhor" him, he started crying-.- Haha. But well, they brought a smile on my face:)

Went to ikea today to study with zhilin and venus. I like the food there:) Didnt study much this weekend and doing last min work right now. I hate what im feeling now. Im having so many thoughts in my head and so much distractions:( Maths test on thursday and i still dont understand a thing about normal and sampling distribution. Im going crazy soon and i dont like this feeling of sian-ness. But, if love is a decision and not feeling, then happiness should be a decision too and not just a feeling. It becomes a revelation to me a few mins ago:) Yes, i shall make a decision to be happy instead of being controlled by my emotions.

I know there's so much more i can do with His strength and power. I just need to lift up my eyes and focus on Him. FOCUS peijun, FOCUS!

i learnt a new word today:) solipsistic its not a good word to use on people. haha.

Holy Spirit come in power, change my heart
I want to live for You my God
Let Your spirit come in power, change my life
That i may live for You my Lord

So i look to You, long to see You move
Lord i lift my hands before my King and pray

24 prayer meeting was just powerful:) I was anticipating for it since the beginning of the week. I knew it was going to be great and it was:) Everyone was just praying fervently. I was really touched to see weiyin and shipei praying so strongly for their friends. By their prayers, i can see the burdens they are carrying to see their friends save. It just moved me and inspires me. We'll never be satisfied but will keep praying and praying:) I can't wait for the next 24 pm and i promise i will stay over in church the next time! haha. My dad is getting paranoid due to the swine flu. I dont seem to get well ever siince the previous time i fell ill. I dont want to be a target of swine flu! :( I think i am getting paranoid too. Well. Lets practice social responsibility and everything will be well!:)

We went to send carlo off in the morning. Just when he was going into the departure gate, we started crying. Nic was the worse.. :( well.. its kind of sad but life goes on:) haha its not like he is going to fight in a war... HAHA. But, it just struck me at that moment that it still feels better to cry with your friends than alone. I wanted to laugh when i see them cry but also wanted to cry aat the same time. Its just me to cry when i see people cry.

My brother just pranked me that he used my thermometer to measure his temperature :S

Bye carlo miguel saavedra. Thanks for all the nonsense and jokes although you're irritating too. haha. See you in 3 years time:)

Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
Eddie Cantor US comedian & singer (1892 - 1964)

I found this when i was looking for a quote for my gp essay question on slowing down in life instead of speeding it up. Somehow, i got a revelation while doing this essay and through this quote. I find it really meaningful. I just thought of how everyone is just moving so fast in life and as a result, neglect their loved ones and the scenery in life. As we are constantly moving fast in life, we tend to take the people around us for granted. When was the last time you greet your parents good morning or good night? When was the last time we spend the whole day to prepare a surprise for our family members? When was the last time you actually spent hours on the phone with your close friends? I guess hardly anyone can afford to do that now. As i was reading the quote, i felt God speaking to me and everything just click. As we are moving so fast in life, are we still able to slow down and give him the best time of each day to just spend time with Him. Like the quote says, if we fail to do it, we'll not only miss His presence by going too fast, soon, we will find ourselves missing the sense of where we are going and why. We will lose the purpose of whatever we are doing now. This applies as we are busy in the kingdom of God. Admist all the busyness, we still need to spend time with Him and constantly hearing from Him and that's when we will be assured of where we are going in God and why we are doing the things we are doing. All for His glory:)

yay, how cool is that:) haha. Okay, now i have to complete the other half of my essay :(

Easter services was awesome and the harvest was indeed plentiful :) All the plannings and administration till late into the night was worth it. It's great working with the leaders and i felt that there was really teamwork. We were just helping out with each other's teams and all the new friends. There's more to come and i'm excited!:D Sabrina joined us this Easter too and i'm just so happy. Now, there're four of us in TPJC and i believe more will come. Truly, God's promise never fails:) The water baptism service was great too. I really want to be water baptised with my family. That will be the happiest thing that can ever happen. I'm still praying. And i know God hears my prayers. This mother's day, something good is going to happen :D

So many things happened these few days! There're so many things i want to blog about but I'm just tooo tired to type them out. But i totally love my life :) Of course, there will be times when i just feel discouraged and unhappy and frustrated, I know that God and my family and friends are always with me and I am contented :) I believe that there is more in life. Things are going to get better :) Whenever something bad happens, i will tell myself to guard my heart. It kind of remind me not to sink deeper in.

Last 3 days, i had been home late at night or even midnight and went out of house in the early noon. I really miss my parents and my brother who just came back from laos two days back. haha. At least, i managed to spend time at home with them now:) Saturday, John went off to army and we went to send him. I thank God im a girl and i dont have to go army :D It's kind of scary:( That reminds me that my brother is going army soon :( Hai. Yesterrday was another exciting day. Had hq in church from 1 - 6 and headed to marina square to meet my cousins for kbox buffet! I really love to spend time with them because i can just put aside all my worries and burdens and just have a crazy and fun time with them! We sang and sang and ate and ate. And we were totally crazy about Love Story. haha. The guys were screaming and screaming into the mic. Its kind of irritating to have guys joining in for kbox. Haha. The funniest part of the whole outing was after we left kbox.

As quoted from weiwei's blog,
"the funniest thing was when we were going home! the whole marina sq was deserted already since we left at 1030. so we were sinigng love story out loud in the center of the mall. and there was this gay couple infront of us! so cool! they were westerners and were holding hands! gosh! and so we were walking towards the same direction as them and it was like:

Us: (out loud) Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone, i'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run, You'll be the prince and i'll be the princess.."
Gay guy: (super high pitched) Its a love story. baby just say yes... *chuckles*"

HAHA. This was super funny. It makes my hair stands. I still can remember the smile of the gay guy. And they were holding hands happily as they swayed till high. damn funny. haha weiwei's blog always makes it sound so funny. http://wxcrossedwx.blogspot.com/

haha. I really love my life. Even in school, i still enjoy the time spent with huishi cheryl jiamin and all others. Huishi and me always laugh at izza for always seems to appear so stress and we'll keep singing all the 90s pop songs by westlife and backstreet boys. I think God really planned for all these, putting me where i am now. i thank God for all His wonderful plans. Im really contented but im never satisfied.

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my heart to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me

Its 2.30am now. Im still feeling happy and relaxed that SA1 has finally ended:) Yet, im not looking forward in getting back results. I know there's a possibility that i might fail everything. And, i missed maths paper too because of my bad stomach. Well, everything happens for a reason:) I guess its a wake-up call for me.

Today was a long day. I had 3 hrs of history paper! And we had to complete 4 essays in 3 hrs! :( How torturing that is. And i started out my day when cheryl called me at 7.20am. We were supposed to meet at 8am to study iin school. But we decided to meet at 9 instead since we decided that we NEED more sleep. In the end i only woke at 9 when she called me again. And i thought she was already in school. I rushed down to school and realise that she's still at pasir ris-.- Finally, she reached at 11. We were late for like 3 hrs! :s I doubt i will do well for history. I did not complete qns 3. And i really hate questions on southeast asia because i can never never rememer the examples. I prefer international history so much more. I still hope i get an A for history during A's. Its possible!:D

After paper, i met up withh weiyin, zhenghui and shanyan to watch confession of a shopaholic. Its a pretty nice show!:) Watching movie is indeed a good form of destress. I felt much better. haha. The movie really makes one wants to shop shop and shop! And i just have the thought that it will be pretty cool if my boyfriend opens a shopping mall:) haha. Then i can shop for all the things for FREE! and even better, he can close the shopping mall for me to shop ALONE. And all the sales people in the mall will only be serving me. haha. I totally can imagine that in my head now. HAHA. And he can propose to me iin the shopping mall too and it will be great if the shopping mall includes indoor theme park like the one in genting. hahhaa. with indoor ferris wheel and rollercoaster. cool!:) Yes, and i am just joking. My fairytale story will never come true unless God allows it. Haha. I remembered Jieru says she wants to sit a hot air balloon on her wedding. Hahaha. I dont mind if he books a whole cruise for me:) HAHA. yes. Its time for me to go to my dreamland now. :) I think i should open a business helpiing on marriage proposals since i have many nice ideas:) But like zhenghui says, she would rather her boyfriend thinks of the proposal himself. I pretty much agree. Haha. If everyone thinks that way, i will go bankrupt. So, such a business is a crazy thought.

I have no idea whats in the mind of guys nowadays. My brother just cut bangs. BANGS! yes. His hair looks like mushroom now. And he seems to love it-.- Well, i have no comments. Haha. And my brother bought a nitendo ds for me! Huishi was just telling me to be careful in case he has otherwise motive. Haha. But i thank God for such wonderful brother. And i hope he doesnt read my blog.

Easter is coming and im totally excited for it! Shipei and me just have the idea of painting easter eggs on the day before Good Friday! Haha. Its gonna be fun! :D

I didnt want to blog. But zhenghui wants me to blog because we had an exciting trip to the airport just now :( We found out that delifrance is closed for renovation! How dumb are we:( We actually made the wrong choice by going down to the airport, thinking that the delifrance is a good place to study. After we checked with the information counter, zhenghui said sth really funny. She says, "Why delifrance didnt inform us before they are closed." Haha. Okay it doesnt sound funny here but it was quite funny at that moment. We were totally sian-ed. I will never go delifrance again! They cheated our feelings:( In the end, we took the skytrain back agan to terminal 2 and settled down at coffee bean. i cant remember what happened after that. Study makes one go mad. Hai. Everytime i try to read something, there're just so much noises flooding my mind:( God, can you please sweep all of them away. haha. But its not impossible to focus if i just place my handphone at a place where i cannot see it. Sometimes, i feel like throwing it away, putting it in the fridge maybe. haha. seriously. I hate distractions. But then again, i have to be contactable 24/7 :) That itself is one thing. But, ive made up my mind, i shall not be a slave to technology! :)

Yes, i typed a chunk of thing but i decided to delete them. haha. i want to upload pictures, but im lazy:(

I read this verse another day and its just so powerful:)

1 John 4:4 (New Living Translation)
But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world.

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart
I offer up my life

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

"Thursday, February 26, 2009

this is what boredom can do
I am in lecture now ............. And i am super bored as you can tell.
Peijun thinks that her phone is so coool!:D
Fine fine I fogot to mention that I am using her phone.
Thanks much!
Huishi is playing and drawing her lion and jiamin is acting like she's paying attention.
bryan is acting cool as usual and songyuan and melvin's mouths are opened wide as usual!
Kim looks like he is having question marks in his head and we can't see visa...
Weeyang looks like a bear!
Cheryl and peijun are the nicest ppl here among the rest:)

Posted by cheryl chern at 10:29 AM "

HAHAHA we're just so lame. thats what happen in school when you get stress.

i have so many things to blog about but im pretty lazy to type them out. In short, this year doesnt seem to be such a smooth year for me:( many things have happened since the beginning of this year. disappointments, discouragements, distractions, stress, tiredness. yes, there are just many bad thoughts going through my mind and im trying to pluck them out one by one slowly. i hate it when i start to think too much bad thoughts. how am i supposed to cope all these by my own strength D: but this verse always encourages me,
Galatians 6:9
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.

Yes, guard your heart peijun! its all about discipline and faith this year. i just need more encouragements and assurance.

Pastor tan is just so powerful. im totally in awe of him! His sermon is mind-blowing and as he shares about CARE initiative, my mouth was wide opened. he is just doing so much not only in the kingdom of God but also in society. Interestingly, his sermon reminds me of GP essays. He gives us the point, elaboration of the point and then examples! WHAO! i really love it when he gives the examples because they're real life testimony which we will be inspired by. Affluence to influence! now, i see a greater purpose in education. i want to excel in my studies!:D jiayou peijun!

"Love God, Love People, Love Life"
Thats what i really want to live for.

just feel like blogging. just in case one day i lose all my memories, at least i know how my life was like in the past. HAHA. i pray that will never happen though :x

2009 has been great so far. perhaps, the greatest discouragement is studies. i did so badly for my topical test. especially econs and china studies. i scored 0/30 for my econs case study. its totally no mark. i could have cried man, but i guess i have to be responsible for it since i didnt put in any effort before the test. i seriously think i need an econs tuition. i dont want to fail econs anymore! D:

despite all these bad reports, life has been good! but tiring. haha. however, im not relying on my own strength anymore. im learning to rely on Him. theres just so much things to do and i could have just crashed without Him guiding me. Last weekend has been really tiring but awesome:D Sat had cafe, co, service, cafe then stayover at jieru's house. Pastor Ming is just powerful! i totally enjoy his service and more than just enjoying, im blown away! i want to know God's calling for my life. also saturday was truly a great day! shipei accepted Christ! peifen was just so touched that she kept crying. funny girl. but im sure there's a party in heaven! oh wait, i bet there's like more than one party cos im sure many people renew their commitments and were saved that day!:D did cafe after service and joined the cg after that. It was super funny. gavin was just strumming random notes and composed a song for dom and garrett joined us too. haha. peifen is one funny and nonsensical person. Around 11, jieru, val and me went back to jieru's house. while crossing the road, we saw zhenghui and we took her dad's lorry! it was super cool cos its my second time! haha! At jieru's house, we had a great meeting and our ceg attendance broke through 40 that weekend! at first, we only had 38 in the ya and jieru was saying we need to pray for 2 more for sunday. then i remembered the two impression slips on the table which jieru had not added into the ya. thus, tada! we had 40 for that weekend! it was awesome! we ended the meeting around 230 but slept only around 4. haha. and jingfen, val and me woke up like less than 2 hrs later to prepare to go for amt. you can imagine how tired we were. amt was just great. dom and ivan totally inspired me. val and me were like super tired, trying to keep each other awake. then jieru msged us and asked us to wake up. haha. but i've indeeed learnt so much during amt and i just felt God guiding me, telling me what i should do and everything. grow grow grow! Prayer meeting was just powerful too and again, God spoke to me:D Charleston preached a powerful word and i just felt that the sermon was so applicable to jessica and jessica felt the same way too. haha. she was just sharing with me that she felt she needs to step out of her comfort zone especially on the part of reaching out to her friends. whao. she has definitely catch the heart of evangelising:) yeah man! we're not convenient christians. haha.whao. throughout the whole day, i was like a zombie. thus, i didnt study when i reach home though i tried to stay awake:( i couldnt even sleep in peace cos all that was in my head was hoomework homework. D:

school is celebrating friendship week and today is hi5 day-.- i think thats one of the few good reasons why its good to be in jc. at least, you still have all these rubbish and they can be quite fun sometimes. haha. valentine day is coming. many people anticipate this day, hoping that their prince charming riding a white horse would pop out from nowhere and gives them roses, balloons and so on. on the other hand, there's also a small group of people who sees valentine day as just another normal day, studying and sleeping on that day. i think jiamin fits in this group. haha!:x it would be a lie if i say i see valentine day as just another day or that i dont want anything on valentine day since i told huishi i want a teddy bear and balloons. haha. but what i really want on valentine day is to see more souls saved in the house of God. its heartfest on sat! and pastor joakim is joining us for ev service! im really excited about it! pastor joakim is just so zai! how can anyone not be inspired by his sermon. im prayiing for God to drop more names iinto my heart and for more opportunities to invite people. if you have no date on valentine day, why not considering joining me! haha. and cheryl birthday falls on valentine day. haha. mr ng was saying that her boyfriend next tiime will be super lucky since he doesnt have to buy extra present cos he can buy one present for both her birthday and valentine-.- haha. rubbish.

STUDY TIME! i dontwant to be distracted anymore. FOCUS, peijun! i know i can do it, not by my own might or strength, but by His power!:D

How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You

i really want to blog but im quite lazy to blog too. haha. but CNY has been great:D i totally miss all my cousins now:( we'll meet up soon!:D

On last saturday, i went shopping with xinyi and two little boys, weiwei and kaikai joined us after that. we continued shopping and had dinner together with ling after that at some sausage place:D as quoted iin weiwei's blog "dinner was super amusing. we were laughing like some idiots until our stomach was hurting so badly. admist peijun's kelong and tanxinyi's sausage bullets" yeah, i shared with them my horrible kelong trip and we had a great time laughing. how i wish there were with us at that time. its okay! we'll go on a holiday together soon:D after dinner at around 9, we wanted to sing song and went partyworld to check the rates but it was damn expensive. we tried kbox after that and it wasnt any cheaper. we really wanted to go in and two of our parents allow us to sing till midde of the night while weiwei and ling had a hard time persuading their mom:( weiwei was really emo after that. haha. joker. there will be a next time alright!:D we went to coffee club to have a drink after that:D

Sunday was a family day:D it was cny eve! it was also the first tiime my bro stayed at home! amazing!:D haha. well.. he gets super irritating when he is around me. rah. at evening, we went to watch the wedding game. its quite a sweet show. after that, we had dinner at pu tian restaurant. its damn ex like 200 bucks. which means 50 bucks per person. but aww.. i totally love the shark fiins and the fish:D i love my family:D

the first two days of cny was just great because we had much fun together:D i had little hongbaos though:( super sad. dont ask me how much i got cos its pathetic:( haha. but i still love cny. we played swing and playground on the first day and watched movie on second day. ate good food and much rubbish too. i love my cousins:D

today is back to reality again:( i dont like. but well, its reality. haha. i shall conquer all my studies man. its now or never! i want three As for my A's :s its possible alright. all things are possible with God:D

i miss church and d5 so much:D see you all soon!:D

"create in me a new heart, one that follows You.
Place in me a deep desire to know You as i'm known"
this has been the cry of my heart..

:D